Does anyone have or had this? Please Respond...so Desperate « on: June 07, 2016, 02:52:54 pm »
I don’t know if right place to post and i hesitate to do so but I’ve had severe physical symptoms and am looking to see if anyone else has experienced this where it has gone away or at least gotten better…. the ones most distressing and pure torture and where I […] can’t do this anymore are:
Muscle contractions and spasms in forehead …above eyebrows and in between eyebrows….. You can visibly see the muscles move and go up and down back and forth…. Pure pure utter torment ( the worst pain you can imagine)
Eyes involuntarily close shut and squeeze and jerk for seconds moments at a time
Nerves underneath left eye especially, jump upwards, shake ,vibrate and pull and cramp like crazy (and also inside of eye) sometimes staying in a locked position
Jaw involuntarily jerks back and forth from left to right; teeth grinding into each other, sometimes clenches really tight
The muscles in my lips will contract and pull from left to right and also tick …sometimes they will spasm where the muscles in my my lips are making my mouth pull all the way to the left
The muscles in my bottom lip will actually pull my bottom lip inside out and downwards and will pull and contract and vibrate
Sometimes its so severe on my left side that the forehead eyes jaw and mouth will all contract at once..TORTURE and pain.
I actually have to wear tape on my face to minimize the movement and pain
My chin also spasms up and down
None of my mouth movements are so much as grimacing as they are more like muscles […] spasming and contracting out of control….
I am so desperate for encouragement as I can no longer bear it….. As you can imagine I have been housebound for 14 months …..I could never go out in public this way…. It is hideous…
The hopelessness and despair are off the charts…. I have the most severe health anxiety a person could ever have….my heart constantly feels like its going to jump out of my chest
I wish I had the ability to be of more encouragement and help to others because that is exactly what I would be doing but I can’t even help myself… I feel so alone with all of this…
If someone can be kind enough to give me some hope and encouragement or ideas of what I could to. I rarely if ever get relief….. I am on the verge of having a breakdown from all the symptoms…….
This has devestated my life…. I can’t sustain this…
thank you to anyone who has read and can sympathize…..
He would frequently bite his tongue and spit HIV-positive blood into their faces/mouths.
I’m not a psychologist but my friend is. She told me about a patient of hers who was HIV-positive and a paranoid schizophrenic. He thought that the nurses who worked at the hospital he was in were trying to kill him, so he would frequently bite his tongue and spit HIV-positive blood into their faces/mouths. When they had to come into contact with him, they were required to wear full masks and gloves.
GOLDEN VALLEY, Minn. – It may not get as much headlines as prescription painkillers and heroin, but Xanax can be just as addictive and deadly for some, experts say. The drug recently made headlines after news the University of Minnesota police were investigating members of the wrestling team for abusing the drug. It is a medication used to reduce anxiety, but too much of it, especially mixed with something else can be dangerous.
“The first time I felt it, I was just hooked immediately,” said Chris, 24. He says he was 16 or 17 when he he tried Xanax for the first time. “I loved it. I loved the high,” he recalled, describing the high similar to being drunk.. Searching to fit in at a new school in Lakeville, he found the answer in the drug also known as Benzodiazepine. “It’s completely destroyed my life. I was stealing from family members, I almost died twice within a year period,” he said. He almost died after overdosing on the drug. He says a friend took him to the hospital. And then a few months later he says he blacked out while driving. “I swerved off the road and crashed at 70 miles an hour. Luckily I wasn’t hurt though,” he said.
Drug experts say the medication has been around for a while.
“It doesn’t really capture the headlines to the extent opiates and heroin do, but it’s certainly been around for a long time,” said Carol Falkowski of Drug Abuse Dialogues. Falkowski has tracked drug abuse for decades. In her latest drug trends report, she found that it is the second most prescribed drug seized by police. The Minnesota Department of Health also reports an increase of deaths related to Benzodiazepines. “We have seen an increase of prescribing for all sorts of drugs, so it’s logical to expect an increase in abuse,” she said.
Chris says he saw an increase in the use of Benzodiazepine among his friends in the south metro as recent as last year. “The medicine has a proper use but people abusing it is happening more and more,” he said. He has left that world behind, now in recovery at Minnesota Adult and Teen Challenge. He credits the treatment and his faith in Christianity that helped him to become sober. He says he’s grateful he’s alive to warn others of his mistakes. “It can cost you your life,” he said.
Revenge killing: Mental patient stabs psychiatrist to death
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A gruesome killing occurred in the early hours of October 14 when 21-year-old Christopher Frick snuck into the home of a psychiatrist who may have had him committed years earlier before stabbing her to death.
