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none of us were warned

the FDA protects Big Pharma
If you can sue the doctor you should.

Fuck. Xanax.

I mean if the Rolling Stones could write a song about it … it was common knowledge. Right?
fuck yeah

Fuck. Xanax.
Fuck. Xanax.
Fuck. Xanax.

My husband is already a fan of this site.

sue the shit out of those pricks

Anderson had a rather sheepish expression on his face when Pinsky confronted him gently about his use of Ambien.

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“If you have assaulted a police officer, good for you, and if you have assaulted a MH worker involved in psychiatric torture, I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my (now psych-drug damaged and erratically beating) heart.” – End Psychiatry leader Danny Carter

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“Me obsessed? I did not choose the name ‘Texwatson ‘ for myself . and anyone knows that the name is what it is , the name of the Manson family thug psychokiller. So if yu are “innocent” and never heard of that ‘Texwatson’, does that mean , that coincidentally, yu just happen to really be named ‘Texwatson’? now that could be the case i guess . after all, I also fearlessly use my real name. ‘Flick Rahke’, although ‘Flick’ is a childhood nickname derived from ‘Fletcher’ So your real name really is ‘Texwatson’? is that the secret? Flick”

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Pot smokers susceptible to other addictions

Pot smokers may be at significantly greater risk for developing an addiction to other drugs or alcohol, a new study suggests.

Researchers found that adult marijuana use was associated with greater likelihood of developing alcohol and drug use problems, including nicotine dependence, over three years of follow-up. But it was not associated with greater risk of developing a mood or anxiety disorder.

“This new finding raises the possibility that the recent rise in marijuana use may be contributing to the coincident rise in serious harms related to narcotics and other drugs of abuse,” said lead researcher Dr. Mark Olfson. He is a professor of psychiatry at Columbia University Medical Center in New York City.

The results stem from a sampling of nearly 35,000 adults interviewed three years apart for the U.S. National Epidemiologic Survey on Alcohol and Related Conditions. Almost 1,300 of the adults used marijuana, the researchers found.

Two-thirds of marijuana users had some form of substance use disorder three years later compared to less than 20 percent of those who didn’t use marijuana in the previous year, the study found.

“Those who used marijuana once or more a month had the highest rates of substance use disorders at follow-up (70.5 percent),” Olfson said.

Olfson cautioned that this study cannot prove that marijuana caused these addiction problems. But the possibility should be considered as more states consider marijuana legalization, he said.

“In the ongoing national debate concerning whether to legalize recreational marijuana, the public and legislators should take into consideration the potential for marijuana use to increase the risk of developing alcohol abuse and other serious drug problems,” Olfson said.

Specifically, at the three-year follow-up, marijuana users were about six times more likely to have any substance use disorder; nearly three times as likely to have an alcohol disorder; and about 10 times as likely to report any marijuana use disorder. Marijuana users were also nearly twice as likely to report nicotine dependence, the findings showed.

“Compared with people who were not using marijuana, those who were using marijuana were more than 10 times as likely to have developed [any other] new drug use disorder three years later [13.9 percent versus 1.1 percent],” Olfson said.

DIRT

I did have a ballerina girlfriend at one point and also a bit later , a Roumanian girl who was a big time violinist in the symphony there in New York, I tried it a couple of times with a guy, that is my experience with it, although one roomate was always going at it with guys in our apartment, I got to hear a lot, ha ha Flick frak

No ,not gay, I decided to try it very briefly as an adult and did try it exactly twice, I did not get turned on and it was somewhat a fiasco, I am not sure what being attracted to women in their twenties and thirties has to do with gayness, or being single and not married,. Many older married men come out after years of marriage. I am not obsessed with it all like you, because i am not Catholically repressed. I do not consider women in their thirties and twenties to be “very very young women” i would consider women in their teens to be very very young, so why not go for it? just be your real self and come on out, Flik frack

Don’t pay too much attention to “texwatson” he is just an imaginary character dreamed up in the twisted mind of “Mike 59” who was foolish enough to pick the name of a sick and twisted Manson family psycho killer for the username here{due to Mike’s overly crazy fascination with the manson family} Flick

