BENZO BELLY STRIKES AGAIN!

BIG Benzo BELLY
« on: June 30, 2019, 02:42:50 am »

[Buddie]

anyone have Benzo BELLY??
belly looks like I am 9NINE months pregnant
I am not fat only my stomach looks big and weird
hard to breath when I breath stomach expands like a balloon and gets tight /locks /uncomfortable / never goes away
– after eating it is worse

anyone know what causes this? treatments? cures?
how long does it last?

Addict fantasizes about murdering family after joining Benzo Buddies anti-doctor cult

Fear of Going Home
« on: May 08, 2019, 09:36:08 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m having a really hard time wanting to go home after work. I feel anger toward my family and have intrusive thoughts. I’ve had these things for so long that I’ve formed an aversion to my home. Don’t know what to do at this point. Never thought this would happen at nearly 14 months off. Does anybody have this? Does this sound like benzo withdrawal at all? I may have to quit my job and move at this point.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #1 on: May 08, 2019, 10:01:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah, I think you begin to associate all this horror with your home, and family, and job, and everything around you, and you feel like getting away from it all. I used to hate being at home. I’d just get in the car and drive around the mountains for the whole day. Anything to get away. Of course, if you have a lot of anger, you might not want to go driving around. Might turn into road rage. But maybe some long walks might help.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #2 on: May 09, 2019, 12:32:14 am »

[Buddie]

You might have some other psychological issues (LOL – editor). This is not a criticism but your posts suggest it and your benzo doses were never very high. Maybe some cognitive behavioral therapy to help you deal with these negative thought patterns. Quitting your job and moving wont change a thing in my opinion. Best of luck.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #3 on: May 09, 2019, 02:05:35 am »

[Buddie]

Been seeing a therapist since July. I started seeing a second therapist in April too. Nothing has helped.

All I know is that when I quit benzos the second time I didn’t sleep for a full month and it felt like I was going into states of psychosis. I had suicidal ideation up to about a year off. That has eased off and it’s morphed into this fear of going home and fear and anger around other people, particularly my family.

Kooks add hair dye to trigger list

Anyone with a problem in hair dyeing?
« on: May 04, 2019, 07:41:53 pm »

[Buddie]

I dye my hair for 30 years and I never had a problem.
Now, whatever dye I use, immediately after my head is filled with little pimples.
I went to a dermatologist but did not find a skin problem,
just told me not to dye my hair, but I do not want it.

Is there a possibility that this is a w/d symptom?

Benzo Buddies terrifies members into believing they have a disease that doesn’t exist

How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« on: April 13, 2019, 02:56:16 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi everyone. I jumped two months ago from diazepam after a long withdrawal taper while in tolerance. I have had every symptom possible. The two symptoms that have never let up while in tolerance or through the taper and after jumping are benzo-flu symptoms and muscle pain throughout my abdominal region which an ultrasound showed nothing.

I’ve been mostly house bound for 3 years fighting this. The benzo-flu use to be 3-4 days a week but since jumping it is 24/7 with no breaks. Nothing helps this and my head feels like it will explode. Just achy, hot, nauseous and anxious. I just want to know that there is an end to this and that I am not the only one.

Has anyone else struggled this long with benzo-flu symptoms? I haven’t read of anyone having it like this. It seems they may have it for a few days one month here and there. This is constant for me. Anyone?

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #1 on: April 13, 2019, 04:17:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Yep. Its constant for me.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #2 on: April 13, 2019, 04:25:23 pm »

[Buddie]

[…], so sorry for you too. How long has this been going on for you? It is really taking a toll on me.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #3 on: April 13, 2019, 04:33:49 pm »

[Buddie]

NO your not the only one. I had it on and off during all of my long taper, just continually getting worse and more frequent
until it was 24/7 at about 3 months after jumping. It’s very discouraging & scary when it just keeps getting worse even after stopping the drug.
But after 3 months it reversed and very gradually started getting better until that particular group of symptoms is all but gone now.
My mind is just completely boggled at what I’ve been through and how sick I’ve been the past couple years.
So hopefully yours will start getting better now real soon. At 2 months your very early.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #4 on: April 13, 2019, 04:39:34 pm »

[Buddie]

[…], thank you so much for replying and I hate that you went through that. I am just crying now out of some relief. I really was thinking that I was alone. Like you, it was bad before but since jumping it never lets up. I’ve suffered through this for 3 years. It is unbelievable the torture. I hope your health just continually gets better by leaps and bounds.

Benzo Buddies member’s photo revealed: devoted to brutal micro-taper, addict eats by attaching food to fan and having it blow into her mouth

Benzo Buddies approved taper ends in crisis unit

throwing in the towel
« on: April 06, 2019, 04:59:05 pm »

[Buddie]

i cant live like this. its not living .everyday is hell and fear for me. im going back on my original dose and hope to feel like i did a few months ago. maybe i really just need them anyway. i wish all you beautiful and strong people a successful taper and much peace. love & light to you all

Re: throwing in the towel
« Reply #13 on: April 07, 2019, 11:39:08 pm »

[Buddie]

i spent the night in the crisis unit. im finally home. and i just want to tell everyone who took time out of you journey to encourage me that i truly love each one of you. family doent understand and they think by making me feel shame or less than because this is so hard is somehow going to majically fix this. i went up a bit. back on .5 in morinng and .5 and night. once im ready i will begin again. so much love and thanks to all you amazing and compassionate warriors.. much love to you all. this group is filled with the kindest and strongest people of ever come across.. thank you so much <3 love & light to all. jill

Benzo Buddies members prefer 24/7 pity party over healing

Overposting and healing.
« on: March 29, 2019, 02:27:38 am »

[Buddie]

I logon every few months and see the same old people with their same old crap posts. I almost think we have trolls with multiple id’s or maybe some folks don’t want to heal. Maybe some lonely bored trolls. I wish the admins would investigate the IP addresses of the chronic offenders because all the noise gets in the way of real information. This site helped me immensely but I see why it gets a bad rap on the internet. Like most other things, 10 percent ruin it for the other 90….BTW – time causes waves and just because the wind changed directions is no reason to question the wind. As more time goes by you will get less waves and more windows…Get it and don’t forget it. A beer or a burger didn’t cause you to relapse. Jesus Christ help us. This will get taken down but don’t take it lightly. I’ve written this 10 different ways over the past 2 weeks wondering if I should post or not. Ban me, delete it or whatever but I’m not questioning my motives.

BTW – over 2 years out and doing good and only hope to do better. I would not wish this nightmare on anybody.