“How do you test for liquified guts?”

Think I’m dying for real this time
« on: November 22, 2020, 02:06:24 pm »

[Buddie]

Things have taken an ugly turn these last few months and even though I thought I was dying this whole time, this time it’s feels for real. Iv seen muscle and connective tissue wasting as a symptom and I think something like that is going on but it feels like internal organs are turning to mush.

My stomach and genitalia are soft and saggy. Recently my stomach started to tremor a lot and it feels really sloshy in there. Same with my palpitations, they used to feel clean but now my heart feels more muffled and it trembles sometimes and flops. My throat feels weak and I’m also having a few joint issues.

This is my fault, I’ve had a few beers and tried magnesium a few times, nothing crazy. I had one too many setbacks and Now things seem to be deteriorating instead of healing.

I told my self it was all just sensations but now I’m seeing and feeling these frightening physical changes and would do anything to stop this but I don’t know what to do.

I have yet another doctor appointment and they are gonna do some blood work but how do you test for liquified guts?

I would do anything to get out of this but it seems Iv pushed my luck one to many times.
I would even settle for being bedridden for years like some but this is getting worse fast and feels like a degenerative disease.

If anyone saw changes like that and is surviving lmk and any suggestions.

Benzo Buddies kooks discover new fear: 5G

Doctors call for delaying deployment of 5G due to health risks.
« on: April 07, 2020, 12:32:02 am »

[Buddie]

This could be very serious for us.

re: Frank Clegg Former President of Microsoft Canada: “It’s not been made clear to the public that 5G won’t just be another number and a letter on your cell phone. It requires an entirely new infrastructure of thousands of small cellular antennas to be erected throughout the cities where it’s going to be installed.”

What would 5G infrastructure look like? Small cell antennas could be placed as close as every 3rd hydro pole.

Scientists from 42 countries are now warning their governments about the emerging health problems associated with wireless radiation, and Canadian doctors and scientists have added their voices.

Benzo Buddies members attempt top another suicidal member from going to psych ward

My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« on: November 05, 2020, 11:27:36 am »

[Buddie]

Wha do i do. I quit my last dose of effexor xr 37 mg tapered off with 20 mg tablets on october 6th. was put back on a small dose February 2020 in a psche ward for attempting S. I was also forced on risperdal which i quit in august. About 3 days ago my symptoms have gotten worse. My head started crackling and squeezing more and my brain went even more numb and squeezed like crazy, also my muscle spasms and tightness are worse, my chest is fluttering and very tight. My spine is crushing. And tonight it has happened 3 seperate times. I cant breathe well. I am wobbling and shivering back and forth like crazy. . If i go to a psych ward they will just give me drugs and benzos. But my brain is so numb ativan does not work anymore anyways. They did it to me before n november 2019 and it did not work. Help, my 3rd unbearable attack tonight. Is my brain and body failing? It feels like am dying, i am so weak. I am scared. Dont know what to do.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #1 on: November 05, 2020, 12:02:14 pm »

[Buddie]

I want to help you, John, but I don’t know how. Psychiatry has no other cure besides these drugs that led us to this state. The more we took them, the more sick we became.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #2 on: November 05, 2020, 12:09:29 pm »

[Buddie]

The worst thing is that both psychiatrists and patients themselves often do not understand that this is not a disease, but comes from their medicines.
Psychotropic drugs are scary things that they do to people. You have a drug disorder, John, caused by chronic brain damage from psychotropic drugs
« Last Edit: November 05, 2020, 12:15:42 pm by [Buddie]

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #3 on: November 05, 2020, 08:44:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah, i am about done with all this. I cant take any of this anymore
2 years now and my brain is mush. Cracks, squeezes, itches, spine squeezes, dozens of other side affects. i am losing all hope. . How the heck can you stay positive with all this horrendous , indescribable horror going on with us? the positive people are the ones who get relief and see improvements. I want peace and happiness. I trusted psychiatrists. I was only 15 when i was given effexor xr. Oh, it is safe they said. I was given prozac in the 3rd grade because i kept to myself. What quacks this medical industry is.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #4 on: November 05, 2020, 09:05:24 pm »

[Buddie]

It is indeed an industry of great quackery John. I’ve had it shit in other ways. 21 months for me. It’s still a struggle. Wearing.