Mark 49 is the dumbest version of the Mike 59 troll. texwatson, with the obvious obsession with the Manson familiy killers is the most kinky and bizarre, which makes sense, since this character is pretty dumb but also kind of kinky and bizarre. “James” is the closest to the original, because “he” is the most obnoxious, toxic, and just nasty. “C” is rather bizarre because of the sudden change, but that was kind of an interesting effect. making him this whacked out pothead that he was attacking and then having “C” become his bosom buddy over nite and becoming “clean” ha ha. I wish these posts I put to remain, so when this all comes to the light of day, which is soon will, that people will remember what I wrote here and see how incredibly dumb they have been , buying this sick load of bull from the troll. pathetic reallly. Flick

Thank you , Julie for your common sense attitude that you posted here. a breath of fresh air in the midst of some rather narrow minded and hypocritical hysteria. sometimes these threads are like reading something from the movie “Reefer Madness” film that is now considered a comedy , but, as a propaganda film was taken seriously way back in the thirties. I don’t see any harm in coffee, but is is a stimulant, so many who are anxious{which is most who took benzos} or have trouble sleeping might want to be cautious about drinking it. depends on the individual. I can’t drink coffee myself, but i can use herbs with no problem . Heck marijuana does not impact me like coffee does . but I was never able to drink coffee after college. I think I had an overdose of espresso in an Italian place in Little Italy in New York when i lived there. ha ha that was the end of coffee for me. got wired over the top on three cups of espresso Flick

Yes, Mike 59, other wise know as scotty, holds the honor of being the biggest and nastiest troll here. been at it for quite a while. he was “laying in wait” for quite a while and then emerged from his cocoon to harrass as many as possible. gets a “thrill” out of it. Flick

Mikey 59 is off his five day ban now , and will be very activated here again in the form of his “sock puppets{imaginary and fake personnas}, “James”, “Mark 49”, “Texwatson{with the chosen user name of the Manson family psycho killer since MIke 59 is obsessed with Manson},“C”.

I love wednesdays. someday the w/d will be totally over too, not yet though ha ha

Yes, “abusive” to the troll who has hijacked this forum. he should be abused until he is outed by the light of day. This is not at all about “difference of opinion” or “freedom of speech”. this is about a troll deceiving and torturing people by using different sock personalities. this is not paranoia. the troll is the psycho one here. not me . If i had not been persistent about this here{and it truly is a pain in the butt} then this would just go on forever here, and it is not creating a healing forum to let this sick charade go on forever.

I will be glad to get back to more blogging . I will be glad to help some newer people{like I still do when they pm me} when this gets over, which I feel will be quite soon. Flick

no I am not wrong about any of it. and the proof of it will be shown.

Yes, Allison Kellagher used to describe the intense fear and anxiety that comes from benzos and w/d as “organic fear”. It is induced by the brain chemistry that was disrupted by the drugs, and not a lot to do about it except ride it out while the brain is healing, when it is very acute anyway. Flick

Looks like the troll put his “James” version down for the nite. haha or perhaps “james” went for his 7 hour bike ride. I hope you are following this , Andrew, so that I can tell you “I told you so” when this really comes to the light of day. this is shameful that this is being allowed here. Flick

Yep. “Mikey” or “C” has been obsessed with this doll thing for quite a while , obsessed with “dolls” obsessed with rats, this troll is a strange person to say the least. He gets very mixed up trying to play at being so many other people. mental suffering is pretty painful sometimes. obsessions really suck Flick oh he is obsessed with Charles Manson too. ha ha

Sorry , I will let the troll just talk to himself here all nite long . what a boring person. sits on his thumb and talks to himself all nite. wow

Mikey talking to himself again. who cares about a pic of Lyndon Larouche? no one knows who he is or what he looks like anyhow. hardly anyone on the planet has ever even heard of the kook . another “legend in his own mind” much like his brainwashed lil puppet.

