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Flick was a rather colorful member of benzowithdrawal.com and benzobuddies.org (he would lated be banned). As readers can see, from his cannabis-fueled ramblings below, Flick was crazy, and deeply involved in cults, long before he ever took a benzo, or heard of Ashton…

Nice post NC it’s good to feel that connection with Spirit, wherever it comes from. Personally maybe I will get into a bit of “head” stuff here myself, since I am a man after all. I find it interesting that the three biggest teachers in my life of spirituality died in the past year. Maharishi, Sri Chinmoy, and Adi Da. I learned the TM thing when I was 22 and strung out on hard drugs and could not quit them. The TM worked for me. I did it for years. Now there is a lot of controversy around Maharishi too, like maybe he approache Mia Farrow sexually, but that has pretty much been debunked now. Certainly there has been a kind of “cult” grown up around him and the “yogic flying” seems pretty silly. Still TM saved my life and Maharishi and his teachings have been very beneficial to many. I can’t find fault with his ideal of “world peace” through the vehicle of many people meditating. Now it is is easy for the doubt mind to debunk anything “spiritual” and always throw out the baby with the bath water.

When I was a young ballet dancer in New York, I went to an intro with Sri Chinmoy and this was my first experience of a transmission guru. I felt an intense descending light and bliss in his personal company and also meditatiing on his photo. I became a disciple and wore all white and tried to be celibate and hung out with Carlos Santana and John McGlauphlin who were also disciples. Now I could not handle the sort of strictness with that guru and the two musicians also left in their own time, but that does not devalue Sri Chinmoy or his group in any way. he was very respected in the United Nations did some cool yogic tricks with lifting weights and so forth. His transmission was very real and quite blissful also. Also is was pretty cultic around him , as it always is around a charismatic transmission guru. people like to feel blissful.

I came across Adi Da in 1975 in New York when I heard “Garbage and the Goddess” on WBAI radio “IN the Spirit” by lex Hixon. I had a bad flu and was so moved by Da’s laughter, that I had a sudden and spontaneous lifting of the flu. I read the KOL and saw a “A diffiicult Man” and went to California to join the community. This was the only time I have every felt actual transmission from a book. I felt it in all of Adi Da’s books. For most people, including myself, a relationship with Adi Da is a mixed bag. I felt incredible light and clear and conscious bliss and also states of non separation or “non duality” around him just like he always described in his books. There was always a hard edge to being a disciple of his though. And a certain sort of “darkness” , but I would not necessarily say it is the community’s darkness or Adi Da’s darkness. We all have our dark side and I tend toward depression and fear myself. This is a pretty weird life. Of course Adi Da was not your usual teacher or guru. I know people who were around him in the inner stuff and some feel bad about it and others feel just fine. I never was around the inner stuff and only got the “trickle down” Some people say they were hurt. I don’t know any of them personally except for a couple ahnd they are both still very angry. So everyone who was ever with Adi Da is still trying to figure the whole thing out. many play the “gotcha” game and he is easy to play this game with because of his controversial activities. I think it is a good thing to call out abuses in any arena , whether it be political or spiritual. I would say that George Bush has dwarfed any guru in history with his abuse of the whole world . So is goes round and round and we always feel abused by life itself. But Adi Da has passed now, and people are still so angry that they are beating a dead corpse. Wow I would check out this anger thing.

I am pretty versed in the Traditions since I have studied extensively in Buddhism and under Tibetan lamas and also zen and vipassana. These are real practicing schools. I have never been much attracted to the Ramana lineage myself , partially because it can be pretty mental and I have seen the circus that Poonjaji created by creating all these mini gurus like Andrew Cohen and Gangaji, both of which I have seen and I feel to be real “talking school” so to speak, Just my opinion and preference,

But many love Ramana Maharshi and also Sri Nisardagatta and I respect that for their practice with their teachings. There is certainly and incredible radiance coming off the photos of Ramana and this is not to be discounted. I feel that your really can tell something about a teacher by their photo. This is an intuitive matter and not a mental one.

I have also spent quite a bit of tiime around Ammachi , the hugging saint, and there is a very strong transmission with her too. Of course, many people debunk her too. And certainly it is somewhat “cultic” around her. So what .

