Ashton taper leaves addict paralyzed

struggling to leave my room any adive or input would be helpful
« on: November 15, 2017, 03:46:47 pm »

[Buddie]

ive only been leaving my room for bathroom n shower n to eat n do landry other then those small thing ive spent the better part of the last 5 weeks just laying in bed all day watching movies or tv on my laptop !! monday i got out of the house for about 2 hours just to do some things in the yard n had two attacks while i was outside im on 1.625mg of ativan daily the window started slowly closing on me this summer and has pretty much shut me in my room where i keep all light out so it pitch black n i feel some what at ease still have attacks once a day or more but some days our good days and i dont have any ! has anyone been in this position before ? if so how do i over come it ? i need to be able to atleast get out side cut my grass take the trash out ect !! im in a pretty lucky situation im 31 with no kids or a job and my mom lets me live here for free n pays what little bills i have but i used to do all kinds of remodling projects for her and painting and yard projects but now i cant even cut the grass and input would be very helpful i have everything i need to start a titration but the alcohol to disolve the ativan but havent started because of fear n the situation im in

Dr. Jenn retires after being disabled by a wave: “I don’t want to be a leader… no more coaching ever!”

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #5 on: August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #6 on: August 15, 2017, 06:41:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm
Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

jen,

i will pray for you. i will pray harder than i have for anyone yet. this can’t go on for long. god has to stop this and restore you your life.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #7 on: August 15, 2017, 07:16:18 pm »

[Buddie]

Thank you. That’s very kind of you. I’m praying too, for all
Of us. Hopefully In another few weeks or months I’ll be back on my feet. Out in my garden. I’m working on a novel to distract me. Friends are cooking for me and taking care of me. God walked me through this once before. No reason to believe God will stop and let me walk the way to complete healing on my own.

Please know that we heal. If I didn’t believe this I wouldn’t have done the work I did all these years. I’ve seen clients get well. And I saw my own healing. I went from deranged after my cold turkey to functional. I even taught a class at Stanford. Had a bad wave from doing to much, then recovered from that. The last six months before this setback were the best in many many years. But, I guess I did too much. I’ve probably got a much more fragile CNS than most due to my years of trauma before Benzo’s. I over estimated my capacity for listening to others pain and suffering. It finally took its toll on me, along with The physical extertion I put myself under. You can avoid a setback if you take care of yourself. If you are an over achiever like myself, you’ll want to really watch yourself and slow down.

When I crawl out of this setback I’m dedicated to taking life easy. I don’t want to be a leader. I don’t want to be responsible for people’s lives in any way shape or form. No more coaching ever. I just want to write. Grow flowers. Be among friends and family. Hold my grandchildren. And appreciate every sunrise I’m given. This is my wild one and precious life, no matter how shattered it feels at the moment. It is mine.

Mad in America: Naked female driver leads cops on chase through two Michigan counties

SAGINAW, MI — Nearly 700 miles from home and stark naked, a 48-year-old Georgia woman led state troopers on a two-county chase at speeds of more than 100 mph Saturday morning.

The chase, which lasted around 15 minutes but covered more than 25 miles of Interstate 75, ended with the woman uninjured and taken to a hospital for evaluation, said Michigan State Police Lt. David Kaiser.

“We’re not sure if this is a drug-related incident or a medical condition,” Kaiser said.

The chase began shortly after 11 a.m. Saturday, Jan. 14, on southbound I-75 near Buena Vista Township when a vehicle passed a trooper at speeds of more than 100 mph, Kaiser said.

The woman disregarded police attempts to signal her over and continued at high speeds until she reached the Vienna Road exit near Clio, Kaiser said.

She headed eastbound on the road, saw multiple police vehicles waiting there and then attempted to head back onto I-75, northbound this time, he said.

At the northbound I-75 on-ramp, a state trooper initiated a tactical driving maneuver, spinning the vehicle out and sending it into a light pole, then a ditch, enabling police to prevent the vehicle from driving off, Kaiser said.

Officers reported the woman was naked and not making sense when they apprehended her.

The woman, police officers and other drivers on the road were not injured, Kaiser said. Although there were near misses by the woman as she wove in and out of traffic at high speeds, Kaiser said she did not hit any vehicles.

At this time, police do not know the woman’s connection to the area. The incident remains under investigation.

Brainwashed woman risks health to adhere to cult dogma

Women's issue, your experiences would be appreciated
« on: March 02, 2016, 04:28:53 pm »

Sunny14

I read where women get urinary tract infection symptoms but are tested and it’s negative. I had one small spotting of vaginal blood, because I went through menopause 5 yrs ago went to dr who ordered an ultrasound and follow-up with gynaecologist. it does look like my vaginal discharge may have blood in it as it’s dark yellow and seems to stain underwear. I’m terrified that they’ll want to do something invasive when this may all be due to hormonal stir up caused by benzo.

Has anyone had any experience with this?

Thanks
Sunny

Sad story of cult abuse

Intro of the thetruthfairy1947
« on: February 07, 2016, 11:56:07 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi! I have discontinued taking 1 to 1.5mg of clonazepam (Klonopin). The psydoc I had me taper beginning in June 2015. I took my last dose in September. As soon as I begin to taper I began having problems: severe headaches and bothersome nausea. Later i began to collapse by falling down and injuring myself. I went from ER to ER around my home but no hospital would admit, not even to a psych unit. I finally spent 6 weeks in a geropsychiatric unit during October/November. I got home in November and proceeded to get psychotic (thought I had worms under my skin–I was hallucinating) I had fallen several times and finally went to the nearby ER because I knew I was too crazy to be on my own. I told them this at the ER but they didn’t like the sounds in my chest so gave me a chest X-ray and came in about an hour later and said I had collapsed lung and broken ribs and they were admitting me to intensive care. I spent 14 days in the hospital to get healed and then I was transferred to the nursing home where I have been since December 5, 2015. I no longer hallucinate but have fallen out of bed three times since I came here. I am lonesome and hope to chat with others who suffer this same fate.

Where is KlonopinKills now?