Untreated cibophobia plagues Benzo Buddies

Question about seasonings
« on: May 21, 2018, 12:49:31 am »

[Buddie]

Does anyone here cook with seasonings like basil, oregano, garlic, parsley etc?
I have been cooking with just salt and pepper for a while now bc of fear of herbs and spices making wd worse. But want to incorporate them back. Wondering if anyone knows if they make a difference in symptoms at all.
I think I’ve read that some people can’t tolerate garlic? But don’t remember.
Thank you.
« Last Edit: May 21, 2018, 12:57:20 am by [Buddie] »

McDonald’s salad sends brainwashed Benzo Buddies kook into frenzy

I ate a McDonald's grilled salad and holy cow!!!
« on: March 27, 2018, 01:15:52 am »

[Buddie]

I’ve been feeling normal lately and ate a McDonald’s salad for lunch and it threw me into acute so since 130 pm I have been shaking with the flu times ten. It’s let up a little but I’m cock eyed. I am so sick of not getting to eat the things I love. I’ve eaten the salads before and this hasn’t happened but that’s been months ago. Crazy how we go through phases.

Public health emergency: Benzo Buddies members unable to eat normal food due to cult brainwashing, lives at risk

Hell breaks loose after first meal
« on: March 04, 2018, 04:02:43 pm »

[Buddie]

It doesn’t matter what I eat although I try to just stick to healthy fats and proteins. I don’t have any sugar, carbs or anything unnatural in the mornings. The minute after I take a bite of food in the morning is when my head pressure, dizziness and blurred vision come on. The hell usually lasts all day after my first bite of food but sometimes gets better towards the evening. The only break I get is for two or three hours in the mornings.

Anyone else?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #1 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Same here. Still happening 20 months out.

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #2 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »

[Buddie]

What symptoms do you get?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #3 on: March 05, 2018, 09:34:13 am »

[Buddie]

Exactly that made the psych diagnose me with “anxiety and panic disorder”.

Newsflash, it’s called DYSAUTONOMIA!

Thanks doc. for the misdiagnosis and putting me on this poison, and completely destroying my life.
I told every doctor about it, it didn’t matter matter what i ate, i felt sick, became extremely anxious and had to spend the whole day in bed.

NEVER blindly trust a doctor, do your own research too.

Benzo Buddies member agonizes over whether or not a cup of French onion soup will drive her insane

Am I screwed
« on: March 02, 2018, 02:32:25 am »

[Buddie]

I went out to dinner with my fiance tonight and had a cup of French onion soup. Well I got home and started feeling almost normal like. I actually feel good. Vision is clear and my head is not pounding I feel almost myself well I was reading some recipes online and in homemade onion soup they use alcohol in it? Im really wondering if I screwed myself over and there was alcohol still in the soup now I don’t know what to think and I’m hoping I didn’t blow my whole recovery I seriously can’t take much more of this bullshit. What do you guys think?

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #1 on: March 02, 2018, 03:08:45 am »

[Buddie]

Why not call the restaurant and ask the chef if they used alcohol in the recipe? They probably don’t, unless they say so on the menu, but it won’t hurt to ask.

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #2 on: March 02, 2018, 03:14:50 am »

[Buddie]

Just said French onion soup and a price I just don’t get why I was feeling normal

Ashton disciple has mental breakdown after overindulging in bread

Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« on: February 20, 2018, 12:22:09 am »

[Buddie]

I’ll admit, I may have overindulged on bread today, but I didn’t expect it to give me a mini breakdown complete with crying to my parents! Lorazepam really is the devil’s drug. Anyone else have this problem? Does it get better???

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #1 on: February 20, 2018, 02:23:53 am »

[Buddie]

I am so sorry. You are probably going to have to stock up on the tissue paper, because I didn’t know what sobbing, weeping and bawling were until I started coming off Lorazepam. Goodness gracious, I have cried more in my life in the last 3 years, than I have in all of my life before. Just, these heavy sobbing episodes. On a plus side, I didn’t get a single cold because crying can actually flush the cold viruses out nicely.