“troll on board” the Mikey troll with his pet personna , “C” getting more clownish everyday buffoon clownish Flick

Yu can post your garbage “art” of reworked pics of me all over . who cares? I don’t . About as many people have heard of me as Lyndon Larouche

Hey Julie, thanks , when I was a teen in high school, there were always bonfire parties in the fall after the football games{ I was on the football team, if you can imagine that} these bonfire parties were all about getting drunk. everyone was getting loaded on whisky and beer. too bad really. I did it myself and am lucky to be alive with all of us teens driving drunk back then. some of us did get killed then , teens are still getting killed today drunk driving . bad stuff.

I go to dances and dance ecstatically with hundreds of people all at once. sometimes I do some pot vapor before. like tonite. not had much of late though. but still dancing . went to a hotshot Chinese medicine clinic today in San Fran. had a two hour consult and she gave me harbs to take for my chronic sinus stuff. I have a good feeling about it, but I will have to see how it goes. gave me instructions on “moxibustion” which is great. you have this stick of mugwort that you light up and it burns very slowly and puts out intense concentrated heat . you put it above your skin above various acupuncture points. it is like doing self acupuncture and the burning mugwort smells fabulous. very very relaxing. she also taught me some self massage on my head around my sinuses. they gave me some custom herbs too , next week they will start giving me a kind of sinus acupuncture. had a busy day.

I see that the troll caused such a stir that a thread I started on natural approaches to depression got axed due to too much fighting. well that would be the definition of a troll, to disrupt and create havoc, bad feelings , and chaos. we have a resident one here who also plays other characters he dreams up in his mind.

People seem to have sympathy for his “James” version, since it got banned , perhaps for good for all I know . I think I might post some emails “James ” sent me . I will post them here on my blog I think very nasty stuff and it tells how it works the forum with sock accounts , very nice

off to harbin tomorrow nite for dancing, hiking, soaking, swimmiing , and good food. I hope to get more health back over time ., but I am learning to be happy , whether that happens or not Flick

You might notice that the troll gets especially active late at nite with his sock puppets, because Andrew has retired for the nite, so no chance of getting banned for his shenanigans and trolling activities. and of course, Mike 59 rarely sleeps himself. he is on here day and nite. must be tiring, but , all that coffee keeps you going {and manic ha ha} Flick

the troll likes to talk to himself all nite long too much coffee, I guess , plus a large dose of schizophrenia, and paranoid delusions of grandeur. must be lonely though trapped in that bad mental cage. sitting on computers day and nite talking mostly to yourself what a silly image, but true enough sad but true, suffering comes in strange forms
Flick

Glad to see the troll activity is pretty minimal today here. made it to the market , which had some kind of harley biker convention in town an awful racket and the farmers were very upset by the loud adolescent noise of the weekend wanna be Hells Angels there. very loud and obnoxious. whatever , just one day. got lots of good veggies, fruits and greens . worked and will now attempt to get over to Bolinas for a surf , although the sun is going down earlier and earlier. don’t know how much I can get in before sunset. am not feeling that great either. but I like to push it. Flick

Hey julie thanks don’t know who the other woman was who posted but seemed nice enough well I guess ai was a bit wrong about the trolling activity. the troll gets pretty bored by nitetime and has been acting out on the cooking thread and of course drawing his fake socks out in support. same with Befuddled joke thread, flooding it with jokes for an 8 year old kid. very infantile and obvious. no one cares anyhow .

I will let the troll self destruct and get another one of his socks banned{like the “James” sock was banned again recently} The tactics are so much out of the “playbook ” of Lyndon Laroche, it is silly. I may have to post some of the yahoo emails that Mikey sent me under the guise of his sock puppet “James” remember that “James ” is not a real person. oh well, I will get some dinner. tired out. Flick

Hey Brent you are right about that. still, I am disappointed in you shmoozing up with one of the worst troll enablers here. not so good. but good luck. Flick

Yes, the whole thread has become very “MIkey” “bash and crash” “MIkey ” and his really really crass “creations” have fun talking to yourself ha ha I’m off to dinner. real food. Flick

Hey Matt , that sounds great to have some time for yourself in Thailand after what yu have been through it is a very healing and relaxing kind of place. I know that the Thai hospitals are excellent and much much cheaper than American. I know people who go to thailand for medical and dental care, because it is inexpensive and great quality. I have been to the islands on the other side, but not to Phukett town or Pi Pi. I hear Phukett is pretty busy and wild and Pi Pi is quiet and luxurious. Yes , I like Asian and southeast Asian women. I don’t know if it is because I just turned sixty, but I just don’t feel lonely at all anymore. I could have a wife or not, and it would make no difference to me one way or the other. I guess I am a committed bachelor, although I will probably go to thailand again and could easily “hook up”