I gave lots of money to Adi Dam and to Adi Da personally although it was all underground. I am pretty broke now , but i do not regret it . I felt good about it at the time and felt like i was doing some good with my money rather than hoarding something that never really belongs to you to start with. Generosity is a founding principle of Buddhism. Money comes and goes, and we are closer to death every moment, Flick Rahke

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Convicted drug dealer Flick forced to change Benzo Buddies name to Jetstream

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Hi folks, my name is jetstream, which says it all. I am cruising high and happy in the clouds these days. I did a 2.5 year taper off of 1.25 mg of klon, which I had been on for two years. I switched to 25 mg of valium and did a slow slow taper, which I managed very well in spite of various sx. I switched to liquid valium at 10mg and did a daily titration from there, which did make it quite a lot easier.

I have been off for three years as of Thanksgiving and am grateful very much. I still have a dash of dp/dr, which may resolve in more time and a tad of peripheral neuropathy in my fingers and toes. that is about it. not bad, eh? sure it takes time to taper and heal, but well worth the effort and a forum such as this is invaluable in the process. I hope I can contribute some positive input here . In my journey I have learned many valuable things. I no longer have anxiety disorder or panic attacks for a long time now. I am no longer depressed at all, and if fact am feeling very happy with life. and believe me, I went through my own private hell for years. hang in there Buddies. peace to you Jetstream

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Hi anyone out there in benzoland  Good morning Vietnam  You know that movie don’t you?  Well that was my war.

yeah when I was 18 I got my papers from the U.S military to report to the induction center for my draft physical and induction into the army to go to Vietnam to fight.

What?

for heaven’s sake I was a hippie.

and I don’t like the idea of killing people I don’t know or being killed by them either.

I wrote on my forms that i was a member of every evil organization you could be part of including the communist party and even the Black Panthers and i am white.

I stayed up on LSD for 2 days before I went also so they would think I was crazy and flunk me on that score.

the really funny thing is that they did not flunk me on any of that stuff. I had a letter from my doctor that one third of my kidney was gone from a previous gunshot wound and that was all I needed. i did not have to go through all the rigamarole and lies . i was automatically disquaified. I could not have joined the service if I wanted.

the guy in front of me in line was very patriotic and trying to join the marines. They actually flunked him for having very flat feet. He was a big matcho guy and was weeping like a child when they flunked him. i was behind him and jumping for joy and shouting hooray when they flunked me.

i think he wanted to punch me out.

A lot of my friends came back from Vietnam junkies and in a lot of post traumatic stress.

Of course, they did not have to pull my arm to hang out with them and do heroin with them.

that’s how I got hep c.

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Unless you are now 80 years old and have lung cancer or emphysema, smoking will probably not kill you anytime soon, I would worry first about stabilzing, getting off benzos and getting your health together the best you can and then doing what you need to do to get off cigs. they are very hard to come off of. don’t feel bad about it. you need all your wits about you for that ,and being on benzos takes your wits away. Uncle Flicky

and do not tell anyone outside here that you have suicidal thoughts LOL they will lock you up for even mentioning it. I used to have a lot of suicidal thoughts and I only talked about them on this forum LOL I never got locked up for that either

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You’re not my uncle. But thanks. I’ll throw them away one way or another.It’s probably not so much my lungs (they check out ok with an MRI). The pancreas is more my worry.

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You’re not my uncle. But thanks. I’ll throw them away one way or another. It’s probably not so much my lungs (they check out ok with an MRI). The pancreas is more my worry.

Hey Smokey, don’t be so touchy about it. My name on the forum is “Uncle Flicky da water walker” that name is not “personal ” to you. I use it with everyone , even on facebook now LOL it is a fun name for me and not a toxic one at all, but a humorous one. you want a “toxic” name? Ask “texwatson” about that.

And , yes , pancreas can be a worry. After all, my buddy Patrick Swayze’s one bad habit was heavy cig smoking and he got pancreatic cancer and died young. but still, you can only do the best you can do with yur health, quit the cigs when you can and try to relax about it all the best you can Uncle Flicky

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DUH Flick. Mom dropped me on my head a lot but I did manage to retain my sense of humor. And I have been on the forum for a long time so I do know who you are.Um,, who’s texwatson? Does he post much? Are his posts lengthy, helpful and informative?

Nostril damage from snorting pills causes nose picking leading to liver failure? Huh?

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I posted earlier about how I have reached bedrock as far as my nostrils go. Going on 6 months and I dont ever think I will regain anyutyp of lining in my nose. And the roof of my mouth is raw also.

