Addict throws online pity party after being accused of laziness

Because I'm sick ,I was called a LAZY BUM!!
« on: December 16, 2016, 09:58:28 pm »


I tried to post this before but I guess it didn’t go through. I was called a “Lazy Bum”. People don’t know how debilitating this ordeal is unless they go through it themselves or have a illness that keeps them from doing ordinary things. I pray I get healthy and can go back to work next year. I go to CBT and read self help books, to help with my severe anxiety.However, this W/D has made my inner ear Disease so much worse that I have vertigo,ear pressure and horrible balance everyday. I want to know who could work under those conditions. I’m not talking about minor dizziness either.Head spinning the whole nine yards. People so quick to judge us and that probably couldn’t even handle a week of this torture!!! I been going through this for almost two years. I do feel pathetic but it’s not my fault I know .The Doctor should of known better. I’m stuck suffering and being criticized for it SMDH.

Heather Solimine censors my YouTube comments about a recent cult suicide

I simply pointed out Bill would likely be alive if one of his so-called friends had called the authorities on him. Heather proceeded to give me a very condescending lecture on Big Pharma’s torture chambers (sane people call them hospitals), peppered with gems like the “majority of medical professionals do not know how to handle these situations” (how she arrived at that conclusion is anyone’s guess). She also told me how she pretended to be okay after a friend – fearing a suicide attempt –  called the police on her earlier this year. I am not a doctor but I do believe if someone is suicidal they need professional help, from a doctor or psychiatrist, not from people who tell them not to go to the hospital (because it will make things “worse”). That’s not right. Some would even call it criminal.

RIP Bill.

Kooks add ‘electrified teeth’ to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

Electrified teeth!
« on: September 03, 2016, 09:24:49 pm »


In the trailer for Holly Hardman’s upcoming documentary “As Prescribed,” there is a man, a fellow benzo victim, who mentioned that his teeth feel “electrified.” I’ve been complaining about this symptom for years! It’s as though the interior of my teeth, especially the ones at the top and front, are hooked up to a nine volt battery. Anyone else have this or is just me and the poor guy in the trailer? 

BTW here’s the link to the trailer. Excellent!

Freaks seek superstar addicts to recruit to Church of Ashton

Famous benzo victims?
« on: August 13, 2016, 03:48:26 pm »


It’s occurred to me that I’m not aware of any famous / celebrity victims of benzos. I think this is quite strange. Benzos were found in the toxicology reports of Whitney Houston, Prince and Michael Jackson.
Eminem is well known former Valium addict. But he clearly didn’t go through many months of withdrawal hell like most victims here. If he did, we’d know about it. Same for those mentioned above.
Stevie Nicks has spoken out about Xanax, but only in as much as she said it made her feel emotionally dead and sapped her creativity.

It makes me more sure that we’re in a very unfortunate minority of users who have such an appalling time withdrawing.
I suppose some benzo using celebrities might just avoid withdrawal by keeping on the pills, and they’ve certainly got the financial resources to do so…but how come no one is known for hitting tolerance WD?
The WD experience is so debilitating that they’d be unable to function as performers / actors/ politicians for a significant period of time…and surely anyone going through this hell would speak out?

A ‘benzo epidemic’ without any victims

There are no reliable (or for that matter unreliable) statistics on the number of people allegedly victimized by Big Pharma’s benzodiazepines. The claim of millions of benzo victims is based solely on dogma created by the infamous Scientology front group mis-named Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR). If you ask any of Ashton disciples to provide evidence, of their claim, they inevitably fumble and the offer nothing but a litany of excuses on why there is no evidence to back up their spurious nonsense. Yet, if you join one of their ridiculous benzo victim groups you will hear cult acolytes repeat – like mindless sheep – that millions are suffering. They’re suffering all right – suffering delusions.

Professional victim: “I never knew it was addictive”

Benzo Victim of 20 years
« on: June 08, 2016, 08:18:33 am »


Hello All. I was prescribed Klonopin 20 years ago for sleep. Was upped small doses over the initial years due to intolerance. My high water mark was 6mg of K. Realized 10 years into the poisoning that I needed to get off. It took 2 years but I got myself down to 0. Was at 0 for 2 years and began suffering severe panic attacks. Psych put me back on and eventually upped to 6mg of K again. Over the past 18 months was able to wean down to 1.5mg but am stuck at this level. Still have hope of getting to 0 again and staying clean of this toxic med. Glad to meet you all. It is possible to get off of benzos and stay off.