My friend , Evan , who is an artist and also designs clothes that he has made mostly in thailand to sell out of his large pavilion each season at Harbin springs, will go live on one of the islands there this winter. his girlfriend lives there , she is Thai. He invited me , but I don’t have the time or money until maybe a year from now. Ashley, the young woman who works for him , is going there with her mom and sister and will hang with Evan there for several weeks. that sounds great,

Well I get to go to Kaui for a couple of weeks in either Dec or Jan, so I am satisfied with that.

They have these full on modern hospitals in Malaysia that specialize in treating with ozone . They have a new technology that delivers the ozone throughout the blood system safely and are having good results with a lot of diseases, including hepatitis. It cost on twelve thousand for a month stay with all treatments and herbs or whatever included. I would go to one of those places for a month if I had the money and time probably would get rid of my sinusitis and maybe even the hep c.

I had a pretty good day. the dance was really poppin, with good strong music and lots of people . I got a serious sweat on, felt very ecstatic and did a lot of yoga too. I got my 20 min super massage and went for a good lunch , did some shopping , and dropped a little medical weed off to a friend who has been having trouble sleeping, now that is a service if I ever saw one ha ha.

I got back to Marin Co. pretty late and made it to Whole Foods for some kombucha on tap. got some more groceries there and made it on home to here , now it is late 11 p.m. and I just finished my dinner, which I posted on the cooking thread. the day started out not so good , but evolved into something pretty awesome . that is how I intended it to be, I could have just moped at home over my problems and illnesses but i just kicked my butt in gear instead. that is my “secret” and was also my secret of tapering off benzos. now , I emphasize the word , “tapering”, because I also had the cold turkey experience first way back when , and that devastated me so much, that I could barely walk and it took months before I could hike or dance or anything else So a taper was certaintly much easier for me Flick

Jim, you did not get the whole pic yet. not many trolls , but one person troll with several hidden sock accounts creating false personnas to support his agenda.

one thing i decided on is that I will heretofore not address{“speak to”} the troll{Mike 59, Scott G} , any or his fake personnas{sock accounts such as “C”, “James”{if he ever comes off ban}, “mark 49”, “texwatson”, or any of the female troll enablers{the troll’s clueless “gang”] directly. not worth my precious time and energy to do so. I may comment on the trolling when I see it{which is pretty often} and I might post some relevant info on the troll and troll activiities, but that is about it. probably the info and comments I post will be here on my own blog. Flick

Hey Carl and Jim. I can’t think of any jokes and I don’t want to just copy and paste one, but just remember that “C” is not even a real living person He is just an image cooked up by the troll. that is what is called a “sock puppet”. so when you are addressing the “C” character, you are really addressing the troll . that is the reality. Flick

Mikey the troll is liking this thread, he uses two of his socks and maybe another on it. that shows an “interest” , a subject fond to his and Larouche’s hearts. anything “natural” is bad and evil. very Larouche. Flick

Hey Carl , I see the troll dug up your blog to hound you. I forgot you even had one. but the troll loves to dig through people’s blogs and bring old stuff up, even if it is years old. he has lots of time on his hands for his little “playground ” here. you don’t have to shut it down, just shut him down by keeping him off. the troll stays off my blog . Flick

I think I will take a break today at least. need to focus on my own healing and it is not the same for me to post on this forum on my own blog like it used to be. i used to post all my own fears, benzo w/d sx, my process in dealing with it, all personal and intimate things . for years, I got support for that here on this forum. things have changed radically since the Mikey troll took over and added all his fake sock accounts to back his dark garbage up. now he digs through my blog from over the years here, finds things that no one else would bother even looking for, twists them around, lies about it all and posts it all over the place.

so I mostly stopped posting here about my own physical and mental process of difficulties and also healings. I just get attacked for it anyhow. nice support forum it has become.

