Cult site Benzo Buddies is the home of untreated mental illness, this time it’s cibophobia (fear of food)

Food reactions
« on: June 16, 2020, 07:15:48 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi.
I am really sensitive to food and react to literally anything i eat. 20 minutes after eating a meal the DP/DR and high anxiety start to come up and can last for even a couple of hours. I got kind of used to this and never really tried to do anything about it as I have not been eating sugar/foods high in glutamic acid/anything processed/foods high in histamine etc. anyway and cutting out even more foods is just impossible at this point. Also, i am extremely extremely skinny so that’s also why i can’t limit the food im eating. So i have a question: Is it bad for my healing to just continue eating like i always did and react to it heavily? I wonder if it causes even more excitotoxicity and damage my brain even more than it already is…

Re: Food reactions
« Reply #1 on: June 16, 2020, 07:35:40 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi amkn
Sugar is really bad for anybody’s brain, even not in wd.
It ramps me up to panic attack level now.

I’m super skinny too. Had lost sooo much weight. I can eat no sugar, gluten, caffeine, msg, processed food. But I’ve been able to put back 20 pounds by adding coconut oil, avocado, olive oil to my smoothies. I eat a lot of protein- nuts, eggs, peanut butter on a spoon. I have meat or fish with a potato for dinner. I found decent gluten free bagels at Aldi’s and Trader Joe’s. I slather them with real butter. I’ve recently been able to add dairy back into my diet, slowly, so cheese and milk is helping pack on the pounds.

Re: Food reactions
« Reply #2 on: June 16, 2020, 07:51:25 pm »

[Buddie]

Good for you ligma that you can still eat nuts meat etc.

I’m on the same boat. Can’t eat anything contains glutamate on top of everything you listed so nuts meat etc have to go.

Amkn,
It depends on how bad the reaction is for you. If you feel like you can still handle then balance the 2 sounds good. For me, each tiny wrong food put me in a life threatening situation and long lasting setbacks so I have no option.

I’m 5’5 and weigh less than 90 pounds now. Lost about 15 pounds during and after tapering.

Untreated fear of food leaves addict with little to eat

Food sensitivity causes panic
« on: December 17, 2019, 02:04:48 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi I posted on here a couple weeks ago, it disappeared. My husband is extremely light and sound sensitive. He was slowly over this year had to eliminate his foods. Started on a clean gluten free diet that went south, then it was bone broth and apples, grapes, then rice with a little meat, then an all veggie diet, that worked for a bit then it was blueberry smoothies with vegan protein powder, then to just one certain thing that we could find at the time that would miracoulsy help. Raw cold carrots seemed to be the safety net in all this. If the burn and the panic got too bad he could always eat a handful and it would calm it. Anything he tries to eat that is different it could go horrible or really good. He’s had endoscopy and bacterial testings… normal except for esophageal erosion from all the acid. He has to sleep propped up takes dexilant and nexium. Every now and then pepto, gavisgon pepcid when it “goes bad”. He also says he can tell when the food isn’t going to work anymore because it will taste horrible. When he has something new and it works he says its taste awesome… also if he gets “backed up” or his crap comes out more solid he says it’s about to get bad like a panic attack. So he will keep taking Miramax and do enemas like crazy… please tell me somebody else has experienced any of this. And give me suggestions please. Thank you

I’m afraid to eat or drink anything… Happy Thanksgiving?

Afraid to eat or drink anything
« on: November 26, 2019, 09:59:20 pm »

[Buddie]

I feel so defeated anything and everything I try to eat I feel like I itch He says drag on and I. So slow. It feel like the twilight zone I don’t feel real. I’ve been living off chick fila and been on leave from work. Is it Crazy to think I can heal with all this sitting heavy on me

Untreated cibophobia plagues Benzo Buddies

Question about seasonings
« on: May 21, 2018, 12:49:31 am »

[Buddie]

Does anyone here cook with seasonings like basil, oregano, garlic, parsley etc?
I have been cooking with just salt and pepper for a while now bc of fear of herbs and spices making wd worse. But want to incorporate them back. Wondering if anyone knows if they make a difference in symptoms at all.
I think I’ve read that some people can’t tolerate garlic? But don’t remember.
Thank you.
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McDonald’s salad sends brainwashed Benzo Buddies kook into frenzy

I ate a McDonald's grilled salad and holy cow!!!
« on: March 27, 2018, 01:15:52 am »

[Buddie]

I’ve been feeling normal lately and ate a McDonald’s salad for lunch and it threw me into acute so since 130 pm I have been shaking with the flu times ten. It’s let up a little but I’m cock eyed. I am so sick of not getting to eat the things I love. I’ve eaten the salads before and this hasn’t happened but that’s been months ago. Crazy how we go through phases.