Dr. Caroline Ekong, who celebrated her one-year wedding anniversary last month, was an Attending Psychiatrist at Rockford Center, a 118-bed mental health facility located in Newark, Delaware when she tragically had her life cut short.
Despite the fact that they had not spoken for three years leading up the crime, Frick reportedly grew obsessed with Ekong, 55, after she allegedly had him committed to Rockford Center when he was 18 years old.
The News Journal reported that “Frick wrote about his involuntary commitment to Rockford in an August 2014 letter” addressed to the editor at the Wilmington-based newspaper.
“The staff framed me as suicidal, as well as everyone else I saw the night I was ‘evaluated.’ The commonplace involuntary commitment at Rockford Center is prominent because it is owned by the for-profit company Universal Health Services,” wrote Frick.
21-year-old killer complained about psychiatrist in Google Reviews
Last year, Frick also posted a Google Review of Rockford Center in which he specifically named Dr. Ekong as the woman responsible for having him locked up. “The person who imprisoned me was Caroline Ekong, whose ego is so large that she would never be able to admit doing something wrong,” says the review.
Authorities uncovered further proof of Frick’s obsession with Ekong when they searched his home, learning that he had plotted her death for at least a year prior to the brutal attack, The News Journal reported.
“Police charged Frick with first-degree murder, first-degree burglary, possession of a deadly weapon during the commission of a felony, home invasion and possession of burglary tools. He is being held without bail.”
Police quickly learned of the perpetrator’s identify after he confessed to the murder.
“Authorities said Frick called 911 about 30 minutes after Ekong’s body was discovered by her daughter at 4 a.m. Wednesday inside the doctor’s two-story home on Withers Way in the Sanford Ridge neighborhood,” according to reports.
“In the call, placed from his parent’s Springbrook Lane home about 3 miles away, Frick took responsibility for the killing, according to investigators.
“Police said Frick went to Ekong’s home with the intent to kill. He parked his car in a parking lot near the Ekong home, broke into the house shortly before 4 a.m. and confronted her, police said. Ekong was stabbed numerous times, according to investigators.
“He then went back to his car and drove home to his parents’ house in Autumnwood, police said.”
Ekong was originally from Nigeria and cherished by many of her co-workers.
Mental health providers are four times more at risk for violence than average American worker
“She was very professional and dedicated to her work. She commanded excellence from her treatment team. She was direct, but respectful of people’s self-determination, independence and experience,” said Chris Park, who worked with Ekong at Rockford Center for four years.
Park has since started a petition that seeks to offer more protection for social workers, counselors and nurses. He believes their personal information, including their home address, should be kept private.
“Some of these are public records, but there should be checks where you have to apply for the information and provide a reason you are requesting the information,” Parks said.
A survey by the Department of Justice found nearly 56,000 instances of violent crimes committed against mental health professionals during 2005 and 2009 – four times higher compared with the average American worker.
Comments by JB:
There you go.. perfect example. And this guy has lethal weapons, training, AND is indiscriminate in who he unleashed his temper on?
He’s refusing to take their ‘poison’, yet he’s becoming a real danger to others by NOT taking it?
Let’s see how many buddies do the sane thing and advise him to keep taking the med that’s keeping others safe while he gets help!
If thinks the VA docs don’t know what they’re doing, but to me they seem to know he’s dangerous and are medicating him accordingly!!
God help the people around him because he’s heading towards killing someone once the forum convince him he’s doing the right thing!!
Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam « on: May 25, 2016, 04:41:24 am »
Have been so full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam after 23 years of taking it. I yell at coworkers and loved ones. I hate the way I feel. Got to love the VA. Don’t talk to them. Just medicate them. They probably will be happy I will save them money while getting off meds. Hell 22 Veterans kill themselves every day. I’m nothing but a number to them. I got more information from benzo buddies about how to get off this poison than all those useless people making six figures working for the VA have given me.
Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam « Reply #1 on: May 25, 2016, 04:54:11 am »
Hey- I just wanted to say the VA put me in this situation too and I am also a veteran if you need someone to talk to. They know very little about withdrawal effects so I’ve found it best to talk to people on this board more than what I tell my doctor. They would just try to prescribe me more crap and I am done with taking anything they are giving!
Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam « Reply #2 on: May 25, 2016, 05:14:13 am »
Hey. Thanks for answering. Yea I have gotten more information about my meds and how they effected my brain and what to expect during my taper and how to taper. Then the VA docs. They are useless drug pushers. Their poison steals your soul. I do not want shit to do with them. Once I’m free from their drugs I’m going off the grid. I don’t want to be around people anymore. Is it normal to be so angry during a taper? I feel like getting to fights with total strangers. It’s weird. I’m afraid to pack a piece and blade like I used to every day. I don’t trust myself. Like I’m a powder keg. I hate feeling like this. I just start cussing people out. Like I can’t control it.
Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam « Reply #3 on: May 25, 2016, 06:26:13 am »
I’m so sorry you had to go through all this and still do. Thank you for serving… I am so sorry to hear you have been so I’ll treated. I would feel so angry too. This is all too insane. Good for you getting off of this. I can’t even imagine 23 years. I’m sick that greed has caused you all this pain. I want not to complain ever again. I can’t even begin to imagine how betrayed you must feel. I am deeply sorry you have had to go through all this. I pray the anger subsides and you are gifted a peace that surpasses all understanding.
The anti-psychiatry movement resembles the anti-vaccine movement and HIV/AIDS denialism in many ways. Whereas anti-vaccine cranks claim that vaccine-preventable diseases are not that bad and HIV/AIDS denialists often deny the causal link between HIV and AIDS, anti-psychiatry cranks typically deny the existence of mental conditions outright (claiming they are made up or that they are “natural” states) or blame the individuals for “attracting” the illness into their lives with “too much negative thinking”. All three groups attack the underlying scientific models (e. g. mechanisms for vaccine-induced immunity and herd immunity, that HIV cause a reduction in CD4+ T helper cells, the biological basis and neurological mechanisms of mental conditions), the efficacy of the medical product, pharmaceutical companies, the government and the scientific community.
This post is an attempt to summarize seven of the most common clusters of characteristics, beliefs and approaches taken by various types of anti-psychiatry cranks: the creationist, the alt med zealot, the new age ignoramus, the “sophisticated” mysterian, the selective “skeptic”, the conspiracy lunatic and the scientologist. These archetypes are not based on published scientific studies, but rather on experience with debating anti-psychiatry cranks. Some of them overlap and not all features of a given archetype always occur. An interesting observation is that anti-psychiatry can be found across political, religious and philosophical spectra and divides. Even though a lot of the assertions made and rhetoric deployed is consistent across archetypes, different archetypes have different motivations and a slightly different focus.
The Creationist: the anti-psychiatry creationist represents the worst of two worlds: both a rejection of modern cosmology, geology and biology as well as a rejection of modern neuroscience, psychology and psychiatry. These individuals reject psychiatry and related fields because (1) neuroscience considers the mind to be a function of the brain, which is incompatible with the anti-psychiatry creationist’s faith that an immaterial soul is the entity responsible for the mind and (2) treatments of mental conditions does not involve a consideration of original sin, but focuses on medication and therapy. Although not all creationists are anti-psychiatry, those that are reject additional fields of science in order to keep their religious beliefs afloat. Depending on the individual anti-psychiatry creationist, he or she may reject the existence of mental conditions as medical conditions or go so far as to provide a religious description of mental conditions as demonic possessions or gifts from a deity.
The Alt Med Zealot: the alt med zealot embraces anti-psychiatry because he or she wrongly believes in the efficacy and safety of so-called “alternative” treatments for mental conditions. In reality, these alleged “treatments” are quackery and almost never gives any practically significant benefit above placebo. Most of the time, these individuals accepts the medical reality of mental conditions. However, they tend to shuns positions supported mainstream science, usually by ignorantly dismissing it all by shouting about “evil, multinational pharmaceutical corporations” (apparently without realizing the irony that a lot of “alternative medicine” is being produced and sold by large corporations) and accusing all critics of their beliefs of being pharma shills.
The New Age Ignoramus: although sharing many defining features with the alt med zealot, the new age ignoramus often parrot the law of attraction and wrongly claim that individuals with mental conditions have themselves to blame because they allegedly had too many negative thoughts. Seemingly ignorant about the scientific research on genetic risk factors for mental conditions, the effects of stressful life events and gene-environment interaction, the new age ignoramus rarely accept the medical reality of mental conditions. Instead, they often reject both medication and therapy, suggesting that individuals with mental conditions will attract good things in their life if they just have more positive thoughts.
