Addict becoming increasingly paranoid as abusive mind control cult-enforced benzo taper drags on for years

*Friends* who KNOW I am tapering & have anxiety disorder seem to be instigating.
« on: August 01, 2021, 06:00:38 pm »

[Buddie]

So my ex-landlord missed the 30-day deadline to file for damages against my security. He MAY have gotten to the post office in time so I still have to check mail this week to be sure the weasel didn’t send something via certified mail at the last minute..

However my concern is the other tenants in the building. They WANT to *stir things up* because they believe they can win money in a lawsuit against this slumlord. The guy just spent 1/2 hour trying to convince me to go in with them on a lawsuit.

I don’t want to. The entire issue should be settled by my leaving the security deposit for the landlord to use for legitimate stuff we left behind and one repair I did not get to.

Now they (the tenant’s) have me suspicious that they tipped the landlord off about the Friday deadline and if I get something in the coming week asking for damage $s beyond the security deposit, my anxiety is going to go through the roof!!!!! Should I just cut all of these people off? I am so glad I didn’t say a word to anyone about the deadline until AFTER the deadline passed.

I moved to a quiet small town in Appalachia to get AWAY from BS and start my taper. Now they have me all worked up again, saying the landlord probably went to the post office at the last minute and I will get some kind of billing this week . (My landlord is not the brightest, so I would suspect someone helped him make the deadline if I get something postmarked by July 30.) I guess I just have to distract myself AGAIN for 6 more days of stress waiting on this week’s mail. Thanks buddies for working the anxiety up again!!! (That’s directed at the other tenants in the building.)

BENZO CONFESSIONS: THE SMELL OF MY NEIGHBOR’S BARBECUE IS TOO STRONG

Benzo confessions...feel free to add yours
« on: June 22, 2021, 07:14:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Sometimes, I’m afraid to open my email because it might be more than I can handle.

I have a phobia of my phone and checking messages

Sometimes, I go weeks without going to my mailbox.

I’m kinda terrified of my mom because she knocks too loudly and comes unexpectedly.

I strongly dislike the smell of food cooking like bread, cookies, garlic, and most everything.

The smell of my neighbor’s barbecue is too strong.

I strongly dislike the smell of fabric softener and dryer sheets in the air outside.

When my neighbors slam their cupboard doors, it makes me go crazy in my head. ???

Ashton tapers cause psychotic breaks?

Has Tapering ever resulted in severe mental disorders?
« on: December 05, 2019, 12:27:40 am »

[Buddie]

After freaking out during my taper, my doctor strongly recommended (ordered) me to go back up to 1mg and hold till I was ready to start tapering at my own pace. In that time, I’ve had some pretty strange mental effects. Disassociation, not feeling like I was in my body, watching events unfold around me like I’m not really there. Years ago (20+ years ago) I was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis. Since going back to 1mg, my mania has been reduced somewhat, but I find myself suffering from possible delusions and I don’t know if its something that is really happening or if I’m having a psychotic break.

Is this something people have experienced while tapering? Can tapering cause a psychotic break? Or was I already messed up and tapering just compounded my problems and brought some stuff that was just under the surface back again?

Any thoughts on this would be appreciated and before anyone can ask… No, I can’t afford to go to a psychiatrist, I can’t afford therapy, and I’ve been drinking myself into a stupor to try to get out of my head on a regular basis.

I used to do drugs to get away from anxiety and bad thoughts, coming off Klonopin has brought a lot of these old (almost forgotten) demons back and I don’t know if this is normal or if I got some serious underlying problems.

How long will the obsessed Benzo Buddies leader’s nearly decade-long feud with Jana Hill go on?

Titration, Patents, and Fantastical Claims
« on: October 29, 2019, 11:34:44 pm »

Colin

Re: http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=231829.msg2975666#msg2975666

For many years there were attempts to promote a particular unproven/untested set of titration protocols. Further, those promoting these methods were engaged in rubbishing completely standard (and effective for most) pill-splitting tapers and characterizing them as ‘cut & suffer‘. They even peppered posts at BenzoBuddies with such language – this is when I first intervened in this matter (January, 2013). Even though Jana Hill (the person behind the protocols) closed down her forum some years ago, there continue to be a small number of very vocal individuals who seek to promote her untested claims as somehow proven or guaranteed to work. Indeed, there has been a recent uptick in activity promoting her protocols both within and without BB. When there is any attempt at push-back, the rather extreme reaction (including threats of lawsuits) are rather illustrative of the problem. If this fails, then perhaps one of Hill’s supporters will instead offer to purchase BB. No.

