Ashton disciple has mental breakdown after overindulging in bread

Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« on: February 20, 2018, 12:22:09 am »

[Buddie]

I’ll admit, I may have overindulged on bread today, but I didn’t expect it to give me a mini breakdown complete with crying to my parents! Lorazepam really is the devil’s drug. Anyone else have this problem? Does it get better???

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #1 on: February 20, 2018, 02:23:53 am »

[Buddie]

I am so sorry. You are probably going to have to stock up on the tissue paper, because I didn’t know what sobbing, weeping and bawling were until I started coming off Lorazepam. Goodness gracious, I have cried more in my life in the last 3 years, than I have in all of my life before. Just, these heavy sobbing episodes. On a plus side, I didn’t get a single cold because crying can actually flush the cold viruses out nicely.

And then, somewhere along the way, you’re going to find an artist like Matthew Ryan and start listening to him and sob along, relating to almost every darn lyric in there.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #2 on: February 20, 2018, 03:10:46 am »

[Buddie]

You may be much better off than me because you spent a lot less time on lorazepam than I did, and the crying may also be a temporary symptom from stopping Trintellix. Also, we all have different life circumstances, so the crying episodes may be much more short-lived for you. It’s just that I was surprised by all the crying I went through.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #3 on: February 20, 2018, 03:19:49 am »

[Buddie]

You never fail to make me feel better, and I will forever be in your debt. I’m going to do my best to take some positives from all this. For instance, my crying today helped me get to the bottom of what could prove to be a key issue in my overall recovery. It’s funny, feeling as if everything around me is either negative or out to get me has really pushed me towards finding the positive in things, which I never really did before.

Related: http://www.newsweek.com/how-much-pasta-can-you-eat-you-die-506128

Cult members salivate at prospect of forcing 74-year old mother into abusive taper regimen

Caring for aging parents before during and after withdrawal
« on: February 05, 2018, 02:22:22 pm »

[Buddie]

My mother is sick. She is 74 and in tolerance withdrawal herself. Having survived this nighmare, I recognize so much of her struggles to be benzo related. Add to that her weakened and elderly state, and I just cant find the way out for her. Let alone navigate through the storm.

I wanted to share experiences, ideas and thoughts from anyone else who knows this journey!

Peace&Love
[…]&Faith

BenzMom’s off pills but will be right back on them after a few months at the online Jonestown called Benzo Buddies

BenzMom Introduction
« on: February 05, 2018, 06:33:25 pm »

BenzMom

I am the mother of two children who was placed on Xanax over 15 years ago shortly after my daughter was born. In the course of those years I went off and on Xanax for about 5 years then my mother who was battling a long term battle with a malignant brain tumor became very sick. The Xanax led to other drugs all prescribed by my dr but I like many others needed more not realizing I was dependent. My mother passed away and other tragedies followed in my family. This past August I entered a rehab facility in another state for 5 weeks and gained my life back. I am off of Xanax and all other meds I was on for almost 6 months.

Thank you to this forum.

Benzo Buddies: Flea spray affects GABA

Please help, desperate, got fleas in house but flea spray affects GABA
« on: August 08, 2017, 09:50:04 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello

My friend brought his dog in my flat and the dog has left fleas, ive been bitten.
I’ve tried vaccumming, but I am so depressed and anxious and stressed about other things including withdrawal that I only have the energy to vaccuumm part of a room a day, ,whereas to get rid of the fleas, eggs and larvae you either have to vaccuum every day for a week or use flea spray with insect growth regulator in.
The problem with these substances is that they all have chemicals in which, on doing research, affect gaba in a bad way, I wont ramble.
I even tried to find a respirator online so that I did not breathe in any of the vapours, but there is so much choice that I am totally confused as to which respirator to buy to prevent me inhaling the fumes of the flea spray, as you have to keep windows shut while it works when you spray.
Has anyone ever used any of the strong flea sprays in withdrawal?
Did they react with you in a bad way?
I am desperate to hear of anyone’s experience with these flea sprays, they worked for me when i wasnt on valium but I am scared to use them given what I have read online about them interacting with GABA.
Thanks

Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on member who suggested going to a doctor

Please people consider how you respond to others
« on: July 26, 2017, 05:27:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi all,

I put some post up the other day as I was hopeful that I might find a therapist at McLean’s Hospital. However some found it a purpose to rail against doctors and everything else. I would like to ask you that if somebody is new to please take a more gentle attitude hair is how I feel today

Thank you for everybody who bashed this thread. I came on this board for help and I really thought that my post was benign.

I was attacked or I should say my post was attacked very viciously and it sent me into a conflict which really helped to worsen my withdrawal. I am already all alone people should really consider what they are saying to somebody especially if they are new to this board. I am in a headlong depression and am extremely alone I didn’t need this.

Klonopin addict loses mind, torches house

I'm 45 and have lost ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING.
« on: March 14, 2017, 10:16:14 am »

[Buddie]

I’ve been fighting clonazepam withdrawal for four years now. I’ve made it through it twice only to b launched back into it by mistakes. Once from taking a prescribed drug called perphenizine which totally reset me back to zero. And once from taking Aleve. I’m 45 and have lost everything I own. My savings, my 401 k, my stock portfolio and my house ..which burned down while in clonopin withdrawal. My credits destroyed too. I’ve lost over 200,000 total.

I’m 45 yrs old and feel there’s no use in trying to start over. I’m too old. My life is over and I simply do not want to exist anymore.