The “Sophisticated” Mysterian: mysterians are typically non-religious atheists who has a negative visceral and emotional response to the notion that their beliefs, thoughts, feelings and so on are related to the function of a physical brain. The three most common approaches taken by this anti-psychiatry archetype is (1) Appeals to ignorance characterized by “we will never understand human cognitive feature X” were X is love, art appreciation, beauty, consciousness and so on, (2) point out some methodological limitation regarding questions of how the brain generates the mind in an bait-and-switch effort to attempt to undermine the scientific conclusion that the brain does generate the mind and (3) unrelenting accusations of “scientism”, “reductionism” and “determinism”. Mysterians are not seldom freelance journalists blogging for Nature News, Scientific Americans, Washington Post or the New York Times.
The Selective “Skeptic”: these are self-described “skeptics” who mock anti-vaccine cranks and HIV/AIDS denialists for their flawed assertions and dishonest debating tactics (like misunderstanding basic science, quoting scientists out of context, creating a manufactroversy, false balance, playing the martyr card, misusing statistics and so on), yet has no problem using these exact pseudoscientific tactics when attacking psychiatry. Pointing this out is not sufficient to break the bubble of cognitive dissonance and will usually be met with rationalizations and denial. Published scientific evidence in favor of psychiatric models and treatments are met with extreme skepticism, whereas random blog posts online that attacks psychiatry is often accepted with little skepticism.
The Conspiracy Lunatic: this anti-psychiatry archetype is essentially a misguided freedom fighter stuck in Soviet Union of the 1960s. The conspiracy lunatic thinks that all mental conditions are supposedly without any foundation in reality and allegedly invented by evil psychiatrists in collusion with the government and/or pharmaceutical companies. All treatments are believed to be a form of human enslavement. Medication is allegedly used either to brainwash people or keep them pacified while the government, banks or alien reptiles take over the world. Involuntary psychiatric treatment is seen as kidnapping and imprisonment of dissenters instead of a way to protect a person who is at high risk of serious harm or death. ECT, a last-resort treatment given to individuals with severe and treatment resistant depression when all else fail and the life of the person hangs in the balance, is wrongly seen as cruel punishment (despite the fact that individuals undergoing that treatment are given general anesthesia and a muscle-relaxant and that brain scans show that brain damage does not occur).
The Scientologist: this anti-psychiatry archetype is associated with scientology, but it shares many core features in common with the other six archetypes. This is presumably because of the early and close historical links between the two movements. Some scientologists consider themselves at war with psychiatry: they believe that mental illness is a fraud and thinks that psychiatrists are crime-causing terrorists who kidnap, torture and murder innocent people.
Although not empirically validated by any means, these archetypes are useful representations of some of the common themes and clusters of ideologies that defenders of mainstream psychiatry come across when refuting mental illness deniers and anti-psychiatry proponents.
Overview of Anti-Psychiatry
Lieberman, J. A. (2013). DSM-5: Caught between Mental Illness Stigma and Anti-Psychiatry Prejudice. Scientific American Mind Guest Blog. Accessed: 2013-08-07.
The Debunking Anti-Psychiatry Category on Debunking Denialism.
Steven Novella’s excellent series on mental illness denial.
Mieszkowski, K. (2005). Scientology’s war on psychiatry. Salon. Accessed: 2013-08-07.
Safety and Efficacy of ECT
Abrams, Richard. (2000). … and there’s no proof of lasting brain damage. Nature, 403(6772), 826-826.
Devanand D.P., Dwork A.J., Hutchinson E.R., Bolwig T.G., Sackeim H.A. (1994). Does ECT alter brain structure? Am J Psychiatry. 151(7):957-70.
Fink, Max. (2000). ECT has proved effective in treating depression … Nature, 403(6772), 826-826.
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Lilienfeld, Scott O., Lynn, Steven Jay, Ruscio, John, & Beyerstein, Barry L. (2011). 50 Great Myths of Popular Psychology: Shattering Widespread Misconceptions about Human Behavior. West Sussex: Wiley-Blackwell.
Mayo Clinic. (2012). Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT). Accessed: 2013-08-07.
Palmio, Johanna, Huuhka, Martti, Laine, Seppo, Huhtala, Heini, Peltola, Jukka, Leinonen, Esa, . . . Keränen, Tapani. (2010). Electroconvulsive therapy and biomarkers of neuronal injury and plasticity: Serum levels of neuron-specific enolase and S-100b protein. Psychiatry Research, 177(1–2), 97-100.
Reisner AD. (2003). The electroconvulsive therapy controversy: evidence and ethics. Neuropsychol Rev. 13(4):199-219.
Zachrisson, Olof C. G., Balldin, Jan, Ekman, Rolf, Naesh, Ole, Rosengren, Lars, Ågren, Hans, & Blennow, Kaj. (2000). No evident neuronal damage after electroconvulsive therapy. Psychiatry Research, 96(2), 157-165.