Brainwashed cult member wants to activate DNR if she has to be intubated from COVID-19, fears being sedated worse than dying

If have you be intubated due to virus....
« on: March 25, 2020, 02:47:07 pm »

[Buddie]

So, let’s hope this doesn’t happen to any of us but I am very concerned about this.

If ppl need to be intubated they are sedated and paralysed apparently.

I am now sensitised to all meds and still tapering.

If they gave me Benzos it would be horrific as you are all aware and I get severe adverse effects to all meds have tried to relax muscles in last year including g hallucinations and terror.

I couldn’t lie flat even on Benzos doe to spinal problems and now even with legs up can’t lie on back.

What the hell are we supposed to do in these circumstances.

I have a DNR in place so not sure if that would prevent them from doing it?

If worked and didn’t cause terror would hope for morphine but unless they were to give me enough to put me out of my misery the effects of that would be horrific as even cocodomol causes my terror etc to get much worse due to allergic sensitisation.

Due to COVID-19 isn’t it time Benzo Buddies tells its members to immediately stop tapering, and go back on benzos? Why are they torturing people?

COV19 making it even harder to taper
« on: March 17, 2020, 10:23:25 am »

[Buddie]

increased stress. Now asked to work from home.
Don’t have much equipment to work from home.
Going to work helped my socialization.
I’m in a major long hold. Fear all the stress
will just keep me on the med. Also restart SSRI
to cope with the isolation and stress. I know I
ask a lot. I ask for prayers. Ty

Re: COV19 making it even harder to taper
« Reply #1 on: March 17, 2020, 03:01:44 pm »

[Buddie]

I am not sure if it will help. However when I work from home I usually keep a TV, YouTube or radio on as ‘background noise’. This usually helps me cope with isolation.

Re: COV19 making it even harder to taper
« Reply #2 on: March 20, 2020, 10:55:28 am »

[Buddie]

I’m letting all the pandemic news scare me
bc it’s change. And I had adjustment do
even before all this. I find I can’t tolerate
SSRI ordered for me . It’s too sedating
and makes my body feel terrible. Ty

Benzo Buddies members forbidden to take anti-anxiety medication agonize over dentist visits

Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« on: December 28, 2019, 12:12:26 am »

[Buddie]

Hi!
I’m going to the dentist tomorrow because of a bad tooth. I have not been there in 10 years because of anxiety when it comes to the dentist. I still have agoraphobia.

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #1 on: December 28, 2019, 12:17:58 am »

[Buddie]

If its a lot of work to do, ask them to split the appointment into more single appointments to make it easier.
Ask them to interrupt, then stand up and do some jumps or stretches to lower the cortisol.
If you have to wait, walk around in order not to freeze in fear.
Tell the doctor that he must stop abruptly if you lift your hand.
While sitting in the chair, tap with your fingers on the legs and count from 1 to 1000.
Drink a cup of water before and after treatment.
After the appointment, move your body, shiver, shake it, jump.

You are in control. Tell them BEFORE about the stop signal, tell them to open a window, its you in charge, its your body.
If things are too difficult, stop and make a new appointment. You can decide, okey?
Tell them about your anxiety, if you want, but then TELL them about your strategies as well, because then no one will try to do things tHEY think are good for you and you might feel like a victim again. Instead – tell them while being bold and proud that you need some more time and air and you have some orders to follow – thats it. No big deal. Okey?

Marigold!

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #2 on: December 28, 2019, 12:19:19 am »

[Buddie]

I have been having to go to the dentist, because if alot of cavities. Another gift from Ativan. It is very stressful as I do not get anything to numb me. I only get two at a time done. Sometimes it causes a wave, but eventually it settles down. I think it’s my own fear more than the actual dentist visit itself.
You will be fine though, it will be over before you know it.

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #3 on: December 28, 2019, 12:21:56 am »

[Buddie]

I also have someone go with me. It makes it easier to deal with the anxiety. If you can, have someone go with you and hang out with you for awhile afterwards.

Benzo Buddies claims common cold causes waves

Wave from a cold?
« on: December 18, 2019, 06:14:48 pm »

[Buddie]

Does anyone else get waves from a cold? Brain fog, dizziness, can’t concentrate, exhausted, can’t think straight, insomnia…

Re: Wave from a cold?
« Reply #1 on: December 18, 2019, 08:33:07 pm »

[Buddie]

I got sick a bunch of times with cold/flu bugs during WD and I could never figure out if they were legitimate colds due to a weakened immune system or “benzo flu“. Either way, raw ginger helped me a great deal. I think the WD exacerbates any normal cold symptoms you get. […] you feel better soon!