And then, somewhere along the way, you’re going to find an artist like Matthew Ryan and start listening to him and sob along, relating to almost every darn lyric in there.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #2 on: February 20, 2018, 03:10:46 am »

[Buddie]

You may be much better off than me because you spent a lot less time on lorazepam than I did, and the crying may also be a temporary symptom from stopping Trintellix. Also, we all have different life circumstances, so the crying episodes may be much more short-lived for you. It’s just that I was surprised by all the crying I went through.

Re: Can’t Even Eat Bread?!?!?!
« Reply #3 on: February 20, 2018, 03:19:49 am »

[Buddie]

You never fail to make me feel better, and I will forever be in your debt. I’m going to do my best to take some positives from all this. For instance, my crying today helped me get to the bottom of what could prove to be a key issue in my overall recovery. It’s funny, feeling as if everything around me is either negative or out to get me has really pushed me towards finding the positive in things, which I never really did before.

Related: http://www.newsweek.com/how-much-pasta-can-you-eat-you-die-506128

Benzo Buddies member stops eating, has first window

7 months today and have had my first all day window!!
« on: February 12, 2018, 01:28:00 am »

[Buddie]

7 months today with a great window all day! What a nice suprise for me. Felt good mentally however physically still not there yet or afraid to push it. In the last month have started with diet changes. Dropped dairy products, most all red meat, all nightshade fruits and veggies. It seems to be helping alot. I have been making a special crock pot chicken, cabbage, carrots, onions, green bean and peas dish for myself daily to clear skin problems and it’s working quite well. Ad salt pepper garlic and a couple of chicken bullion cubes and it’s pretty tasty as well. I’m looking forward to more of these good days, what a long strange trip it’s been!! I choose not to fill any of physic drugs thE doc wanted to try on me in the last 7 months and now I’m glad I don’t have them to taper.

15 years Xanax multiple fast tapers
30 day rehab 10 years ago unsusfull
Home tapers cutting pills
Liquid K taper
Two year slow taper finished July 11 17
7 month free from benzodiazepines today!!

Kooks add soy sauce, sushi, olives with (or without) garlic, MSG to list of forbidden foods

Soy Sauce????
« on: December 24, 2017, 04:45:50 pm »

[Buddie]

I was reading about “kindling”. It talked about the overproduction of glutamate. Soy sauce has glutamate. I ate sushi last night with tamari & this morning had a bad episode of symptoms (weak & shaky legs, distended stomach, blurry vision). Any correlation??

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #1 on: December 24, 2017, 05:29:33 pm »

[Buddie]

No clue I ate some green olives with garlic and immediately had issues be I don’t know why

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #2 on: December 24, 2017, 06:30:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Tons of MSG in both Sushi at a lot of places, and soy sauce, which also contributes to glutamate.

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #3 on: December 25, 2017, 04:30:53 am »

[Buddie]

MSG is a major trigger for many people during withdrawal, and soy sauce is really high in it. Yes, there is definitely a correlation between MSG and waves.

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #4 on: December 25, 2017, 06:26:14 am »

[Buddie]

Absolutely! Even now, almost 10 months off, if I were to consume soy sauce, it would get real ugly, real fast.

FEAR OF FRITOS

the frito failure
« on: November 23, 2017, 03:54:39 am »

[Buddie]

After being terrified of my favorite delicious snack for the last 9 months i decided it was time that i try to eat my fritos honey bbq twists once more. I was hoping that i would no longer be sensitive and was going to post a success story about how i ate the fritos with no ill effects.

i proceeded to become extremely drowsy fall asleep for 6 or so hours and have nightmares and woke up feeling all confused.

No success story for me :S

Re: the frito failure
« Reply #1 on: November 23, 2017, 04:02:21 am »

[Buddie]

So sorry to hear that.

Re: the frito failure
« Reply #2 on: November 24, 2017, 06:18:54 am »

[Buddie]

We don’t have those here in the UK but I looked them up and read the ingredients and they contain Monosodium Glutamate.

https://www.fritolay.com/snacks/product-page/fritos/fritos-flavor-twists-honey-bbq-flavored-corn-chips click the nutritional facts one.

MSG isn’t good for you even if you’re in good health, it’s a known to spike withdrawal symptoms too.

