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My campaign has gotten off to a slow start, but it is starting to take off now, after a few weeks and i am very grateful to all my friends who have donated. I have raised enough now for almost three treatments of the total of ten that I need. I am seeing the naturopathic doctor in marin county the first time this thursday and he is an expert on treating lyme disease. I can start soon on the ozone now, I am sure, and many who do it say they feel a lot better after even two or three treatments. Others take longer, of course. Thanks to all and to Spirit who moves All and All!”

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Addict tries cryotherapy for benzo withdrawal symptoms after CBD oil fails

cryotherapy
« on: June 12, 2019, 08:14:55 am »

[Buddie]

hi guys, currently starting up the second half of my taper again now that college is done with, i can focus more on getting through this instead of worrying about deadlines.

so i was introduced to a cryospa near my home by a friend, and initially wanted to go to check on their CBD oil they had for sale. i’ve been using CBD to help with the rebound anxiety and insomnia, though it doesn’t fix everything, it helps. i ended up trying a 3 minute cryotherapy session for free, the woman there was sweet and her daughter was actually understanding of my brain injury and also my withdrawals. i did a lot of research and looked at some good studies done on anxiety/depression and cryo, withdrawals and cryo, etc. it was a small, family owned place and thus i ended up coming back and trying it again last week, then purchasing a month pass for treatments for around 200 bucks. usually medical cryotherapy costs, bare minimum, 60 bucks per session so i think it was a good deal.

this whole week i’ve been back into my taper head on, getting horrid migraines every day, cold sweats, severe depression and ideation, that infamous klonopin chest pressure, panic attacks, awful nausea/vomiting and so on. i’ve almost felt like i had the flu and was about to pass out at points. :'( i go in for one 3 minute session as much as i can, i’ve gone about six sessions now and i can honestly say i feel like it’s easing a lot of my symptoms’ intensity. i’m kind of a wuss, and even i was able to do the sessions, it’s not really that bad compared to sitting with my withdrawals every day. i think taking a cold shower is more uncomfortable somehow. it also gets easier every time.

when i go in, i do the full body treatment up to my neck, and it helps neutralize my feverish/cold sweat episodes for the rest of the day, makes me feel less tired, sometimes even less nauseated. with my brain injury, i’m on bedrest anyways, so i need the good circulation i get from cold shock. it helps the achy feeling in my body, and REALLY helps my back pain. i feel like i can finally sleep after i go, because my muscles just relax and my swelling and pain goes down throughout everywhere. it’s a little early to tell but i think it’s even helping clear my brain fog and dp/dr a bit, i feel ‘clearer’ for an hour or so. i get an endorphin rush afterwards, as well as norepinephrine, which i’m sure helps in other aspects, and in general it just makes me feel relaxed and not so wound up and sick.

i haven’t seen a lot of people talk about this kind of therapy for withdrawals but i’ve been told it can help with them and personally, i look forward to going in every chance i get when i feel absolutely horrible. i always feel somewhat better if not a lot better after. if you can find a local place, it can be pretty affordable compared to other medical therapies and i would recommend it (which i don’t say much, i’m a huge skeptic on this stuff). i will post another thread if i see any major new improvements after my 15th session (which is when the promising study done on anxiety and depression ends).

thanks and my thoughts are will all you guys 🙂

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Xanax addicted pothead can’t watch TV without bursting into tears

Brain Hypersensitivity and Tension/Pressure Headaches and Sensitivity to TV
« on: May 08, 2019, 11:09:21 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi everybody,

Anyone else experiencing Tension/Pressure that hits you like a wave on the top of your head where it feels like someone is pushing you down? It’s really scary, I get dizzy and can’t walk. I also am really sensitive to noises (had to turn off the clocks in my house). And I am unusually sensitive/emotional to watching TV and news, I just feel very anxious and I cry when I normally NEVER cry, so I stopped watching it.

But, I am a HUGE Game of Thrones fan and it’s been really difficult/scary for me to watch the show because I get so much anxiety and I am scared I will have a stroke in my brain because it feels so weird! I feel like I know what part of my brain is being triggered with each different emotion. Anxiety/Stress gives me crazy Tension/Pressure Headaches, the other emotions feel like my brain is being stimulated with vibrations. Or I have goosebumps/chills in my brain (best way I can describe it), it’s just really weird and scary!

I’m scared to see my friends because I don’t know what emotion will be triggered with what they talk about or ask me, and how my brain is going to react to it! Has anyone else experienced this? If so, how long does it last? And do you have any coping tips or know of an OTC or herbal remedy? HELP!