I even get stalked off the forum in the form of my yahoo email account and on Facebook by mikey the troll.

I think later on, I will post some of the toxic emails he sent me in the form of his “James” sock account. they are very relevatory as to how he works on this forum with lies and deception. Flick

This is pretty choice. “wake up and smell the coffee” coming from a complete caffeine addict in the form of excess coffee. If one want to call something a “drug” then caffeine would fit that much closer. it is physically addictive with a real w/d syndrome, it has side effects of anxiety, mania, insomnia, and digestive dysfunction, great for those in benzo w/d. The hypocrisy is rather obvious.

then the “road paved to drug hell ” ha ha. i really don’t think some niacinamide or peppermint tea {one of them “dangerous drug herbs”} is going to lead one down the road to “drug hell” hilarious . sounds like the propaganda movie “Reefer Madness” that people today look upon as a rather dated and old fashioned comedy. not reality. not at all Flick

So for MTV cartoon lovers, the question remains. Based on the “jokes” and “art” posted here , would one say that Mike’s created character , “C” , is based more on “Beavis” or “Butthead”. now this is a subtle distinction, since those cartoon characters are very similar to each other. Flick

I see the troll, Mikey is doing his wonderful “art” again. this guy is pathetic. Larouche really messed up his mind. Flick

Funny thing, that the “C” character has always been into organic psychelelics as a means of consciousness expansion. of course, that is before he “came out” as who he really is, that is the troll , “Mikey 59”. pretty funny stuff. Flick

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Piss off nasty,angry, troll nut job. close all your silly, disruptive threads down, most were simply started to get into arguments. and you got your way and your thrills. very Mikey. flick

Remember that you are the one that posted the extensive article on the netopath referring to Mike 59. In fact you approached me via pm and asked why the obvious netopath here “mike 59” had not been banned already . now who here is psycho? not me. there are reasons I think that the troll has multiple accounts and personalities. I am finding out that that is often internet troll behavior, because they can get away with it. this is not paranoia but simple observation, and I don’t know how many I am right on, but certainly some . Flick

Yes, C, you are the one who brought out the netopath article, then you underwent a mysterious change. Also , I note that while you are talking , Mike 59 has been silent for a while. Not like him to remain silent very long. He seem to be getting his talking done through you, who i still suspect may be merely a sock puppet account of Mike59. Mike 59 is computer savvy, and is too interested in dominating this forum to not make use of sveral account, I think. You are one of several accounts that I suspect are really Mike59 and or his wife/partner. JIM

Well, still gradually but definitely recovering and got down to pt. reyes to the grocery to get fabric softener and some cinnamon raisin to make French toast with my fat organic eggs. got some veggies and fruits too. looked at the gym there, it is very small but looks like it has all the machines that I would use to buff up my upper body{need nothing for my legs with all the running and dancing I do} . it has aerobic machines to warm up with . very close to me and I would actually get to use it a few times a week, yippee. I like

I think eggs are going to to heavy for me. I forgot about that part. probably won’t stay with them. but they taste pretty good.

Aha another creepo posting on my blog I already told not to post here. the only user name I have ever mentioned on this place is the “texwatson” one , the name of a manson cult psycho killer, very bizarre user name that reflects the mind of the chooser. Sedv is a sock puppet that needs to stay off my blog too. stay off creepo. Flick don’t clog my blog anymore with any of your garbaage posts. you will get that sock banned too if you do.

I always need to remember the daily joys I find in life, in spite of various kinds of mental and physical sufferings that tend to also arise daily. things like benzo w/d and other chronic illness and pains and discomforts. things all being are subject to.

I also am very well aware of the fact that finding any kind of joy or comfort in times of acute benzo w/d and illness can be pretty much impossible. then it is a matter of holding on and “riding the tail of the tiger” often just blogging and venting and getting support from others is all one can do. I certainly have been through those times, sometimes for many months on end. it is a kind of hell or, really a “purgatory”, because that hell does get better and end. but it certainly feels unbearable and unending in the midst of it. of course, that is the worst that benzo w/d throws at you and , often, during a slower taper, many people do not experience that kind of hellish intensity.

