“I will probably cause a storm of protest but I have got to say that although I have gained so much support and love through this group, I have also been scared witless. So many do’s and dont’s. I’ve been afraid to eat the foods I love. Afraid to take a supplement. Afraid to have a glass of wine with a meal. Afraid to take a pill when I felt I needed to. I felt inadequate because I couldn’t cope with all the w/d symptoms and yet others were soldiering on after years of suffering. I was terrified at the symptoms people had and I identified with them. Every symptom I got I blamed on valium. I reached a point where I realised valium was ruling my life as it had when I was in the depths of addiction. I decided to say ‘no more’. Yes… I’ve taken an antidepressant. I’ve slept for the first time in months and feel a whole lot better. I’ve had a glass of my favourite wine with a meal. Wonderful... I’m living again. I had no adverse reaction. I’ve had ice cream, cake, chocolate. No reaction. I have some quality in life. I’m not sitting waiting for the day I might wake up and think I feel better today. I might be too old to enjoy it. It might never happen. We are all so very different. Please find your own path. Trial and error. You may not have to give up all the things that help to make life a bit more worthwhile. I’m hoping this helps someone.”
One cult member's response:
“While I understand you saying you were afraid of many things you have been cautioned about here, some stories are very scary. We as admins have to walk a tight rope of not wanting to hurt or discourage anyone, but for the greater good of the community here we must also take a stand against wd antagonists. But I’m sorry I just have to say something here… while everyone is different, it is extremely ridiculous to think that you are going to heal if you keep throwing gasoline on your recovery. Eating chocolate or drinking caffeine is one thing, but to tell people it is alright to drink and take random valium or anti-depressants is another! This is so completely irresponsible! While you may not feel any ill effects, that does not mean you are not maligning your recovery time. Alcohol is a liquid benzo! It does not make it more innocent because you drink a glass with your dinner. At only 4 months off you are doing a disservice to your recovery, and this is not just my opinion. We can only go by what we have learned and the Ashton Manual was written based on more than 12 years of clinical experience from Dr. Ashton dealing with people in withdrawal and recovery. If you do not want to wait until you are healed to drink that is your business but please to not advocate that this is something everyone should just go ahead and do. Taking extra doses of valium or random anti-depressants are like playing with fire as well.”
« on: September 19, 2016, 11:08:50 pm »
Does anybody have this? I was at the dentist last week and she said she thought my toothache and cold sensitivity was due to a crooked bite after I had some cavities filled in the spring. She filed some fillings down. Tooth still hurts though. Feel like I am starting to go crazy and imagine symptoms…..
Re: Dental pain?
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2016, 01:44:07 am »
Tooth “zaps” have happened to me a few times during my taper. Like a nerve suddenly gets shocked. Goes away pretty quickly for me, but definitely weird and unsettling.
Re: Dental pain?
« Reply #2 on: September 20, 2016, 02:43:43 am »
Oh lordy yes, I’ve had no end of tooth issues from withdrawal. Your residual pain could be an irritated periodontal ligament, which takes some time to heal. Try not to bother it and be patient, takes some tylenol or ibuprofen for the pain. If you think you might have bruxism (tooth grinding, often at night) look into getting a good quality bite guard and wear it. If the cold sensitivity doesn’t go away, make sure they do some x-rays and you might want to have an endodontist evaluate the tooth.
To afraid to go outside! 6 months out...you look just fine!! NOT
« on: March 28, 2016, 08:25:25 pm »
Well, 6 months out, nobody believes that I am in horrible withdrawal, and have transisitioned from ‘cant go outside’ to ‘well maybe I can go outside…’ hey you look fine!… WTF is wrong with you? You are an AHOLE!! You are faking it!!
What do you all think? Have you had these problems? and nobody believes you, hey, you look to normal to be sick – whats wrong with you? You’re not sick…
I have been too dizzy to drive, yet I started driving again after 5 months of not driving a month ago – I saw my 90 year old neighbor get into his car, start it up and drive away, I KNOW he cannot see, I KNOW he cannot hear, yet he got in his car and drove?! Im like WTF, If this guy can drive, well I can… so the next day I got into my car and drove – with a helper, and I was successful -!!!
MOVED: A very weird thing happened today - saw my post on an anti-BB site
« on: February 23, 2016, 03:39:35 am »
This topic has been moved to Off-Topic.
Rant : What about not scaring everybody with our own singular experience ?
« on: February 15, 2016, 03:22:08 pm »
Let me put it this way : there are 85 millions prescriptions a year in USA for benzo. There are 21 000 members of benzobuddies from all over the world (that’s a tiny percentage of the users). Most of them do not post anymore. There is never more than 500 of us on average everyday. Most of the one posting need reassurance and soothing support. I would find it appropriate that anyone posting here with a bad experience would be kind and aware enough not to make their experience a universal reference. I just read another one of those post today stating that we should say the « truth about it » (about protracted symptoms, about the thesis that healing would not be healing but something more problematic etc.). Come on, guys. No one knows the « truth ». And a handful of testimonies have never created any truth. Right ? So, if we get back to the purpose of this forum, it would be great to stop scaring everybody with our latest wave, which suddenly became the « truth about it » ! I’ve been really annoyed with this trend and needed to push a rant. I am sorry for anyone suffering here. I am too. But nobody will get anywhere with this kind of « truth ». Let’s be uplifting, hopeful to each other (especially for the sake of those tapering right now). Forget about those fleeting and unrepresentative truth. It’s often a great way to improve our own condition.
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