Brainwashed Benzo Buddies members can’t leave homes, trips outside cause panic

Frustrated with social anxiety
« on: April 27, 2019, 03:18:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Sleep and appetite are good right now which is a relief considering start of my taper. Still frustrated with social anxiety that comes and goes since I’m not usually socially anxious at all. To the point that a dinner with my wife and trip to grocery store are unsettling. 🙁
Has anybody else experienced social anxiety even in normally comfortable situations?
Know I should be grateful I’m not having worse SXs but this still is bothersome and I’d love for it to pass sooner than later!

Re: Frustrated with social anxiety
« Reply #1 on: April 27, 2019, 03:39:08 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes this is intense for me as well. I do actually already suffer from this but it is WAY worse during my taper. Leaving my house puts me in straight panic.

Re: Frustrated with social anxiety
« Reply #2 on: April 27, 2019, 04:27:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Social anxiety is my major symptom in addition to tinnitus. Like you said, even going to a restaurant can unsettle me. But I do it and I even go to rock/blues/jazz/classical concerts. The anxiety usually subsides as I drink a few beers and start to focus on the music. I had never had an issue like this before. I hope it will disappear once I’m done with my taper.

Internet doctors at Benzo Buddies advise member to drive into a brick wall at 80 MPH

considering reinstatement
« on: November 26, 2018, 09:27:24 pm »

[Buddie]

it’s been a month since i took anything. I can’t eat i can’t sleep can’t play with my kids. I am basically a walking zombie. I have some many symptoms it would be hard to list them all.

Re: considering reinstatement
« Reply #1 on: November 26, 2018, 09:38:45 pm »

[Buddie]

your taper was very very fast and ativan is the worst devil in my eyes..
What you feel now is totally normal. Keep that in mind.
You have 2 options: Ride it out no matter what or reinstate quickly on a benzo like valium hoping to stabilize and do a proper taper according to the ashton manual. Option 2 requires a doctor who gives you the prescription and you do not know if you will really stabilize or feel worse.
All I can say is that this is early withdrawal. 1001 symptoms. The feeling of freaking out. Being half dead, with intrusive thoughts, depression, overwhelming ideas, dreams, insomnia – that is real withdrawal.

My taper from ativan was too fast, too, although I held dosages for weeks and months the cuts were too big. The withdrawal was horrbible but I did not want to reinstate because I was in tolerance from it.

I cannot help you more than telling you that a lot of members have survived what you are experiencing now and that I hope it will get better for you soon. No one deserves this…

Benzo Buddies alcohol experiment

5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« on: April 28, 2018, 01:20:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I am 5 months off of 1mg Klonopin after 6 years of daily, as-prescribed use. It should be noted that I wasn’t well-educated about benzo withdrawal until after I jumped, so my taper was pretty fast in retrospect (0.25mg cuts every 1-2 months).

Aside from anxiety/anger, muscle tension and episodic bouts of lethargy, I’ve been in a pretty good place since the start of month 4.

I know it’s frowned upon, but I’ve been having ONE beer every two months or so to see how I react. In my mind, this is the way to tell if/when I’ve completely healed (when I no longer experience negative effects from a single drink). I’ve never been big on alcohol, so I’m not worried about trading one dependence for another or anything like that.

Anyway… Here’s my latest report.

4/27/18
16oz Coors Light at dinner
(I drank it pretty quick and didn’t nurse it)

Tinnitus (only lasted about an hour) 1/10
Muscle tension 6/10 (worse when asleep)
Sleep sweats 3/10 (not as bad as previous times)
Flatulence 5/10 (still not as bad as previous times)
Neuro weirdness (Eyes darting around/coordination issues/brain zaps 5/10 (not as bad as previous times)
Anxiety 3/10 (mindfulness that this will pass and is par for the course helps- no outright panic)
Overall lethargy 5/10

I’d like to point out that the weird “burning” sensation in my legs has completely gone away after having a drink, so that’s exciting.

I definitely feel “hungover,” but nothing crazy. I do know that sometimes a few of the effects lag and don’t show until a solid 24 hours later, so we’ll see what tonight brings, I suppose.

Does anyone else occasionally try this method? At first I was strictly no alcohol at all, but… I’m angry. I’m done. I want normalcy returned to my life. And dammit, I will get there. :P

***I don’t recommend this method to anyone. This is my own experiment but surely I can’t be the only one.***

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #1 on: April 28, 2018, 01:35:26 pm »

[Buddie]

5 months off and feeling pretty good, you are lucky!!!

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #2 on: April 28, 2018, 02:03:42 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on April 28, 2018, 01:35:26 pm
5 months off and feeling pretty good, you are lucky!!!

Thanks! Yeah, I really am. Especially considering I tried CTing about 3 years back. I only lasted maybe 3-4 days before reinstating at full dose because I turned into a monster. It was bad. I have tremendous support from my husband and friends, which has been so helpful.

I try to keep a positive outlook, because I refuse to be beaten by this.

Swift healing to you!