So many in taper and benzo w/d actually can find joy in their daily life if they open to it and intend it. proactive is the way as much as you can. even after my c/t and 10 months of pure hell w/d, I would go outside and force myself to walk on my street in the neighborhood and just seeing some nice homes and knowing that there were people enjoying life in them gave me some solace. I would have moments of enjoying nature , just moments , but still there. it got easier and better over time, and I got more and more exercise and strenght too. walking outside is good.

Anyhow, yesterday , I had many moments of joy. I got stuck in heavy traffic on the way to San Fran and it was very irritating and stressful. but I got to the Clinic and got to lay back on the table and they gave me a hot pack for my chest, which felt great. and then the acupuncture needles , which were very relaxing. the a wonderful young woman came in and gave me a moxabustion treatment and head and sinus massage. very joy and comfort producing.

Driving over the Bay Bridge to Berkeley, you get a wonderful view of the docks in Oakland and the houses all through the berkeley hills. lots of sparkling lights on the docks and the hills. very beautiful to perceive and I felt very grateful to be able to see such beauty , God’s “artwork”

going the other way into the city, you are literally still at the level of some high buildings as you come into San fran on the bridge. it is magnificent. you are coming in over the water and it looks like you are descending to land as if in a commercial airliner. always gives me a thrill.

then I was walking in downtown S.F. just after my appointment and it was nice out, very beautiful city and that made me feel appreciative too.

I got to the macrobiotic restaurant in Oakland and had a wonderful and peaceful dinner, there were lots of people in there. older people , younger people, black folks, Asians, much diversity. made me joyous to be around such diversity of people enjoying such peaceful and healtful food.

I got to talk to Lobsang, the head cook after it quieted down a bit and he had just seen his teacher, the Dalai Lama the day before in San Jose., there were 14000 people there. { I found it amusing that Sarah Palin was in San jose the next day talking to a few hundred people and they made such a big deal of it on the news ha ha sign of the times} Anyhow, this cook got to sit up in the front row and he was pretty stoked by it. So that was my day. Oh I got to shop in the wonderful Whole Foods in Oakland and got a raw chocolate pudding desert , some laundry stuff and some greens and frozen fruit for my smoothies. much diversity of people shopping there, many many young and hip adults of all races who are interested in their health.

Flick

Go ahead if you want the late nite troll frolickng , Mikey. no is here to care anyhow. just pissing in the wind. I don’t really care, I am watching a movie and find your impotence here amusing enough. so frolic on, but you will not be posting on my blog tomorrow in the day ha ha. I don’t get people banned. they get themselves banned. sock puppets of Mike’s are good at getting “themselves” banned. a seedy mind is not my fault.

What happened to Grizzle?

Grizzle – Journal of a Laboratory Rat
« on: January 30, 2011, 11:34:46 AM »

grizzle

43 year-old White male, 6′ 1″, 220 lbs. (all that may be relevant). Was on klonopin, 1 mg, 20/month at first and eventually brought up to 30/ month. total time on klonopin 13 months. Ambien, maybe 7 months, 10 mg, again, 20 at first and 30/month later. Hit tolerance WD halfway through, began having extremely vivid dreams, paranoid thoughts, stomach growling, began on morphine sulfate for WD effects some months ago (I had no idea of the severity or duration of benzo WDs), became addicted. Up to 180 mg/day (lethal oral dose for 200 lb. male in good health is 240). Drank two months, liqueurs. Quit everything cold turkey about two weeks ago, stayed off four days, had some symptoms of benzo WDs, total sleeplessness, arms ached, lower abdominal pain, extreme sensory acuity – all senses. I had already switched to temazepam 15 mg/day shortly before attempting cold turkey. Reinstated to get over that experience before attempting taper. Not advocating reinstatement for others).

Warning – don’t read below if suicide particularly bothers you.