Avoid foods containing MSG, it’s also a common ingredient in Chinese food as well.

http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=67426.0

Re: the frito failure
« Reply #3 on: November 24, 2017, 07:34:27 pm »

[Buddie]

urgh sorry to hear about this, unreal how sensitive we are :(

the frito failure is catchy though….

i think ill call my experience the “coffee catastrophe”  …where a half cup of coffee kicked me into a massive wave, the effects of which im still feeling it seems like 2 months later

Ashton kooks flip out after eating venison, chipmunk

vension
« on: November 03, 2017, 12:55:46 am »

[Buddie]

I just ate some venison for supper and my symptoms flared right up what the fuck is going on i dont get it

Re: vension
« Reply #1 on: November 03, 2017, 04:15:20 pm »

[Buddie]

guess im the only one thanks for the help this website is unreal

Re: vension
« Reply #2 on: November 03, 2017, 05:27:28 pm »

[Buddie]

This should crack you up! I hunt chipmunk for the pelts. I was skinning them in the woods by the fire and had the idea if I ever had to survive out there I could eat chipmunks. So instead of just feeding the coyotes I cooked one on a stick. Very well done I might add and it was delicious just one test bite. For days I wasn’t feeling well and thought back to that incident when I went into a relapse. It’s so crazy how my mind keeps trying to find a definitive reason for feeling so bad over and over again. I’m fine now and you will be too. It’s just the physical and mental nature of the benzo beast! Take care and keep fighting. By the way always cook wild shit well done.

FEAR OF BACON

Bacon
« on: September 14, 2017, 01:08:16 pm »

[Buddie]

Anyone have any trouble with bacon when in pretty accute state? I really need to eat a piece of bacon… Please, any opinions good or bad.

Re: Bacon
« Reply #3 on: September 14, 2017, 05:19:45 pm »

[Buddie]

I understand your query. True – I don’t have any problems now, but i’m 3.7 years out. When I was in acute, milk products kind of gave me loose stool (not quite diarrhea). I had a fair bit of reflux and a little bloating. It wasn’t terrible, but I did have some minor GI issues/food sensitivities. I could pretty easily treat those ‘issues’ (e.g. with OTC antacids) or I could just ignore them (e.g. loose stool). I only dropped one ‘food’ (an artificial sweetener that seemed to give me hot flashes followed by night sweats). But it’s true – GI issues weren’t as big a withdrawal symptom for me compared with some of the other symptoms (insomnia had to be my most debilitating symptom). Perhaps others will chime in about bacon.

Re: Bacon
« Reply #23 on: September 17, 2017, 04:41:39 pm »

[Buddie]

There is uncured and no nitrate bacon.
« Last Edit: September 18, 2017, 12:50:24 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Bacon
« Reply #29 on: September 18, 2017, 06:07:37 am »

[Buddie]

Guys slightly off topic, but I added coconut oil to my diet yesterday (and i am going to create a new thread for this). Now it did not seem to rev me up, that is I did not 30 mins later suddenly start panicking, or tiwtching or anything like that BUT it kind of made me extremely mellow… EXTREMELY, as if I just hit a fat green weed flavoured pegasus bong. Following this I have never felt so chilled, not in 5 weeks, sleepy and chilled and well calm… NOW im no scientist and I should probably be thankfull but im worried AF now. How cna that be. Does coconut oil mess with your GABA receptors? I think its good to have fats like coconut oil in your brain right for nerve healing, but whats up with that effect? Would you all be worried? IS coconut oil one of those foods that we should be avoiding like certain herbs that people avoid which interact with GABA? Any feelings on this? then we can go back to the bacon.

Re: Bacon
« Reply #35 on: September 18, 2017, 11:54:25 am »

[Buddie]

new girl do you weigh 42 kg’s? eish…. I may have some other issues rolled in though. doctors are sending me for MS screening. I am fine most days then out of the blue I get hit with these head symptoms, I become instantly dumb, feels like there is a block in the left side of my face, struggle to think and concentrate, get deeply detached and hazy. Very scary. I am hoping that is not he case. I was free of this best for 10 months, and then I took like 55 times the amount of vitmain b complex that a normal human should take per day for 3 days and suddenly anxiety started, then physical symptoms and now full on cognitive symptoms. So my problems are pretty huge right now. I dont know if this think is a benzo relapse, some kind of permanent damage from the high number of multivitamins I took (which in hindsight I have learned can actually do nerve damage) or some sort of MS attack. Very scary. I am HOPING like hell it is a just a benzo fall back and not MS or the multiple types of complications that vitamin hypertoxicity can cause. Its pretty scary. I’m pretty chilled by its a scary place. the fact that symptoms come and go tell me its very possibly a benzo wave. But it has lasted 5 weeks now with very little improvement if any. At least on the mental side. I think that I have just generally damaged my nervous system at this point, who knows.

