Ignoring the risk of suicide, Benzo Buddies ghouls spend five pages trying to convince someone not to check into a psych ward

Checking into psych ward
« on: October 24, 2020, 05:42:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Im going to check myself into the psych ward for the 6th time since this happen.

At this point i dont care anymore. Im going to have them load me up on whatever even if it is benzos.

I am experiencing something terrifying in my head for nearly 2 years and im done. Racing and looping thoughts 24/7. No words to describe this torture. Im sick of people telling me its just severe anxiety. Im sick of just surviving to the end of the day and then having to do it all again tomorrow.

If your coming off benzos please for the the love of God dont take another drug. Going on remeron was the worst thing i could have done because i listened to stupid people on this website who were probably just mentally ill.

Peace out.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #1 on: October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #2 on: October 24, 2020, 05:55:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm
Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Yrs i am aware but like i said i dont care anymore.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #3 on: October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #4 on: October 24, 2020, 06:18:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I had incredible stress last year. I was ready to go to a psychiatric hospital, anywhere, to stop it. Then, I could not sleep for 4 months and no one could understand what was wrong with me. We thought it was a strong anxiety. The biggest tragedy is that neither myself nor anyone else could understand that it was caused by benzodiazepines.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #5 on: October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm »

[Buddie]

I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.

It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #6 on: October 24, 2020, 06:23:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm
Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Im experiencing something way worse than just physical pain. The mental is way worse than anything you can imagine. Brain racing and looping 1000 miles an hour 24/7 for 2 years straight and counting. 100s of mental symtoms all at once. Ive reached my breaking point.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #7 on: October 24, 2020, 06:26:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm
I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.
It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

I follow everyone. They werent this bad 24/7. I cant even distract for a second. The people as bad as me are 4+ years off and still suffering. There is no point in putting yourself through something like this

Benzo Buddies lifer agonizes over whether or not to hop back on pill cocktail

Back again after 5 years off - worse than acute - could it be related??
« on: October 17, 2020, 04:23:19 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello! I’m hoping someone can PLEASE help or connect me with a member or moderator who might help!
I haven’t been on this site in years. I had horrendous and protracted withdrawals from Xanax, Klonopin, Gabapentin and Remeron. I was cold turkey’ed many times, out on, off, etc etc. I nearly lost my life. Anyway, I was finally off all of everything and slowly recovering. I was able to work part time – sleep between 5-8 hrs a night without a blood sugar crash (regularly) – I also have severe hypoglycemia and adrenal issues from all of this – and could exercise a decent amount. This was back in Feb. I still had issues but was perhaps 65% recovered. But then I started getting stomach issues that the doctors could not figure out. It was severe. I would go from pain, to acid, etc and my nervous system would kick in to try to numb the pain. Drs tried natural remedies bc I’m still super sensitive to meds but nothing helped. I started losing function and so much weight we had to try PPIs etc but they too did not work. I felt like I was back to being in acute withdrawal. My exact symptoms were back. One of my natural drs recognized it and said since my nervous system never fully recovered that is probably why this is happening. I have also been SEVERELY isolated, super stressed because I can’t work, have NO SUPPORT at all where I live – it is just me etc etc and afraid of everything going on in the world. Well, as the summer progressed, I kept getting worse. ALL of my doctors could not figure it out as my symptoms are MORE severe than they ever were in any withdrawal They all quit and said go to my home state of Ohio where I have some friends, old drs who got me through the last withdrawal etc. and it was cheaper to live. I was thinking about moving out of state but then that became too stressful too. I now cannot sleep at ALL! I try to relax and my heart BOOMS out of my chest. I get extreme adrenaline surges that set my whole body on fire – I feel like I am being dipped in acid and then I vomit. I have lost 30 lbs. I have kept trying to endure this on my own but the pain and burning the stomach, nerves, etc is so severe. I have had a seizure – I NEVER had that in acute. Othertimes, when I may get a few hours of sleep (usually every 3rd or 4th day) I wake DRENCHED in sweat, confused. My hypoglycemia at that point is so severe. It gets so low. My muscles are constantly twitching and shaking whenever I calm down but the second I calm down I realize the severe issues the cortisol for all these months has caused and the pain and agony is unbearable and my body can’t take it. I don’t really know how to endure this – at this point I am losing function to take care of myself on my own – I don’t have anyone to else or care for me here so drs are saying I must move for help. They will not prescribe benzos again but are suggesting if I get to Ohio that I should ask my old psych about it or go back on the regimen of K, Rem, and gaba. I don’t know if it will work. And I’m afraid after all I have been through. We have tried other anxiety meds like visterol CBD etc and it made me sooooo much more anxious. However, I cannot live like this – Has anyone EVER HEARD of anything LIKE THIS?????? What do people do??? Am I too far gone to ever heal? Even when I am calm in the day it comes out in my sleep with these horrible jerky surges. I do not want to go back on Benzos but I don’t know how else to deal with this. Would I kindle? Thanks for any of your replies!!!