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[…],
Ive been complaining about something like this for weeks. When I breathe in, the air feels too cold and sort of raw. And Ive had a runny nose for 9 monthes. (Watery, harmless but annoying.) The inside of my mouth feels raw and burns, even my throat and my gums itch and burn. Sometimes my teeth feel sort of metallic.
Is this anything like what you are feeling?
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Yep. My mouth has cycled through many changes from one end of the spectrum to the other. After c/t I had burning mouth as if I had a few habrenero peppers. My teeth feel like they contain a electrical charge. I tap them together and they feel hollow but echo in my skull. My biggest problem is my nostrils. I had a cold last week and for the first time in many months I had some color blow out. But i have pardon the pun but I have picked up a nose picking issue. This watery stuff summons me to constantly go after it. My finger has been in there way to long and so when i say I hit bedrock I mean I down to bone. And these intense violent sneeze attacks.

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I couldnt help it…I laughed when I read this. A nose picking habit! A friend and I have an ongoing joke about this as we both admitted to secret nose picking.
I live with a box of tissues in every room.
Unfortunately I lost a few teeth after my cold turkey…old crowns, mostly, one large filling (where food always gets stuck! Yeek!) and I broke one tooth. I know dentures are in my future but hell, I cant afford a dentist, even.
Could you possibly have allergies???
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My entire life its been nuts and cats. No offense I know you have several cats. I cant single cats out, I am allergic to many breeds of dogs. But yes I have developed allergies. I started to get more concerned when I started to itch after i ate. It was Greek yogurt which I have never had befog9re. A member replied check your liver. Well I cant pop the hood and take a look so I did a follow up on some other blood work. Enzymes are in range and so are kidneys but that is not a real check. All of my intense reactions to smells and chemical sensitivity and also new allergies just adds to the pile of liver problems namely cirrhosis. I went on another forum and read those with end stage cirrhosis and all complained of weakness and debilitating fatigue which I no longer have. I can work 10 hours and the fatigue has been gone for about 2 months. My liver pain persists so I just live and eat as if I did have a serious problem. If I turn yellow I am going in and say look now doc, what do you think.

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My sinuses feel like I have cement stuck on the walls of my cartilage. And everytime I sneeze it jolts my whole head and makes my whole body ache. It’s like when you have the flu. I also find myself digging for treasure constantly throughout the day. I’m obsessed with trying to clear it out that I have run dry of mucus in my nose. And to top it off it feels like the sinus muscles are swollen and adds to my list of breathing issues.

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Yes, donny and nina, turns out my lesbian stripper friend just recently started dating men again. lol.  she does still have her regular lover girlfriend too.  her girlfriend is 50 and very nice and very smart.

I just came home from dropping her in the city and we had a great time at “Enchanted Forest” camp out rave party.   music all nite till 6 a.m.   one state outside and one inside the lodge , where they were also serving vegan food day and nite all nite.   great crepes, salads and raw deserts and cooked muffin desserts.

This was a beautiful boy scout camp in the redwoods.  a river was right there and we did some nude swimming and sunbathing there.    of course, there were no boy scouts around lol.    In the mornings , they had Indian kirtan chanting and yoga class.   hardly anyone went to those lol.   I mean , up all nite.    the ages ranged from around 18 up to people in their seventies. { a few}    mostly people in their mid twenties to late thirties.   a very good group of pretty mellow and loving people.   all into raving music and dancing.   there sure was a lot of sweet cannanbis smoke blowing around everywhere and people were quite happy and ecstatic.  these camp out festivals are fantastic.

I think I am going to one around my birthday on the July 23 in southern oregon called “Mystic Garden Party”   It is for 5 days  , but I would just go for 3.   then , next weekend it the African dance and drum camp campout in the Sierras for 6 days . I will go for 4 days.   they have drumming and dancing classes all day and then  music and singing around the large campfire at nite.   the teachers are all native Africans.   I like to smoke pot with them lol   they are some of the best dancers and drummers on the planet.     Uncle Flicky da water walker

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« Reply #7197 on: July 04, 2011, 07:15:05 PM »
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Flick, lay the f**k off my youtube chan and stop posting hateful remarks. Bit childish for a 60 year old. stuff like ha ha ha and saying someone posting something up that looked like me, since when have I been an a**h*** to you. You some across as pretty stuck up child, I only posted those vids to help people.