I’m scared that this is permanent. I have been abusing Xanax for 13 years and started smoking marijuana, heavily for the past 2 years. I have a very high tolerance. The past 4 months I was pretty much smoking marijuana ALL DAY and night since I had really bad insomnia and was taking anywhere from 2 1/2-4 mgs of Xanax. About a month and a half ago I quit marijuana and smoking cigarettes, cold turkey. And decided to start tapering off Xanax by.25mg each week, but I started at 2mgs. And I think I reduced it too quickly and also the withdrawal from marijuana, I feel has magnified my withdrawal symptoms.

I feel like I’m going crazy and turning into a major hermit out of fear. Can anyone help, please? 🙏

Pothead begs Benzo Buddies for help

17 yrs benzo and 17 months off + weed
« on: April 10, 2019, 09:44:26 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello to all of you :),

I am extremely happy I found this forum.  :laugh: I am 35 yrs old male single. I was diagnosed with depression/ADD/ADHD when I was 17. The dosage I consume is very consistent throughout the years, 1 benzo and 1 anti depressant. Two years ago, I discover weed reduces my anxiety and sleep so much. I started to hang out with pothead friends then I found out benzo is @(*#! I cold turkey 17 months ago and I created a new habit of smoking pot. Everyday, all day none stop. A year ago, I didn’t smoke for a month and I still had serve symptoms. So I continue to consume cannabis ever since.

symptoms :

anxiety
dizziness and headache
foggy brain, there is like a pressure in the brain
muscle tightness entire body
impossible to have a good posture
extremely isolated with reality
depression
memory lost
hard to concentrate
heart palpitate
hypersensitive to noise, sounds, light
chest pain
hard to breath
blurry eyes
foggy brain
eeeeeeeeeeeeeee on my ear
coordination
directional lost

psychological :

family and friends are the biggest joke ever
2019 we communicate with our fingers and eyes on screen, I can’t stand the fact that people don’t reply or take my messages seriously. I get extremely upset that I would just give up and block the person right away. Why not call?
suicidal thoughts
severe repetitively negative thoughts
especially on tinder ( dating app ) I talk to ppl with respect but I get mistreated, like super mad with these girls. I know their mindset is not very healthy to begin with. Anyway I deleted the app yesterday.
tons of childhood memory came back
unable to maintain any relationship
fear of going out
takes a lot of effort to do a simple thing. ( going to grocery store, food )
is it weed or is it benzo withdrawal
nobody understand and sometimes I think I am crazy
feeling hopeless
tire, fatigue feeling all day
I do get this weird feeling coming back and forth. Sometimes it’s not obvious so I don’t know how to describe it. All of sudden my chest and heart have this tingling feel. It is hard to breath and then it’s gone.

For the past one and half year, I didn’t do anything. Blaze and youtube everyday. Whenever I tell someone my benzo withdrawal. They couldn’t understand and most of them want to argue with me. I don’t have any friends anymore, I don’t talk to my family.  Sometime, I feel extremely lonely but I am so afraid I will end up any relationships. I can’t afford to loose more friends. Is it me or is this benzo withdrawal????????

FM2(Flunitrazepam): Modipanol/Rohypnol        ***7 years
Syndoman 30mg.  FLURAZEPAM HCL                    ****4 years
MESYREL 50MG TRAZODONE HYDROCHLOR
LENDORMIN Brotizolam
Valdoxan Agomelatine

I only take 1 benzo and 1 anti depressant a day. Like the tablets we see from normal pharmaceutical drugs.

My apology for the long and boring words. It’s just so much anxiety even typing these out.

Best,

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Benzo addicts trade pills for marijuana

Cannabis for Relief
« on: August 07, 2018, 02:01:15 am »

[Buddie]

Does anyone use cannabis for relief from withdrawal symptoms? If so, Indica or Sativa? Any particular strain for calm/pain etc…

Re: Cannabis for Relief
« Reply #1 on: August 07, 2018, 02:22:26 am »

[Buddie]

I use a 2:1 CBD THC oil tincture. The oil goes right under your tounge and it helps a lot with sleep and nighttime anxiety. I also smoke regular high grade marijuana, usually a nice kush, it really takes the edge off, sometimes it makes me paranoid if my anxirety is real bad but otherwise it helps!

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Rahke’s Ramblings: Sicko Flicko recounts tale of when his cult guru Adi Da Samraj translated into white light (died)

Beloved
November 14, 2011 at 10:58am

Thank you my dear friends. I am finding Facebook to be a gas and a major vehicle of the Avataric Guru Adi Da Samraj {my Guru for many lifetimes now}.