PS Sorry this is so long!
« Last Edit: October 20, 2020, 06:07:22 pm by [Buddie] »

THIS TAPER FAILED

I reinstated my klonopin please help everyone scaring me!!
« on: September 20, 2020, 05:45:53 pm »

[Buddie]

I was tapering and I got from 2mg daily down to 1.25mg over the course of some
Months I was doing well… my mom passed and I just had back to back panic attacks and 5 trips to the ER, in a week! So I reinstated yesterday and I feel
Much better but I absolutely want to get off, I’m
Just wondering why do people fear monger? NOT in this forum but in others I’ve been told
If I try to wean again I will be in horrible condition, I will not be able to do it, I’m at a larger risk for seizures… is this really true please help!

Re: I reinstated my klonopin please help everyone scaring me!!
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2020, 07:51:46 pm »

[Buddie]

I can relate, don’t know what to tell you. I am freaking out 24/7 for almost nothing and everything at the same time. Everything is a trigger and race my anxiety and fear. But I notice that when I go for a walk and do my sport and yoga (I do it almost every day), my mind is busy and I am less triggered. But still… I can barely being around people. Some days are better than other, for exemple today I was incapable to see anyone but Friday I went to the restaurant with a friend, I was anxious but I managed. I try to push myself to get my brain use to a normal life style, don’t know if it help or not because usually if I do something and force too much, seems that I pay it for days after… I cannot help you with taper because I cold turkey 🙁

52 months out…

Will taking a med to help stop the tremors keep me from healing...
« on: June 30, 2020, 01:54:31 pm »

[Buddie]

I am 52 months out and take carbidopa/levadopoa to control the shaking/tremors so that I can go to work. Does anyone know if this will keep me from healing?

Addict starts downing kpins, with a vodka chaser, after taper fails

Confession -- Reinstatement -- I don't know what to do
« on: June 09, 2020, 09:06:09 pm »

[Buddie]

Three days ago, my akathisia, intrusive thoughts, irritability got so bad. It had been just over one month without klonopin. I wanted to celebrate, but the perceputal distortions, dp/dr, and other symptoms were bad too. I literally was afraid of losing control. I had these awful tics — was laying on the floor screaming “F— you” to any car going by. I had strong urges to yell at my wife, tear stuff off shelves, etc. Mind you, **this is not me.** I was never like this before withdrawal.

Long story short, I felt hopeless and desperate, because I can’t put myself at risk of being like this every day. I took some Kpin and dashed it down with vodka (maybe equivalent of 3 shots). I am not even a drinker — I don’t even like alcohol, so this is not a “pattern” mind you — I just needed reprieve from these tics and thoughts until I could figure out a new strategy, because this CT isn’t working. I had terrible panic and tightness all day long, plus ‘mental akathisia,’ unable to escape my own brain. I am afraid for my future. I cannot stay married like this and do this to my family. Well now that was 3 days ago, the withdrawals are going to kick in again. I really went and did it this time. I thought the worst of the acutes would peak by month one but clearly I was wrong. How to taper a med that’s paradoxical? Seems a V crossover is my only chance but my doc won’t do it.

THIS TAPER FAILED

17 months and 2 days F*** this
« on: May 26, 2020, 10:25:58 pm »

[Buddie]

I have a feeling that I never heal. I have stopped Valium for 17 months and 2 days now man this sh** makes me crazy constant ear pressure,
feeling that my throat is swelling,
very tired all day long also often has to lie down,
increased fears(anxiety),
tensed muscles and painful back and legs,
cannot build a rhythm day and night,
stomach pain and extreme bowel pain pressure on the bladder
tunnel vision

this nightmare doesn’t stop for me!