Jana Hill applied for a patent in 2012. As I suggested a short time later here at BB, the claims made in her patent were extremely flawed, some were even dangerous. Indeed, all twenty claims were rejected. Only with the help of the patent examiner (who apparently redrafted three claims for her) was a patent (with three claims) eventually allowed.

Hill seems to misunderstand (or wishes others to misunderstand) that because a patent is awarded, this somehow means that her protocols are: 1) tested and verified; and 2) are defensible. The award of a patent does NOT connote these things. A recent quote from Hill at the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition website:

Quote from: J.Hill
Crazy Canuk , in his opening statement, says that he learned this taper protocol from its developer through BenzoDetoxRecovery. He states that he hopes that it’s okay to make his videos ostensibly describing it. It isn’t; it wasn’t.

Using the protocol incorrectly tarnishes its good name and places users at risk. He presents it incorrectly.

The authentic BenzoMicroTaper protocol USPTO 9301963 has a 13 year record of success. It is verified by the US patent office as novel( it was not previously available), needed, and understandable by “those practiced in the art”.

If The Coalition’s rules allow it, I will post the way that you can find the authentic BenzoMicroTaper . False versions now seem ubiquitous. A summary is available for the patientsÂ’ doctors. You can ask for it using the “reply” button.

J.Hill

Benzodiazepine Tapering Strategies and Solutions – Benzodiazepine Information Coalition
https://www.benzoinfo.com/2017/10/09/benzodiazepine-tapering-strategies-and-solutions/

Hill’s statements that her method, “is verified by the US patent office as novel (it was not previously available), needed, and understandable by ‘those practiced in the art'”, is extremely misleading and disingenuous.

It is probably best for me to simply link to the patent and some information about patents:

https://patents.google.com/patent/US9301963B2/en

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Person_having_ordinary_skill_in_the_art

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novelty_(patent)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inventive_step_and_non-obviousness

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prior_art

http://www.geocities.com/benzobusters/winslow.htm

And for anyone who is particularly interested, and would like to compare, here is the original patent application (with the rejected 20 claims):

http://appft1.uspto.gov/netacgi/nph-Parser?Sect1=PTO1&Sect2=HITOFF&d=PG01&p=1&u=/netahtml/PTO/srchnum.html&r=1&f=G&l=50&s1=20120322794.PGNR.&OS=DN/20120322794&RS=DN/20120322794

Further reading, including threats from Hill to doxx a BB member:

http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=159823.0

There is a lot I could get into, but my time is limited – I’ll leave it for readers to interpret (and discuss if they wish). But if any of you would prefer to read something a little more bite-sized, please check out the attached document*, which was supplied by Hill to the US Patent office in support of her appeal after the patent was initially rejected.** It is replete with nonsense, false claims, and utilization of quite extraordinary language.

* Available via the link at the foot of this post (with a small green paperclip image next to it).

** Please note: Jana Hill’s personal details appear in the attached document. However, Hill long ago chose to make her name and location public knowledge (and again very recently through the media). And the attached document is a public record.
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Fearmongering CNN benzodiazepines story promotes microtapers directed by strangers met online with no medical credentials; doctor bashers at Benzo Buddies start to cry after seeing screenshot

Re: Watch "This is Life" With Lisa Ling
« Reply #9 on: September 24, 2019, 10:35:51 pm »

[Buddie]

Totally cried watching this as I saw myself. Thanks for posting.

Brainwashed Benzo Buddies member begs cult to stop .0008mg of benzodiazepine

Jumping vs .0008
« on: July 29, 2019, 08:03:22 pm »

[Buddie]

Down to the last push of a daily microtaper. If you are stable for the most part at a crumb say .0008 of medication. What is the outlook of jumping? I mean is there really any major difference to being on .0008 and zero? Or is the complete absence of the medication something to brace for. I have read mixed reviews, please share you knowledge and experience. Also has anyone jumped from that low of a tapered amount?