Please help spatial awareness disorientation issues
« on: April 03, 2021, 08:32:56 am »
Hi I’m new here
I’m feeling so distressed. I feel like I Search and Search but can’t find my exact symptoms.
I’m wondering if anyone who has spatial awareness issues can tell me what they experience.
I’m finding it so hard to put into words what I’m experiencing but basically everything feels off centre.
I can’t comprehend straight walls i over think everything and I feel disoriented. And try and square things off almost. I have only left the house a handful of times the last few months and when I do the roads feel off like they should go more to the left or right. Like the direction is slightly off.
I’m finding this so unbearable has anyone experienced these symptoms
I feel like I’m going crazy.
I tapered from diazepam Using Ashton method but these symptoms have worsened since weaning off propranolol.
I just can’t seem to get my mind to stop overthinking about this
Has Tapering ever resulted in severe mental disorders?
« on: December 05, 2019, 12:27:40 am »
After freaking out during my taper, my doctor strongly recommended (ordered) me to go back up to 1mg and hold till I was ready to start tapering at my own pace. In that time, I’ve had some pretty strange mental effects. Disassociation, not feeling like I was in my body, watching events unfold around me like I’m not really there. Years ago (20+ years ago) I was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis. Since going back to 1mg, my mania has been reduced somewhat, but I find myself suffering from possible delusions and I don’t know if its something that is really happening or if I’m having a psychotic break.
Is this something people have experienced while tapering? Can tapering cause a psychotic break? Or was I already messed up and tapering just compounded my problems and brought some stuff that was just under the surface back again?
Any thoughts on this would be appreciated and before anyone can ask… No, I can’t afford to go to a psychiatrist, I can’t afford therapy, and I’ve been drinking myself into a stupor to try to get out of my head on a regular basis.
I used to do drugs to get away from anxiety and bad thoughts, coming off Klonopin has brought a lot of these old (almost forgotten) demons back and I don’t know if this is normal or if I got some serious underlying problems.
Re: Titration, Patents, and Fantastical Claims
« Reply #11 on: November 02, 2019, 05:54:48 am »
The practice of granting secret, esoteric wisdom that is accessible only to the elect through loyalty to a charismatic but flawed figure who dispenses their occult knowledge through personal revelatory insight while shunning and then casting out members of the group who do not practice exact adherence to a set of seemingly arbitrary dictates while still accruing a devoted coterie of followers, may or may not be applicable to this person, but it sure seems like the attributes one would ascribe to a cult.
We need a method (or probably many methods) of healing that is public and reproducible. That is one of the goals of working together. Perhaps one day a Benzo-savior will appear before us, ready to bath our minds in the waters of true healing, and we will all be:
“remade in the way that trees are are new,
made new again, when their leaves are new,
pure and ready to ascend to the stars.”
But until then, I feel like there is a lot of real work to do.
Re: RIP.....Prof. Heather Ashton..
« Reply #25 on: September 30, 2019, 12:41:32 am »
It’s very odd. She died two weeks ago, and there’s not a word about it in the media, anywhere. No obituary that I could find, and no news stories. Not even CNN has reported it – even though CNN is about to broadcast a show about benzos on October 6. You would think at least CNN would note the passing of this woman, whose very name has become synonymous with the benzo issue. But they haven’t, at least not that I can find.