BENZO FREE AND LOVING IT? NOT EXACTLY.

Healed after 12 years!
« on: April 13, 2017, 05:51:33 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m coming up on 12 years benzo free. On may 5, 2005 I was cold turkeyed in the hospital. It was the most horrific and unforeseen event in my life and it has changed me as a human being forever. Slowly, very slowly over 1-5 benzo free years my symptoms waxed and waned until at 5 years benzo free my life was about 80% of what I was pre-benzo. Life was good but not great for a few months. The unrelenting horror, mental anguish and general displeasure for life had abated but the physical symptoms were still alive and well… just milder and I expected them to all abate as well as time marched on.

At almost 6 years benzo free the flood gates reopened again and I was cast back into what I would call acute benzo withdrawal! It was just as bad as the beginning if not worse… as a matter of fact a lot worse! All the progress I made was suddenly gone and I was left a 40 year old man with a wife and two kids, a beautiful home crying on the floor with no hope for a future. It nearly broke me as a human being and I was ready to give up.

Luckily I had tremendous support from the person I had been with my whole life…My loving wife. She knew me since high school and knew that this was not the man she married. Luckily she believed in me because I didn’t and at 6 years I didn’t think recovery was possible. I thought I had permanent brain damage from the ativan and I would never recover.

My wife got busy and contacted many people on my behalf.  Una Corbett, Barry Haslam, Baylissa Frederick (Bliss), and even to professor Ashton herself! They ‘ALL’ said to my amazement ‘HE WILL RECOVER’ and ‘THIS SOMETIMES HAPPENS’. She even made an account here to talk to people on my behalf (I was too unwell to post then). I’m Mr. B by the way!

The symptoms were very hard up until 11 years benzo free and right now at almost 12 years benzo free my life is brilliant!!!  I can see the light again and feel love, joy, and happiness. I’m 47 years old and have a new lease on life and you will too. Please people believe in recovery…BELIEVE!!!

It happens for ‘EVERYBODY’ given time and staying off  benzos and ‘ALL’ chemical crap!

Mr. B

PEARLS OF WISDOM FROM REINSTATED JANA

Jana

Creating a condition that is stable as possible is the first pre-taper work. Here is how to do it:

  1. Take a consistent dose that you find best covers the withdrawal symptoms.
  2. Make or buy a liquid delivery form of your benzo.
  3. Divide that daily dose into from two to four EVEN doses. The liquid makes dividing easy.
  4. Take the divided doses at even intervals through the 24 hour period. That may be every twelve, eight, or four hours. Do not set am alarm to wake up for a dose. Take it as soon as you do awake and then take the rest of the doses on schedule.

That’s the “secret” to feeling better quickly and being in a good place for your real taper. Everyone needs to know this. Pass it on.

Just this simple pre-taper will surprise you and make you realize that you really can have control over this illness.

Happy Tapering,
Jana


Benzo-free since 3/23/06
Reinstated 6/27/16

Sounds like fun

Re: Has anyone had the opportunity to meet someone else who went through this ?
« Reply #1 on: March 28, 2016, 11:24:39 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve made a number of friends from BB and talked to some on the phone, but have not yet met anyone in person. On my blog I sent an open invitation to my 60th birthday party in October (and hopefully a benzo free celebration too). I am hoping some BB members can make it and we can meet up in person that way.

With love,

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