Re: Wave from a cold?
« Reply #2 on: December 19, 2019, 07:20:34 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes! Just as I was starting to think I was turning a corner I got sick last Wednesday and hit by a wave of extreme insomnia with added night terrors (yay!) anxiety, confusion and irritability and now my period is due in less than two weeks. […] you feel better. You’re not alone ❤️

Re: Wave from a cold?
« Reply #3 on: December 19, 2019, 07:44:58 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes! I actually think my waves come in the form of a cold or flu. If other people have colds or flus, I get them very badly and have all the worst symptoms and include more benzo symptoms. If other people do not have colds and flus, and it’s just me, I more look at is as just benzo withdrawal, but it’s very much the same.

Re: Wave from a cold?
« Reply #4 on: December 19, 2019, 09:38:53 pm »

[Buddie]

I got a cold right after visiting family for Thanksgiving – my little granddaughter had a bad cold. I know I caught it from her. For me it definitely wasn’t a wave manifesting as a cold. There were also some stressful family dynamics. Whether it was stress or the cold or both, I went into a tough wave for about 10 days. I’m in a window now. Over the cold and feeling good.

I […] you feel much better soon!

Addict develops domatophobia after joining Benzo Buddies

Will I Ever Want to Go Home Again?
« on: September 03, 2019, 11:33:50 pm »

[Buddie]

I know I’ve spoken with a few people on this forum about this. This has been going on with me for about a year now. I don’t like going home at all. I get no joy from being in my own house. I feel mad at my family. I have no hobbies I want to pursue when I’m here. I can’t nap lately. It’s like the moment I’m gone for a while and then have to come back, I dread it. And when I’m here, I just feel mad and miserable. It doesn’t really matter if I’m home alone or not. I don’t know how many others deal with this. Being at home used to be the place I was most comfortable.

Television (and books) forbidden for Ashton cultists

Fear over Books and Television
« on: August 04, 2019, 11:16:50 pm »

[Buddie]

Does anyone become filled with anxiety when you try to watch television or read a book?

I use to love both, but now I can’t handle more than a few seconds of either. It makes it so so so hard to fill the day.

Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #1 on: August 05, 2019, 12:48:27 am »

[Buddie]

Yes.

Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #2 on: August 05, 2019, 12:53:29 am »

[Buddie]

YES. I actually stopped watching TV during WD. The violence, the negativity, just became way too much for me. I did not watch TV for several years because of this. I already had enough dark and negative thoughts in my mind. Did not need to add to that. Believe it or not I only resumed watching some TV a few months ago. And you know what? Seven years of NOT watching TV was truly a GOOD thing, a nice thing. I had to find other ways to pass the time.
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Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #3 on: August 05, 2019, 01:25:23 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 05, 2019, 12:53:29 am
YES. I actually stopped watching TV during WD. The violence, the negativity, just became way too much for me. I did not watch TV for several years because of this. I already had enough dark and negative thoughts in my mind. Did not need to add to that. Believe it or not I only resumed watching some TV a few months ago. And you know what? Seven years of NOT watching TV was truly a GOOD thing, a nice thing. I had to find other ways to pass the time.
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Same for me. Stopped watching TV completely. Cut back my online reading to only a couple local news and weather reports. Can’t handle the stress. I get too worked up. I am getting better, though. I was much worse a few years ago. So maybe I’ll be able to get back to where I was, though I’m not sure I want to. TV is all propaganda or pornography, and often both, mixed together into one tempting toxic brew. Who needs that?

Addict lands in ER after Benzo Buddies taper fails

Please help.... absolutely hopeless and broken
« on: July 18, 2019, 12:06:20 am »

[Buddie]

So I’ve been off Klonopin about 1 month now. I have a phobia about dying. It’s only gotten worse. Last night I felt very weak and scared and was absolutely certain I’d die in my sleep. This morning I woke up at 6, very weak and TERRIFIED. I can usually tell a panic attack is happening, but I fully thought I was dying and called 911 for the first time. I was telling my boyfriend goodbye, ffs. My vitals were fine, my urine was fine, my blood sugar was fine. They sent me home. I still feel terrible and scared out of my mind. A terror I’ve never felt. I’m obsessing about meningitis or septic shock… I don’t know why. They didn’t do blood tests which is the major reason I cannot calm down. I’m so depressed. Majorly depressed. I’m so done with this. I’m the worst I’ve ever been. I keep going into full panic screaming that I’m dying, begging my Mom to help.

This just feels so real and different. But I’m not in excruciating pain. I just feel weak, confused, really depressed, my head is heavy, and sheer terror that I’m dying and nobody will help me. 🙁 Please tell me this is withdrawal and that I can make it through this, because I’m considering giving up completely.