Public health emergency: Benzo Buddies members unable to eat normal food due to cult brainwashing, lives at risk

Hell breaks loose after first meal
« on: March 04, 2018, 04:02:43 pm »

[Buddie]

It doesn’t matter what I eat although I try to just stick to healthy fats and proteins. I don’t have any sugar, carbs or anything unnatural in the mornings. The minute after I take a bite of food in the morning is when my head pressure, dizziness and blurred vision come on. The hell usually lasts all day after my first bite of food but sometimes gets better towards the evening. The only break I get is for two or three hours in the mornings.

Anyone else?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #1 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Same here. Still happening 20 months out.

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #2 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

What symptoms do you get?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #3 on: March 05, 2018, 09:34:13 am »

[Buddie]

Exactly that made the psych diagnose me with “anxiety and panic disorder”.

Newsflash, it’s called DYSAUTONOMIA!

Thanks doc. for the misdiagnosis and putting me on this poison, and completely destroying my life.
I told every doctor about it, it didn’t matter matter what i ate, i felt sick, became extremely anxious and had to spend the whole day in bed.

NEVER blindly trust a doctor, do your own research too.

Benzo Buddies member agonizes over whether or not a cup of French onion soup will drive her insane

Am I screwed
« on: March 02, 2018, 02:32:25 am »

[Buddie]

I went out to dinner with my fiance tonight and had a cup of French onion soup. Well I got home and started feeling almost normal like. I actually feel good. Vision is clear and my head is not pounding I feel almost myself well I was reading some recipes online and in homemade onion soup they use alcohol in it? Im really wondering if I screwed myself over and there was alcohol still in the soup now I don’t know what to think and I’m hoping I didn’t blow my whole recovery I seriously can’t take much more of this bullshit. What do you guys think?

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #1 on: March 02, 2018, 03:08:45 am »

[Buddie]

Why not call the restaurant and ask the chef if they used alcohol in the recipe? They probably don’t, unless they say so on the menu, but it won’t hurt to ask.

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #2 on: March 02, 2018, 03:14:50 am »

[Buddie]

Just said French onion soup and a price I just don’t get why I was feeling normal

Ashton disciple has mental breakdown after overindulging in bread

Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« on: February 20, 2018, 12:22:09 am »

[Buddie]

I’ll admit, I may have overindulged on bread today, but I didn’t expect it to give me a mini breakdown complete with crying to my parents! Lorazepam really is the devil’s drug. Anyone else have this problem? Does it get better???

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #1 on: February 20, 2018, 02:23:53 am »

[Buddie]

I am so sorry. You are probably going to have to stock up on the tissue paper, because I didn’t know what sobbing, weeping and bawling were until I started coming off Lorazepam. Goodness gracious, I have cried more in my life in the last 3 years, than I have in all of my life before. Just, these heavy sobbing episodes. On a plus side, I didn’t get a single cold because crying can actually flush the cold viruses out nicely.

And then, somewhere along the way, you’re going to find an artist like Matthew Ryan and start listening to him and sob along, relating to almost every darn lyric in there.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #2 on: February 20, 2018, 03:10:46 am »

[Buddie]

You may be much better off than me because you spent a lot less time on lorazepam than I did, and the crying may also be a temporary symptom from stopping Trintellix. Also, we all have different life circumstances, so the crying episodes may be much more short-lived for you. It’s just that I was surprised by all the crying I went through.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #3 on: February 20, 2018, 03:19:49 am »

[Buddie]

You never fail to make me feel better, and I will forever be in your debt. I’m going to do my best to take some positives from all this. For instance, my crying today helped me get to the bottom of what could prove to be a key issue in my overall recovery. It’s funny, feeling as if everything around me is either negative or out to get me has really pushed me towards finding the positive in things, which I never really did before.

Related: http://www.newsweek.com/how-much-pasta-can-you-eat-you-die-506128

Benzo Buddies member stops eating, has first window

7 months today and have had my first all day window!!
« on: February 12, 2018, 01:28:00 am »

[Buddie]

7 months today with a great window all day! What a nice suprise for me. Felt good mentally however physically still not there yet or afraid to push it. In the last month have started with diet changes. Dropped dairy products, most all red meat, all nightshade fruits and veggies. It seems to be helping alot. I have been making a special crock pot chicken, cabbage, carrots, onions, green bean and peas dish for myself daily to clear skin problems and it’s working quite well. Ad salt pepper garlic and a couple of chicken bullion cubes and it’s pretty tasty as well. I’m looking forward to more of these good days, what a long strange trip it’s been!! I choose not to fill any of physic drugs thE doc wanted to try on me in the last 7 months and now I’m glad I don’t have them to taper.

15 years Xanax multiple fast tapers
30 day rehab 10 years ago unsusfull
Home tapers cutting pills
Liquid K taper
Two year slow taper finished July 11 17
7 month free from benzodiazepines today!!