Ashton taper leaves addict paralyzed

struggling to leave my room any adive or input would be helpful
« on: November 15, 2017, 03:46:47 pm »

[Buddie]

ive only been leaving my room for bathroom n shower n to eat n do landry other then those small thing ive spent the better part of the last 5 weeks just laying in bed all day watching movies or tv on my laptop !! monday i got out of the house for about 2 hours just to do some things in the yard n had two attacks while i was outside im on 1.625mg of ativan daily the window started slowly closing on me this summer and has pretty much shut me in my room where i keep all light out so it pitch black n i feel some what at ease still have attacks once a day or more but some days our good days and i dont have any ! has anyone been in this position before ? if so how do i over come it ? i need to be able to atleast get out side cut my grass take the trash out ect !! im in a pretty lucky situation im 31 with no kids or a job and my mom lets me live here for free n pays what little bills i have but i used to do all kinds of remodling projects for her and painting and yard projects but now i cant even cut the grass and input would be very helpful i have everything i need to start a titration but the alcohol to disolve the ativan but havent started because of fear n the situation im in

Trouble at BALA?

The word on the street is that an admin – a very special admin – has been booted from the tiny private club for being negative, bordering on abusive, toward fellow addicts.

I wonder if this palace coup has to do with accusations of Benzodiazepine Information Coalition addict shaming by Benzo Buddies members?

Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on addict who relapsed

The abuse goes on for ELEVEN pages! They later accused poor Timmy of being a troll and a hacker. That’s the kind of support an addict gets at Benzo Buddies – no support at all. 🙁

It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« on: September 13, 2016, 05:32:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I couldn’t handle the intense pain last night of my depression it was so excruciating that i swallowed 3 mg of klonipin. I know people in here have tried to help me but i can tell you today that i give up. I cannot handle this intense withdtawal and i think it’s from kindling. If i can be a poster boy of what not to do, please learn from me.
Slowly taper and no rescue doses. I have the most severe depression thst i dont even think it helped. I just made another huge mistake and in sure it’s one il never recover from. I’m so sorry benzo buddies and in ashamed that im such a failure. I guess i couldn’t pull up my big boy pants. I’m leaving the site now and i don’t know what to do from here, but i obviously can’t handle this wirhdrawal. It’s way too much depression and chest pain. I’m out of answers and unfortunately you don’t get 2nd chances in life.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #1 on: September 13, 2016, 05:41:56 pm »

[Buddie]

<<yawn>>>

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #2 on: September 13, 2016, 05:48:20 pm »

[Buddie]

So you either did not run out of all of them the other day, or you drove to the pharmacy in excruciating pain last night to get more. My feeling is you had them.You know I don’t really know what to say. Past experience for you has proved that reinstatements and rescue doses have done more harm than good for you. You have greatly regretted each time you have done so. Do you expect if to me different this time around. Your right, kindling has probably caused your withdrawal to be worse. I don’t know what your future plans are for Klonopin, but reaching tolerance quickly would not be out of the question for someone who has kindled. Is you plan to just keeping up your dose over time time you reach tolerance? I don’t know timmy. I think you should have tried to hang on a bit longer.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #3 on: September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #4 on: September 13, 2016, 05:58:12 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm
Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

The mental pain and anguish last night was just too much. I literally felt like my life was on the line. Worse is a friend gave them to me and now im totally out. This is really goung to kill me. I know il get flamed but the mental torture from kindling is so bad i had zero choice in my mind. I’m throwing in the towel. I am not capable of this obviously.

edit: fixed quotes
« Last Edit: September 13, 2016, 06:36:45 pm by [Buddie] »

CULT ABUSES THE MENTALLY ILL

The anti-psychiatry cult organizes themselves to attack patients, often mentally ill, who’s only crime is taking their doctor prescribed medication. The brainwashed zealots see themselves as saviors on a crusade to save people from Big Pharma’s evil medications. They don’t care who they hurt on their mission to destroy psychiatry. To these miserable wretches, the millions of people helped by medication can all go to hell. Promotion of cult ideology is bad enough, and to be honest, no one but other cult members sees it or cares, but the harassment of the sick is not going to be tolerated.

Xanax abuse (not use) a growing problem

GOLDEN VALLEY, Minn. – It may not get as much headlines as prescription painkillers and heroin, but Xanax can be just as addictive and deadly for some, experts say. The drug recently made headlines after news the University of Minnesota police were investigating members of the wrestling team for abusing the drug. It is a medication used to reduce anxiety, but too much of it, especially mixed with something else can be dangerous.

“The first time I felt it, I was just hooked immediately,” said Chris, 24. He says he was 16 or 17 when he he tried Xanax for the first time. “I loved it. I loved the high,” he recalled, describing the high similar to being drunk.. Searching to fit in at a new school in Lakeville, he found the answer in the drug also known as Benzodiazepine. “It’s completely destroyed my life. I was stealing from family members, I almost died twice within a year period,” he said. He almost died after overdosing on the drug. He says a friend took him to the hospital. And then a few months later he says he blacked out while driving. “I swerved off the road and crashed at 70 miles an hour. Luckily I wasn’t hurt though,” he said.