History – Had severe convulsions in first five years, some febrile, some not. Fevers up to and including 108 F. Was prescribed Phenytoin at age five. One week later went from normal happy child to brooding loner child. Agoraphobia and autism-like symptoms presented. Cerebellar atrophy is acknowledged side effect of Phenytoin (Dilantin). The cerebellum is a center of socialization reward and the inhibitor of the amygdala (brain parts that mediate fear and aggression). Reduced cerebellar volume implicated in autism. I could read and comprehend college biology texts at age 9 (gifts from aunt). At age 12, tested as having sophomore college reading level. Suggested by three teachers for participation in MENSA group. IQ never tested. I got by through imitating the behavior of others, and just holding it in. School was living hell. Last two years of high school, went to trade school due to relaxed atmosphere. Learned machining.

At age 18, due to termination of love relationship, had nervous breakdown, didn’t sleep for 14 days. Self-inflicted gunshot wound with 10% liver damage. Major abdominal surgery, doctor punished me for suicide attempt by withholding pain medication for four hours after awakening. First contact with mental health profession shortly after. Prescribed Elavil. Side effects, wore sunglasses indoors, urinary urgency and frequency and retention. Ran air conditioner in winter.

Attempted suicide with Elavil OD. Stopped Elavil without incident some months later.

At age 33 had surgery for abdominal adhesions resultant from first surgery. April 2001, due to troubles with mate, lost home, belongings, and 27 small animal pets. And more. Fortunately did not become homeless between then and now. Had various suicide attempts (acetaminophen, diphenhydramine+ dextromethorphan powder, ethylene glycol). Failed. Was in coma for three days after diphenhydramine + dextromethorphan OD. Hanged self from bridge in Oct of 2005. Rope broke and I fell 25 feet. Had non-displaced fracture of C2 vertebrae, healed without incident. Was prescribed (and pretended to take) various psych meds until I felt comfortable asking for what I thought was safer – low strength benzo (see above). On mental disability five years, diagnosis: bipolar (incorrect, no cycling, situational response), agoraphobia panic disorder.

Cannabis users ‘have lungs of 80-year-olds’

Doctors warn people are turning up at A&E with new form of emphysema after using drug for less than ten years
  • Many, who are just in their 30s, are in need of long-term oxygen therapy
  • One patient in Bangor, north Wales, is now awaiting a lung transplant
  • Cannabis-tobacco mix damaging because often smoked without filter
  • Emphysema normally caused by tobacco and usually occurs late in life

Cannabis smokers in their 30s have lungs so badly damaged that they look like an 80 year old’s, doctors have warned. They say that young adults who have smoked cannabis for less than a decade are turning up at A&E with a severe, rapid and advanced form of the lung disease emphysema. Some are in their 30s and in some cases their lungs are so badly damaged that they are put on long-term oxygen therapy. One patient, studied in Ysbyty Gwynedd, a hospital in Bangor, north Wales, is waiting for a lung transplant, a British Thoracic Society conference heard.

Emphysema, in which the millions of tiny air sacs in the lungs are gradually damaged, is normally caused by tobacco and usually occurs late in life.

It is thought the cannabis-tobacco mixture found in joints is more damaging because they are often smoked without a filter. Cannabis smokers also tend to inhale for longer and much of the cannabis on sale today is much stronger than in the past.

Dr Damian Mckeon, a consultant in respiratory medicine at Ysbyty Gwynedd, who studied eight patients who had smoked at least five joints a day, said: ‘We are seeing young people on the wards with the lungs of 80 year olds after less than a decade of smoking cannabis and tobacco. Our study was in a rural region of North Wales but we believe these cases may represent the tip of the iceberg. Cannabis is far stronger these days and we are seeing the emergence of a new severe form of emphysema – which could lead to people struggling for breath for the rest of their life. We urgently need a detailed study across the UK which analyses the national picture of cannabis-use and lung disease.”

Dr Bernard Higgins, of the British Thoracic Society, said: “This study is yet another small but persuasive piece of a jigsaw pointing to a real danger of regularly smoking joints. The Government should monitor this emerging evidence carefully and take it into account when considering future drugs and smoking policy.”

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Yes, donny and nina, turns out my lesbian stripper friend just recently started dating men again. lol.  she does still have her regular lover girlfriend too.  her girlfriend is 50 and very nice and very smart.

I just came home from dropping her in the city and we had a great time at “Enchanted Forest” camp out rave party.   music all nite till 6 a.m.   one state outside and one inside the lodge , where they were also serving vegan food day and nite all nite.   great crepes, salads and raw deserts and cooked muffin desserts.