Honestly, there’s more nutjobs here than I’ve encountered. Do it again and I’ll report you. Don’t mess with me flick, let this be your last warning.

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« Reply #7198 on: July 04, 2011, 08:33:23 PM »
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Just a thought…. but the former member who shall remain nameless impersonates people.  My guess?  It wasn’t Flick at all who made a comment on youtube.  I could be wrong though.  Just a thought.

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« Reply #7199 on: July 04, 2011, 08:39:02 PM »
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Yea it was the former member. There was just a misunderstanding, lol.
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« Reply #7200 on: July 04, 2011, 08:42:49 PM »
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Yeah, it was him. Flick I apologise SINCERELY.
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Used valium and lots of zolpidem on and off for 3 years, didnt use daily and didnt develop addiction, could stop and start. Started again in December 10-15mg daily for 3 months and accidentally went into addiction mode. Freaked out and spoke with the doc and went cold turkey. Spent 3 weeks out of my mind then was told to reinstate at 2.5mg daily. 3 weeks later built a tolerance and started getting worse. Spoke to a proper shrink and went up by 30, realising that over the years there was no ‘set’ pattern, I’d down them like smarties when I wanted to sleep. Needing to go slow, don’t want to end up like I was in c/t when I couldn’t breathe, had severe vertigo and balance was off.

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« Reply #7201 on: July 04, 2011, 09:49:18 PM »
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I wish I could sing like Steve Perry. haha this is an awesome song too.

 
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« Reply #7202 on: July 05, 2011, 02:00:36 AM »
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You want some feedback , jam whatever? go blow yourself.   you can hang with texwatson here from now on and don’t attack me on my blog.   this blog is my happy diary and not to be invaded by t roll types.   Uncle Flicky da water walker
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« Reply #7204 on: July 05, 2011, 04:09:15 PM »
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Jam76, never even think of posting on my blog again with your hateful and nasty vitriol. you are one deluded a hole.  you would do better off hanging out with the  t rollsters here like texy watson and marky { the famous “Mr. M”}  I don’t know what the hell you are talking about with your youtube stuff.  you might consider wising up a bit lol   {NOT}

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Well, I think I will stay home today instead of going to african dance class and dinner in the city. but I might change my mind in a while after sunning on the deck and working some.  I don’t have much food made around here anyhow.

Will be driving up to the Sierra’s  on sunday to start the african dance and drumming camp .

I am pretty sure I will go to the next camp out music and dance festival , the Mystic Garden party .  that starts on right at my birthday , which is July 23.   I might even take some real Ecstacy for my birthday, since I have never done that and life is an adventure.

Tomorrow is acupuncture in san fran and the dentist.  my temporary bridge for my front tooth fell out so I look like some kind of Appalachia backwoods redneck pot grower now lol.    Uncle Flicky da water walker

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By the way donny, good music vids. yes that is the best song Journey ever did. the only really good thing about Journey was Steve Perry’s voice and a couple of classic songs  they did like this one.   I do like the Crystal Method a lot though.    I guess i was born in the wrong generation, I left rock behind a long time ago and am only into electronica now and some ethnic and world music.   the early hippie rock was o.k.  like Hendrix, Led Zep and the beatles and so forth. that was all very good in its day.   Now rock is pretty much junk, except for some U2 stuff and so forth.    To me , also the old rock is boring and uncreative compared to modern electronica.   Uncle Flicky da water walker
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« Reply #7206 on: July 05, 2011, 04:26:19 PM »
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I am somewhat disappointed in andrew, our illustrious founder.   I really thought he had finally wised up to who Marky 49 is and his real mission on this forum and had permanently “dumped the trash” so to speak.   too bad he did not get it straight yet.   now he let marky back on and he is up to his old shenanigans.    was mostly peaceful and postive here without him  .  Get it together andrew, lol      Uncle Flicky da water walker
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« Reply #7207 on: July 05, 2011, 04:34:54 PM »
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I am somewhat disappointed in andrew, our illustrious founder.   I really thought he had finally wised up to who Marky 49 is and his real mission on this forum and had permanently “dumped the trash” so to speak.   too bad he did not get it straight yet.   now he let marky back on and he is up to his old shenanigans.    was mostly peaceful and postive here without him  .  Get it together andrew, lol      Uncle Flicky da water walker

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« Reply #7208 on: July 05, 2011, 04:35:37 PM »
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By the way donny, good music vids. yes that is the best song Journey ever did. the only really good thing about Journey was Steve Perry’s voice and a couple of classic songs  they did like this one.   I do like the Crystal Method a lot though.    I guess i was born in the wrong generation, I left rock behind a long time ago and am only into electronica now and some ethnic and world music.   the early hippie rock was o.k.  like Hendrix, Led Zep and the beatles and so forth. that was all very good in its day.   Now rock is pretty much junk, except for some U2 stuff and so forth.    To me , also the old rock is boring and uncreative compared to modern electronica.   Uncle Flicky da water walker

Flick go to pandora.com and type in crystal method and it will make a radio station of just that style, haha.