Re: Bacon
« Reply #36 on: September 18, 2017, 12:40:43 pm »

[Buddie]

Oh, […], I’m so sorry to hear you have these terrible symptoms, must be really tough! 

It’s good that you are seeing some doctors about this, even if they don’t find anything, it’s better to be reassured. I don’t have much experience with PAWS, as I am still tapering, so I don’t have much advice here, maybe you could also post in the Post-withdrawal support thread about this?

Just out of curiosity, if you don’t mind sharing, what did you take the vitamin b complex for? And how did you manage to obtain such a high dose?

Big hugs and all my strengths to you!!! I hope you’ll get soon over this!

Re: Bacon
« Reply #37 on: September 18, 2017, 12:58:29 pm »

[Buddie]

NewGirl,

I’m a complete idiot. it was a collection of vitamins that I had built up over probably the space of a year and a half. I got a mild headache and thought hey maybe I will just give myself a vitamin BOOST and that will clear it up. it was 6 different bottles. 3 were B-complexes, one was a Maxi-B, one was an iron and folate (which also had B vits), and the other 2 were multivitamins. All had B-complexes all of them basically. I had been healed for o long that withdrawal was no longer a part of my life, I was healed 100 percent. I never even thought ” hey this could trigger me” thats how war out and healed I was. I took all 6 pills each day for a few days, I might have even doubled up on one day. Im so embarrassed even typing this actually, its like i potentially threw my life away. the damage seems permanent and I seem VERY sensitive to foods, I think high vitamin b-6 foods. So i eat no meat. I am eating enough in my opinion to maintain my weight but alas it still drops at least 250 grams a day… SO in short, my issues may not even be benzo related, I may have simply poisoned my nervous system (potentially fatally), especially if I cant eat meat. Im basically holding on, hoping my weight doesnt drop to levels where they have to hospitalize as this would lead to medicating by doctors who dont understand benzo withdrawal let alone vitmain hypertoxicity. so I want to avoid that. You see, im not sure if this is maybe a benzo setback, GOD i hope it is NewGirl. then I know i have hope. If it is poisoning then I dont think I see the year out. Which I have made peace with actually. Its just my kids that worry me… My heart is breaking for my kids, one is 4 and the other is 4 months. All I can do is hold on. its so complicated, what if i get diagnosed with MS but it isnt MS and they treat me and it aggravates my potential benzo withdrawal further. What if it really is MS and they medicate me with steroids or something that I would obviously need but that is not compatible with my benzo history? Do I then live my whole life in withdrawal due to the medication that I need to live continuously triggering withdrawal? Its a complete mess. OR it is vitamin hyper toxicity and the doctors hospitalize me and pump me FULL of nutrients to help me pick up weight, including more B-vits thus doing more damage. SO Ja, I went from being in the absolute best position ever, healed from benzo withdrawal after just a month and a half (maybe 2 months) to basically the worst position that a mortal person could be in. I basically check mated myself. Apologies for the long respond and for killing the fun nature of the post.

And dont worry, surprisingly my mind is in the right place regardless of all of this, I am getting used to it. the thing that makes me worry that its not withdrawal but more just some kind of permanent toxicity damage to the nervous system is that it has reached a point where it just isnt improving at all. Im hoping something just happens and it begins to lift or fade with time, like the nerve damage can magically heal over time. But in the mean time im not sure what to eat and what to avoid so as to fascilitate this repair. Real tough. I live with a lot of powerful anxiety which is not in the mind but in the nervous system, if you have withdrawn from benzos then you know what that feels like, I have detachment, fear, pain in limbs, tired limbs. So unbelievable, and I was a new man, healed, new house, new kid, beautiful wife. All pretty much on its way out. Tough one.

Apologies again