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #3 on: April 29, 2018, 08:37:38 am »

[Buddie]

let us know how it goes, I’ve had a couple of glasses of wine since new years. But I had a glass each time over 4 5 hours haha still too scared to drink how I used to. I’m sure we’ll get there we just need time unfortunately.

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #4 on: April 29, 2018, 04:42:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Alcohol is called liquid Benzo in this trip. Chose for yourself. You’ll heal faster without it.

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #5 on: April 29, 2018, 06:41:33 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on April 29, 2018, 04:42:38 pm
Alcohol is called liquid Benzo in this trip. Chose for yourself. You’ll heal faster without it.

Some truth to this, although I’ve never heard it called liquid benzo. They both affect the same receptors (GABAa), which may be why the burning went away after a drink.

Even at six years off I rarely drink, but when I do I limit it to 1/2 glass of wine as alcohol has led to borderline panic a few hours later, and I am normally never panicky.

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #6 on: April 29, 2018, 06:49:27 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve never been a big drinker and I didn’t have an alcoholic drink until I was sure I was healed. I didn’t want to do anything to derail the slow progress I had towards recovery. Once healed I’ve been able to enjoy a glass of wine or a margarita on occasion. I don’t feel any negative effects from the drink. I am a one and done kind of person, no refills for me.

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Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #7 on: April 29, 2018, 10:10:25 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m personally too scared to go near alcohol, I’ve heard too many horror stories of it ramping up people’s symptoms and I feel bad enough as it is. I would be careful with your experiment, tolerating alcohol is not the best litmus test for healing. If you have a bad reaction I would wait a good while to test the waters again.

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #8 on: April 29, 2018, 10:12:53 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote
Once healed I’ve been able to enjoy a glass of wine or a margarita on occasion

Me, too. I have a (small) glass of wine maybe twice a week with dinner. No problems.

Re: 5 months. Alcohol experiment.
« Reply #9 on: April 30, 2018, 12:42:39 pm »

[Buddie]

I am scared to even use rubbing alcohol on my skin.

Cult members endure shameful diarrhea episodes in order to satisfy insane Benzo Buddies tapering demands

Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« on: March 07, 2018, 10:16:10 pm »

[Buddie]

Starting on Sunday, the minute I feel any stress or anxiety diarrhea hits & im running for the bathroom. It was coupled with insomnia on Sunday night, but I was home. Today, I was at the mall, not cool.
Any suggestions? Anything I should avoid eating or should eat? I don’t have much of an appetite.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #1 on: March 07, 2018, 11:12:18 pm »

[Buddie]

This makes me not want to be here… censor my title and move my post.

This really is my worst side effect so far & wanted some input on anything that can help alive it.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #2 on: March 07, 2018, 11:29:00 pm »

[Buddie]

I believe that diarrhea is a common effect when you stop benzos completely, it happened to me but after a month or six weeks went away – and I have a very sensitive stomach anyway. Try eating a lot of white rice with your meals, and stay away from cake and other sweets for a while.

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Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #3 on: March 07, 2018, 11:39:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m sorry that you are going through this , but believe me you are not alone. When I am in a bad wave my colon acts up and sh-t happens:laugh: My worst moments were on a long drive from Northern C.A. to B.C. Canada. I had foolishly enjoyed Panda Express for lunch in Medford. It was a wild ride to the pit stop. What stops the crap dead in it’s tracks is over the counter immodium. I keep it for true emergencies and it seems to be O.K. as far as affecting withdrawal symptoms.

This stuff is unpleasant but like everything else it will get better.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #4 on: March 08, 2018, 12:55:48 am »

[Buddie]

I had this too last summer and I jumped in June. I would get up 3-7 X a night to go poopy. I was losing weight because I had no appetite except for specific things and they would go right through me. My pants got baggy. I was scared.

By September/October this resolved and I got a healthy appetite back. Now I wish my pants were loose.

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Public health emergency: Benzo Buddies members unable to eat normal food due to cult brainwashing, lives at risk

Hell breaks loose after first meal
« on: March 04, 2018, 04:02:43 pm »

[Buddie]

It doesn’t matter what I eat although I try to just stick to healthy fats and proteins. I don’t have any sugar, carbs or anything unnatural in the mornings. The minute after I take a bite of food in the morning is when my head pressure, dizziness and blurred vision come on. The hell usually lasts all day after my first bite of food but sometimes gets better towards the evening. The only break I get is for two or three hours in the mornings.

Anyone else?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #1 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Same here. Still happening 20 months out.

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #2 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

What symptoms do you get?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #3 on: March 05, 2018, 09:34:13 am »

[Buddie]

Exactly that made the psych diagnose me with “anxiety and panic disorder”.

Newsflash, it’s called DYSAUTONOMIA!

Thanks doc. for the misdiagnosis and putting me on this poison, and completely destroying my life.
I told every doctor about it, it didn’t matter matter what i ate, i felt sick, became extremely anxious and had to spend the whole day in bed.

NEVER blindly trust a doctor, do your own research too.