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« Reply #7209 on: July 05, 2011, 05:52:10 PM »
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If any of you don’t want to spend an arm and a leg for a nice pair of headphones, treat yourself to a pair of these. I’ve been watching movies with these and they are unreal for the price.

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« Reply #7210 on: July 05, 2011, 05:55:26 PM »
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Listening to Collie Budz right now. excellent stuff. i have been buying and downloading albums off I tunes. they got about everything. I can burn my own cd’s cheap for in the car.   wow, I have been reading up on the Mystic Garden Party and it looks beyond awesome. I am going to go for all five days.  this will beat hell out of Woodstock, no doubt about it,   much more advanced.    the hippie movement has actually come into its own with the newer,. younger generation combined with us oldsters in the movement.   for one thing, we are now dancing a lot more and a lot better.

I cannot believe the wonderful quality of the male dancers at the dance events i go to.  I grew up as a male in the dance and it was always a woman’s world there.  except for a whole bunch of gay dudes, but still it was ruled by women in general.   Men in our culture tend to be stuck in their heads and not much in their bodies in any kind of sensual way.  So you see these incredible stiff and unrhythmic dancers{ the white dudes lol} in the bars, mostly just trying to pick up women  and get laid.   pretty obnoxious really lol.

Now in the current hippie dance movement that really got going with the modern clubbing in Europe and the warehouse rave scene all over the world and merging more and more with spiritual and hippie values,  the men are pretty much on an equal footing with the women.  of course, black dudes always were at least pretty good, and mostly very good dancers.  now the young hippie guys at my dances are fantastic dancers .  I mean, just as good as the women.  very impressive and heart warming to me .  Of course, there has been a huge influx of ethnic dance classes all over the place including African and Brazilian, but still mostly women take those trainings[besides me and a few other men}.  so that does not explain it.  it is simply that guys have loosened up and they go to all these dances all the time. so they just get better and better. and , of course, so many are doing hatha yoga too these days, so men tend to be much more fluid and flexible than before.

to me this is part of the whole evolutionary movement of humankind.  I like it.

So this mystic garden party festival will be great.  my first african dance and drum master teacher, Chris berry will be headlining the live music.   he has a whole band now and is world famous.  there are theme camps this year{ like at Burning Man} and Chris is hosting an African dance and drum camp. that means that there will be drum circles and drum classes day and nite. I am going to bring a couple of my djembe drums with me to sit in the circles. i will also be jumping into the middle of the circle to do african dance solos.    it is fun to hear all the women in the circle giving you cat calls lol.    Only  a Leo like me would say that.   lol.

So this festival I am very excited about, even more exciting than the African dance camp.   Uncle Flicky da water walker

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« Reply #7211 on: July 05, 2011, 06:01:48 PM »
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« Reply #7212 on: July 07, 2011, 04:37:26 PM »
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Off to harbin hot springs for the dance tonite and nude hot bathing and steam and sauna.     back to harbin tomorrow for  hiking , swimming , more nude bathing   and an awesome dinner.   going to go look at my friends big outdoor medical grow around sunset then.     side of a mountain. nice.

many dances to choose from on friday nite.   then one day at home and off to the Sierra’s for african dance camp.  very busy with fun stuff in my  birthday month of July.     Whoopee      really look forward to “Mystic garden party

I think I have at least two beautiful woman riders with me for that one, maybe three    .  Uncle Flicky da water walker

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« Reply #7213 on: July 07, 2011, 04:41:49 PM »
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Off to harbin hot springs for the dance tonite and nude hot bathing and steam and sauna.     back to harbin tomorrow for  hiking , swimming , more nude bathing   and an awesome dinner.   going to go look at my friends big outdoor medical grow around sunset then.     side of a mountain. nice.