The only thing that in any works for me is to roll with it best I can. Acceptance is key for me now. Acceptance coupled with distraction, action, is even better. Sometimes hard for me to do.

You have been on psychotropics since early childhood it makes sense to me that you would feel the way you do. Your brain is trying to recalibrate. Give it time.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #5 on: November 05, 2020, 09:16:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks […]. I am trying. Ever since ECT while going through drug withdrawal i have so much damage, it is ridiculous.

Benzo Buddies member blames Satan for drug addiction

too traumatized to heal
« on: September 29, 2020, 08:48:43 pm »

[Buddie]

i wont be on bb much longer but if you never hear from me again i guess this will let you know why. Im simply too messed up and have messed up too badly to heal fully. Jesus is supposed to be the healer and redeemer but sorry there is no healing this mothers heart from the monsterous symptoms ive had and the betrayal ofpeople i intrusted with this info when i was at my most frightened and f”@$ed up. i swim through the success stories of all these people who just plain didnt go as off their nut as i did. severe but kept their jobs. seveer but somehow stayed out of the wards. severe but somehow kept their heads about them. No one to tell me hey ive been where you are…no one yo say this is how we get you past this. i scared off the only person who has any insight into the horrors i have been through and even she didnt f up her life and is now i guess doing ok.anyway. ive said it before. satan knew what he was doing when he did this to me.

Benzo Buddies cult hero Parker goes back on benzos, panic ensues

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #4 on: July 13, 2020, 03:39:21 pm »

[Buddie]

I think there is still a lot of confusion for BB members. Parker posted that she reinstated and this was placed in the Success Stories?? I know success stories have to be approved by admin. This is very confusing.

Reinstatements do happen but have been posted in an appropriate section. This was upsetting to say the least for many members. A brief explanation would be appreciated. Success stories are the only hope many people cling to. What happened here?

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #9 on: July 13, 2020, 06:28:27 pm »

[Buddie]

I wish her well too.

But this just goes to show that not everyone who suddenly disappears from the forum goes on to heal. I’ve always wondered why someone as active, influential and devoted to the forum and people on here as Parker would suddenly disappear without telling ANYONE why she left, What happened, etc. If you look back at Parker’s posts before she “disappeared” she was literally posting multiple posts a day. For someone to just up and leave without coming back at all, something must have happened or they reinstated. People kept telling folks on here “well healed people don’t hang out on this forum anymore they move on with their lives”. That certainly isn’t the case here, and provably many other cases out there.

I’m glad she came back and told us. It’s a little odd she posted In the success story section, but at least now we know what happened.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #10 on: July 13, 2020, 07:16:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Oh, so that is why I couldn’t find it. Thought was going mad….
I am glad she is ok.
If I could reinstate and stay on I would.
I should have done that in December 2017 when tried and it still worked before damaged was caused to muscles and joints instead of listening to ppl on here saying not to and drugs are bad etc.
They were the right thing for me.
Now can’t take anything and body literally crushing itself.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #12 on: July 13, 2020, 07:29:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Well the truth here is that she did not go on to heal. That’s what I mean by people on here making assumptions about people leaving and healing. False reassurance.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #22 on: July 20, 2020, 01:23:52 am »

[Buddie]

It’s just completely bizarre to me that someone who KNOWS how horrific Wd is and how long the suffering is would willingly put the poison in their body again. I’d die before I physically put another pill in my mouth. It’s different if the wd wasn’t as bad or long, but Parker was on here for like 7 years..

It’s like someone who almost died of peanut allergies would risk eating it again.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #27 on: July 24, 2020, 10:19:33 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think Parker healed and then went on drugs after. She was 32 months off and still bad.

BENZO BELLY’S BACK!

Benzo belly
« on: June 25, 2020, 09:57:08 am »

[Buddie]

Hello ,
What are the best tips to manage benzo belly,
Should i eat more fiber from foods or propiotics are recommended? I know it differs for everyone but i would like to hear some tips.

Kooks terrified of balsamic vinegar

Lorazepam and balsamic vinegar
« on: May 16, 2020, 12:05:32 am »

[Buddie]

Hi this might be a dumb question but I try to stay away from any sort of alcohol because of my lorazepam use and being scared to mix it with any alcohol. Does anyone know if it’s ok
To eat? I’m getting confusing information if balsamic vinegar has any alcohol in it or not.