This taper failed: 60-year-old wants back on Klonopin after sitting in garage with gun in hand, ready to end it

Failure
« on: June 30, 2021, 07:19:46 pm »

[Buddie]

I am 9 wks CT from K at .75 mg that I was on for three months. Now I remember why doctor put me on this to begin with. I have extreme health anxiety. I have been doing fairly well with my withdrawal symptoms and even sleeping pretty well. Now I have just got news that something was wrong with my liver function test. I haven’t talked to doctor or got results, but I am living in extreme fear and panic and it’s not the withdrawal. I just can’t deal with health issues. If he tells me there’s problems with my liver I don’t know what I’d do. I can’t even make the appointment. I don’t know how I’d […] see him or get liver tests done. Seriously what would happen if I went back on K? I know it’s not recommended but lots of people do it. I think I’d rather live my life calmer than live with this anxiety even if it means a lifetime of drugs. Or would it not work for me? I can’t do it. I mean I literally can’t. I can’t get it out of my head the what if’s. I am paralyzed with fear. I would be like this for any health emergency for life, not just because I’m in withdrawal. I have been suicidal. Yes have even sat in the garage with the car running, taken the overdose, had the gun in my hand. Please help me make a decision. What else could possibly help me. Is there a drug that’s not a benzo? I can’t wait for an antidepressant to work. I’ve tried two and they made me sick as a dog. . I can’t […] on like this. I’m 60 yrs old.

Addict with severe tooth pain skips Big Pharma dentist, joins cult instead

Severe Tooth/Gum Pain
« on: April 23, 2018, 06:04:59 am »

[Buddie]

Hi, I’m new to the BenzoBuddies forum. I joined a few years back but didn’t get really active because I was dealing with a lot. During that time, I continued my use of the clonazapem. It’s now been 5 years and I’ve been taking .5mg almost daily since then. Recently, I had struggled with trying to get off of it, but would give back in due to stress and my body feeling weird because I wasn’t taking it. But about 2 weeks ago, I started experiencing the worst tooth/gum pain I’ve ever felt in my life! It seems like nothing much has worked to get rid of the pain. I really regret taking this message for so long. I had noticed minor gum irritation before when taking clonazapem, but nothing like this. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I’m miserable! I’ve barely been able to sleep, have been to urgent care and the ER. I also need a plan in place to ween off this medicine.

Ten-year Ativan slave joins online Jonestown, failure and misery to follow

It’s certainly time for a change.
« on: December 18, 2017, 12:02:16 am »

[Buddie]

Hello and thanks for allowing me to join Benzobuddies.
I am impressed by the quality of this community forum.

I’m ready to reduce my use of Benzodiazepine.
I’m using Ativan from Monday to Friday. O.5 mg or less.
Ten years.

Some support to reduce this use and quit will surely help.