many dances to choose from on friday nite.   then one day at home and off to the Sierra’s for african dance camp.  very busy with fun stuff in my  birthday month of July.     Whoopee      really look forward to “Mystic garden party”

I think I have at least two beautiful woman riders with me for that one, maybe three    .  Uncle Flicky da water walker

Aw Heck,   Some guys have all the fun. Good Karma?
Have fun, Uncle Flicky…  JIM

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« Reply #7214 on: July 07, 2011, 05:02:13 PM »
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No problem , Jimbo.  save up some money and come on out to the fun zone for awhile.   there is plenty more fun to be had this summer and into past october with the good weather in  the fall here   more festivals and harbin is always there. you are not too old to learn surfing either  , never too old to have fun. Uncle   Flicky    One has no excuse not to come to california.
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« Reply #7215 on: July 09, 2011, 01:23:33 PM »
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Had a great time up at harbin in Lake co.  it is a very beautiful , semi mountainous county.   the dj at the dance thurs nite was fantastic.  he played electronica in many forms from the eitghties and nineties and contemporary,  house music,   trance,  drum and bass,  plus the more “modern” stuff.   he has created an album combining kirtan chanting{ the guy has a great voice too} with electronica dance music.  pretty cool I bought the cd and have been listening in my car.Anyhow I had my usual steams and saunas and mineral  water hot soaks and swimming laps in the large spring water pool{ no chlorine at all than God}  .  finished with a great dinner in their fabulous restaurant.  they always have 2 chicken dishes , two fish dishes and two or three vegan dishes and always soups and salads and raw deserts. I had one of the best curries I ever had with a side salad and tofu. I had a raw mango mousse for desert and it was amazing too along with some organic gunpowder green tea from China from the Numi tea company which is local in Oakland.  great teas, some of the best.

There are a lot of organic outdoor marijuana growers up there in Lake Co. and I got to tour the one of one of my friends  .   full sun on the side of a gorgeous mountain and completely legal.   LOL   large, beautiful plants with wonderful smells.   anyhow, the law enforcement helicopters fly over every day, not to arrest anyone{ unless they are cartels with over the legal limit numbers of plants} but to check up and make sure they are o.k. and that there is no robberies or violence going on.    now that is a good use of law enforcement.

Getting ready to dance in Oakland in the morning, grab a lunch and drive off to the Sierras to African drum and dance camp.  I will be dancing again there on sunday nite and for the next three days after.  these Africans are not only master dancers and drum musicians but they also like to paaarty. there will be campfire parties every nite with singing and dancing .   these guys love it when I come to camp , because I bring my “goodies” lol.  and I share.A week from sunday is guru purnima day, which is the celebration of the guru or great teacher in Hinduism. I will go to a big celebration for that, which will include meditation and a lot of chanting .  then the next week off to Mystic garden party for a five day festival and camp out in south Oregon.  lots of dancing, swimming and so forth.   Uncle Flick da water walker

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« Reply #7216 on: July 11, 2011, 01:29:54 PM »
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did not make my African dance camp due to work schedule right now.   think I might try a regular surf or rent a paddle board and practice trying to catch waves. there is a lot of overcast here now , but good waves from a south swell.  I think I will have a protein green smoothie and get out there walking on the water.  I will get in some african dancing tomorrow nite however in san fran.  that is fun too . Uncle Flicky da water walker
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« Reply #7217 on: July 11, 2011, 03:28:28 PM »
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Hi Flick,
Thought i would stop by and say Hi. I am seeing some amazing transformation physically. The vegetarian diet some new supplements i am taking for the gym it is unbelievable . I have gone from a flabby 187 to 157 of toned muscle in a matter of three and half months. I knocked another mg off the poison too. I started a thread in the lounge on massage I am thinking of going to school and looking in to the healing touch courses. I love giving massages and have been told i am good at it. I want to start a career where I can give back and help others. I am not going to let B/W beat me it can just go to hell lol. Anyway looks like you have a busy Birthday weekend trip planned I hope you have a great time.
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« Reply #7218 on: July 12, 2011, 12:30:12 PM »
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Thanks for posting on my blog, anton. you are doing great with your taper and life these days. you have overcome a lot of obstacles,  and that is what life is all about, eh?Well here is something I got a laugh and hoot out of today.
sometimes, I look in at bb.
So he is harboring a guy who attacks me regularly {and also others from here} all over the internet, from facebook, to youtube  LOL.    Uncle Flicky da water walker
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