Goodbye and thank you.
« on: June 12, 2018, 06:29:13 pm »
I’m leaving benzobuddies. It is no longer helpful for me to see others recovering while my own health continues to decline. It’s also not helpful to see so many others who are not recovering. My heart breaks for us all. The longer all my body’s systems are in disrepair the more fatigued and disabled they become. I cannot explain all the ways this has completely devastated every aspect of my life. I hope someone comes up with a better term for benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome. Doctors hear the word “withdrawal” and can only think of the short period when the body struggles to overcome the physical dependence from a drug. It does not adequately describe the lasting brain injury that benzos inflict by disabling GABA receptors throughout the entire brain. I also hope you will consider trying to educate the medical community and the general public about the devastating effects of benzodiazepines. The only way to prevent this from happening to others is to raise enough awareness that doctors will drastically change the way these medications are prescribed or stop prescribing them altogether. I’m grateful to BB for being there for so many people who are suffering. Without BB I wouldn’t have learned what was happening to me. Doctors were certainly not going to help me understand. Love and healing to all of you.
5 years and 7 months off
« on: March 15, 2018, 11:38:37 pm »
I feel worse and worse.I go to AA meetings.I work little bit with children.I do my best .I go to the therapist.I got marriesd 2 years ago.I changed all my life.But thightness in my solar plexus , chest is bigger and bigger.I almost cant breathe.I used to run but now I cant run because I cant breathe and pain in chest is unbearable.At first I could go to football matches and yell , support my team -now I cant because I cant scream.
I havent been here long time because I didnt need your help.Iam in different piont of my life.But now I need you again.Maybe I dont deserve your help because I dont help you Buddies (only sometimes I write smth helpfull) but I would be gratefull for each good word.
Since I was ten I have obssesive compulsive disorder.Maybe I should take some pills.
« on: March 02, 2018, 06:29:43 pm »
Today is forty-five months since I jumped after a three-month taper.
It’s been a wild ride.
I still have bad days, like today, but the bad days always feel like they’re — sooner or later — followed by some of the better days. I always tell myself during a bad day that it just means a really great day is coming up, and so far I haven’t been disappointed.
Having a good attitude has been so important to me. It really makes this so much easier.
Having gratitude is also important.
I just have to remember where I’ve been and where I’m at feels like the best place in the whole world to be.
I take care of my today and tomorrow will take care of itself.
Wishing you all happiness, joy and freedom.
muscle twitching 14months out (or BFS?)
« on: February 12, 2018, 02:20:56 pm »
hey guys, so 14months out, I do definitely feel much better in general. life goes on, and I do work travel etc.
but my muscle twitches are still there, and I think they got worse around 12months out. there are some good days, and some worse days, and anxiety makes it worse. all I’m reading it does point to BFS (benign fasciculation syndrome)
there is a BFS forum….but many of those people take…..guess….benzos lol.
I am wondering if anybody here in the 1+ year mark still has lots of twitching?
2 years out
« on: February 06, 2018, 01:47:28 pm »
Hi, I’ve been off for a couple of years but lately, the past 2 or 3 weeks, I’m back where I was during my withdrawal, anxiety, pounding chest etc. Is it even possible that the aftereffects can last this long or is this just the way I am and I was covering it up with the meds? This is no fun.