Former Xanax eater joins online pity party, immediately blames doctor

New Cry Baby Here
« on: June 07, 2016, 03:25:57 pm »


Hey everyone. I’m obviously new here… and here’s a little about me, and why I feel like a cry baby.

I was given 1.5mg Xanax for sleep, that was years ago. Never upped the dose, never took more than prescribed… Then like many before me, was given an opiate for pain relief. Well that was for years!

Fast forward to a few months ago. I wanted my life back, and not be chained to pill bottles anymore. Jumped ct off the pain pills. Had a bad 1 or 2 weeks, and boom, recovered from that. No lingering effects or anything. Felt crummy, but after about the 2 week mark, felt like life was back. Here’s where things got interesting…

I thought Xanax was the same type of thing. That I could just ct that too. Boy oh boy what was I thinking. Made it to like day 2, and was taking it again, but that’s where things got interesting. I could never find stability again! I was 100% stable taking the 1.5mg at night only. Never took them during the day… Just at night. No issues, no problems, no inter-dose withdrawal, nothing. I was fine. Well, when I got back on them, no matter what I tried, I felt like my head was going to explode, i basically lived in the bath tub, and damn near wanted to end it.

Someone who I adore took me to the ER, and the folks at the ER said I was suffering benzo dependance. I was like, duh! I’m not here for drugs, i showed her my full pill bottle, and I asked how do I get normal again? She literally said ‘I don’t know, but there’s nothing I can do for you here, unless you want to go to detox, and that’ll actually hurt more than help as its only 5 days, but I have to offer.’

Long story short, it took me 2 weeks to get an appt with my pdoc, and I specifically asked for a good solid taper plan. The pdoc had me reduce Xanax by .25mg every 3 days, while taking 10mg of Valium. The 10mg of Valium was to only last 2 weeks, and at the end of that 2 weeks, I was to go to 7.5mg, and the following 2 weeks, down to 5mg… etc.

Here’s where I went sideways. I pushed down and followed the doctors letter to a T to get off the Xanax. Just so happened, I felt great! I felt like the king of the world. Well, I made the Xanax jump, not thinking ahead, on the same day that I had to drop to 7.5mg of Valium.

3 days later, it got gnarly. I won’t bore anyone with the details, but I had to jump back up to 10mg of Valium just to think straight and take care of my kids. The headaches are horrible, sleep is something of the past, and i’m feeling defeated.

Well fast forward to now… I’m on day 2 of going back down to 7.5mg after getting semi-normal on the 10mg again. Pdoc wants me on this for 4 weeks, and we’ll have a new appt then. It seems the pdoc listened to me, but only kind of. Pdoc said that with Valium, ‘there’s no chemical way you’re feeling withdrawals because of the half-life of Valium. It’s all made up in your head. You need to understand that.’

Anyways, here I sit, at 7.5mg on day 2, feel super super crummy, feeling like i’m losing the motivation to want to quit, because this road is uncharted, hard, and ya. Just feel like a failure at everything because it’s ‘made up in my head’.

Anyways, i’m keeping a word doc of my journey, all the twists and turns, more like a journal, and i’m on page 36 already. That’s how many thoughts and twists and turns I’ve taken. IDK. I know i know, there’s light at the end of the tunnel and all that jazz, but is there a faster way to the end of the tunnel? And if not, how do I get my pdoc to listen? I personally feel that the rate of taper might be a little to fast, but pdoc justifies it with ‘Valium has a built in self taper, and you shouldn’t feel withdrawal at the rate we are going. It’s all in your head’. I mean seriously, how much of this is in my head?

Sorry for being long winded, but that’s just where i’m at, my story (very very short version believe it or not) and ya.

1800? I am sure Big Pharma is terrified.

Re: XANAX is a nightmare - it must be stopped!!
« Reply #32 on: June 01, 2016, 11:02:22 pm »


Quote from: [Buddie] on May 16, 2016, 04:18:14 am
Alprazolam /ælˈpræzəlæm/ or /ælˈpreɪzəlæm/, available under the trade name Xanax … The first approved indication was panic disorder and within two years of its original marketing Upjohn’s Xanax became a blockbuster drug in the US.

Those of us who took it on a long term basis are now paying for corporate greed, BIG MEDICINE greed, and BIG PHARMA greed in spades…

What can we do to put an end to this?

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