Drug experts say the medication has been around for a while.

“It doesn’t really capture the headlines to the extent opiates and heroin do, but it’s certainly been around for a long time,” said Carol Falkowski of Drug Abuse Dialogues. Falkowski has tracked drug abuse for decades. In her latest drug trends report, she found that it is the second most prescribed drug seized by police. The Minnesota Department of Health also reports an increase of deaths related to Benzodiazepines. “We have seen an increase of prescribing for all sorts of drugs, so it’s logical to expect an increase in abuse,” she said.

Chris says he saw an increase in the use of Benzodiazepine among his friends in the south metro as recent as last year. “The medicine has a proper use but people abusing it is happening more and more,” he said. He has left that world behind, now in recovery at Minnesota Adult and Teen Challenge. He credits the treatment and his faith in Christianity that helped him to become sober. He says he’s grateful he’s alive to warn others of his mistakes. “It can cost you your life,” he said.

http://www.kare11.com/news/xanax-abuse-a-growing-problem/218407949

But Matt Samet admitted abusing illegal drugs and alcohol…

“Over the years, I’ve shredded body and mind with poisons and palliatives, and sweated out the mess: benzos, booze, marijuana, muscle relaxants, opiates, antidepressants, mood stabilizers, anti­psychotics, coffee, sugar, computer games, food, puke, shit, piss, blood.” – Matt Samet, Beauty in the Breakdown

I may have reached a pain specialist by using a book
« on: April 24, 2016, 06:37:30 am »

[Buddie]

Hi everyone,
Many of you may be aware of the book “Death Grip” by Matt Stamet from 2013. Anyway I seached “benzodiazepines” on the county library site and it was the only book which came up (and this is a BIG county) but anyway I dove into it and since I was seeing my “pain management” doc for the 2nd time I took it along. He’s a younger guy and had already said he’d never heard of Ashton. His very large and expensive group does NOT ever prescribe benzos which I told him was great on visit #1. However, he is clueless of the masses which are going to be coming to him broken from these things. I just wanted to share that he showed a lot of genuine interest, and will hopefully read the book (I gave him the library slip for the title). This, plus talking my psychiatric nurse practisioner into doing a micro-taper with me, wow I hope to be planting a seed to help many people sometime in the future.

BTW this book has already been mentioned on the archived threads here. Stamet is/was a rock climber, now recovered from benzo hell. His book is fabulous and really digs into the experience of the medical and psychiatric systems and how they sideline us and polydrug us. It’s pretty radical because he did a fast taper so suffered bad protracted w/d. If you’re easily scared or in that spot, maybe not a read for you. Otherwise, great. Recommended for jocks, especially.
Aloha, […]

End Psychiatry leader lashes out at woman who benefited from ECT

Melissa Ortega: “ECT is a last-ditch effort at stabilizing profoundly depressed individuals. These are people who tend to have suicidal ideation and for whom other therapies have failed. Studies–that can be replicated, which means they are SCIENCE and not fear-and-ignorance-based anecdotes–show that ECT is extremely effective for these patients. Stop sensationalizing medicine. Unless you know what you’re talking about, and it’s apparent that you don’t, stfu and stop stigmatizing people who could benefit IMMENSELY from this treatment.”

Susan Wales: “I find it interesting how Daniel claims to be an advocate for misdiagnosed and ill informed people, which is a good and noble stance, yet can so viciously attack another human being in such a hateful and evil way – which completely negates the thoughtful humanitarian he is trying to present himself as being. Sharing one’s own thankfully positive outcome is in no way a statement on or advocacy for any other person’s experience. Attacking a fragile person who struggled mightily for her own survival is vile and frankly, an evil and merciless act.
I truly hope not one more person respond to this vitriolic hateful person.”

Daniel Carter: “I’ve personally watched hundreds destroyed by psychiatry, many of whom are dead.
You’re spitting on their graves and you should be ashamed.
Don’t try to oppress my form of expression and protest against TORTURE. Fuck tradition. Fuck oppressive psychiatry and fuck anyone who thinks only of their own happiness and is incapable of considering what it would be like to be force treated unnecessarily.”

ChaCha Lambert: “Daniel Carter you are a misogynist asshole”

Izzy Swank: “It’s sad, it’s really fucking sad, that you have no empathy for the people struggling with mental health disorders so bad that they need follow through with such extreme treatments.
I, too, wasn’t an advocate for ECT for the longest time. Watching how depressive disorders can destroy people’s ability to function first hand really changed my mind though. And you know what? Despite the lack of research and negative side effects, it appears that it worked for someone closet to me in my life, and for that I am BEYOND thankful.
Quite frankly, I think you should go fuck yourself.

Narcissa N David Dyste: “I think Daniel does have some other issues going on though…he lashes out even when people aren’t arguing with him…”

Daniel Carter:I may be an asshole at times, but I do it for a good reason and at least I can admit it, Aimee. Forced psychiatry is nothing short of criminal and you seem to have a conflict of interest when it comes to your happiness and advocacy, at the expense of VICTIMS of torture. That’s if you even care.”

https://www.facebook.com/TheMindUnleashed/posts/1153337631390047?fref=nf