This is the real beginning now of the Badmitton Diaries and my life story and spiritual autobiography. It is fitting that I blog so late, cause I am wild late nite person. i cannot seem to get the discipline down of going to bed early and gettin up early. and I do not care anymore anyhow. LOL

So here is the scoop and I will elaborate over the next few days. In the last few months, Adi Da Samraj , my Guru has rapidly drawn me into the fourth stage of life. This is the beginning of real spiritual practice in HIs Way of the Heart and a sort of “beginner practice” But he calls it the Salvation Phase of Divine Enlightement. I am sitting here laughing my ass off now as I write . Humor Suddenly Returns.

In “lay terms” what this means is that my gross human level ego has been ‘blown out” in the Divine He and She. Many would be deluded into thinking they are “Enlightened” if they experienced some of what I experience every moment now and now and now, but Beloved gives his devotees discrimination and a perfect map of Life and Enlightment, so you know exactly who , what and where you are or are not really. no ego left no Oedipal patterning. no fear, no neurosis, no anger , no sorrow. non stop JOY and LOVE Bliss. no separation from the Goddess, no separation from Da God. tears and laughter. a non stop dance of joy effortless discipline, Big Balls LOL

I have to say that I owe much to the Institutional Church of Adidam. It is one of Beloved’s Divine Shakti vehicles in this world. But I owe everyting of This to my Guru Himself. We all know what I am talkin bout.

This really started an infinite amount of lifetimes ago. But it really really really started for me in the year of our LOrd 2000, at the ongoing Event known as Ruchiradam, where i was bodily present in the bedroom of my guru as he Translated into White Light. yikes This was actually two days after the actual Beginning of the Event.

I was not even a “formal devotee” then as i have been off and on since 1975. Davide asked me to come on a seva retreat and be his chauffeur since I was a pro cabdriver LOL

Anyhow we were all given Darshan one by one at the foot of Beloved Adi Da’s bed as He sat on his bed Radiating Divine Enlightenment. A Super NOva in yur face. Nuclear meltdown of your puny self ego. yikes. it was a Glory and I had no idea what would happen to me. I spent the next 10 years in a Purgatory or Hell , being completely purified by Mother Kali o many many lifetimes of karma. He , She was preparing me for this time. In some ways, not so fun , considering that my CNS was damaged by tranquilizers, that I was on for panic attacks, and extreme fear, insomnia, and more fear . I have been afraid of death and women for my whole life until the last few months. now no fear of death or women LOL

So now, with my damaged CNS, I am conducting the direct Heart Shakti of the Divine Being down my frontal line. Instant and effortless chi gung. all the way down Beloved is doing Everything. I get kriyas some but not much, considering. i get a bit “mannic” and just do my comedian thing and dance a lot “Dancing Down The Light” Too much pot gives me a bit of the shakes , due to my extreme sensitivity LOL

I love women so so much now and it ain’t from the testosterone cream I am using LOL they love me now too.
So I opened my Laughing Mama studio in Lake Co on my fiftieth birthday in 2000 and then the meltdown my dance partner , Heather performed with me that nite and mentioned how ai was finally healthty and in shape and my fifties would be “glorious” LOL LOL Then Ruchiradam and I lost it all, my physical and mental health, all my hard won fortune and property. I had a gallbladder surgery that destroyed me in one nite . Horrible scarring pain nonstop in my insides for years and years. panic, trauma , and fear and tranq addiction, horrible years of drug w/d s. horror upon horror never ending. I was in a Hell and had not the slightest idea what was going on.

I had no way to hold onto the toe of my Guru , but unbeknownst to me , He was holding me in His Loving Embrace { the Embrace of His Laughing Mama Form , that is} Mother Kali eats her young and is the destroyer of egos.

An actual human being, a male friend of mine, actually took on the form of Mother Kali for me. My friend’s name is Brian. We are friends now again. i did not trust him for awhile however LOL It is very difficult to trust Mother Kali while she is eating yu alive yikes, the nerve of Da Bitch.

I have always been very pro active to help me in my suffering LOL and this was actually very useful. I did a strong Buddhist mediation practice for years , often under the tutelage of a wonderful young tantric master, anam thubtenm in Point Richmond . I used to have a private audience with him and tell him how much I was suffering, He would laugh and ask me what I would be doing if I was not suffering, I said that i would be gettin high, surfing , and chasing gurls He laughed and said “See”? I cried a lot with sorrow back then and now I cry in Love Bliss a lot.

I was a devotee of Amma for a couple of years and she helped a lot in oh so gradual healing she took away all my fear once for two weeks, but Avatar Adi Da took it away permanently, this is a good thing LOL

So i am reopening the studio{well me and Brian are doing it as a coop team} on Jan 1 with me and others doing some fun and professional {LOL} performances with an all nite “Dancing Down the Light” initiated by Bhagavan Adi da the hippest Guru Who Ever Lived. I aleady booked Omer, the wizard of Harbin , to spin the Chillroom, from 2 to 5 a.m. more to come

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