This was a beautiful boy scout camp in the redwoods.  a river was right there and we did some nude swimming and sunbathing there.    of course, there were no boy scouts around lol.    In the mornings , they had Indian kirtan chanting and yoga class.   hardly anyone went to those lol.   I mean , up all nite.    the ages ranged from around 18 up to people in their seventies. { a few}    mostly people in their mid twenties to late thirties.   a very good group of pretty mellow and loving people.   all into raving music and dancing.   there sure was a lot of sweet cannanbis smoke blowing around everywhere and people were quite happy and ecstatic.  these camp out festivals are fantastic.

I think I am going to one around my birthday on the July 23 in southern oregon called “Mystic Garden Party”   It is for 5 days  , but I would just go for 3.   then , next weekend it the African dance and drum camp campout in the Sierras for 6 days . I will go for 4 days.   they have drumming and dancing classes all day and then  music and singing around the large campfire at nite.   the teachers are all native Africans.   I like to smoke pot with them lol   they are some of the best dancers and drummers on the planet.     Uncle Flicky da water walker

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« Reply #7197 on: July 04, 2011, 07:15:05 PM »
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Flick, lay the f**k off my youtube chan and stop posting hateful remarks. Bit childish for a 60 year old. stuff like ha ha ha and saying someone posting something up that looked like me, since when have I been an a**h*** to you. You some across as pretty stuck up child, I only posted those vids to help people.

Honestly, there’s more nutjobs here than I’ve encountered. Do it again and I’ll report you. Don’t mess with me flick, let this be your last warning.

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Just a thought…. but the former member who shall remain nameless impersonates people.  My guess?  It wasn’t Flick at all who made a comment on youtube.  I could be wrong though.  Just a thought.

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I wish I could sing like Steve Perry. haha this is an awesome song too.

 
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You want some feedback , jam whatever? go blow yourself.   you can hang with texwatson here from now on and don’t attack me on my blog.   this blog is my happy diary and not to be invaded by t roll types.   Uncle Flicky da water walker
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Jam76, never even think of posting on my blog again with your hateful and nasty vitriol. you are one deluded a hole.  you would do better off hanging out with the  t rollsters here like texy watson and marky { the famous “Mr. M”}  I don’t know what the hell you are talking about with your youtube stuff.  you might consider wising up a bit lol   {NOT}

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Well, I think I will stay home today instead of going to african dance class and dinner in the city. but I might change my mind in a while after sunning on the deck and working some.  I don’t have much food made around here anyhow.

Will be driving up to the Sierra’s  on sunday to start the african dance and drumming camp .

I am pretty sure I will go to the next camp out music and dance festival , the Mystic Garden party .  that starts on right at my birthday , which is July 23.   I might even take some real Ecstacy for my birthday, since I have never done that and life is an adventure.

Tomorrow is acupuncture in san fran and the dentist.  my temporary bridge for my front tooth fell out so I look like some kind of Appalachia backwoods redneck pot grower now lol.    Uncle Flicky da water walker

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By the way donny, good music vids. yes that is the best song Journey ever did. the only really good thing about Journey was Steve Perry’s voice and a couple of classic songs  they did like this one.   I do like the Crystal Method a lot though.    I guess i was born in the wrong generation, I left rock behind a long time ago and am only into electronica now and some ethnic and world music.   the early hippie rock was o.k.  like Hendrix, Led Zep and the beatles and so forth. that was all very good in its day.   Now rock is pretty much junk, except for some U2 stuff and so forth.    To me , also the old rock is boring and uncreative compared to modern electronica.   Uncle Flicky da water walker
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By the way donny, good music vids. yes that is the best song Journey ever did. the only really good thing about Journey was Steve Perry’s voice and a couple of classic songs  they did like this one.   I do like the Crystal Method a lot though.    I guess i was born in the wrong generation, I left rock behind a long time ago and am only into electronica now and some ethnic and world music.   the early hippie rock was o.k.  like Hendrix, Led Zep and the beatles and so forth. that was all very good in its day.   Now rock is pretty much junk, except for some U2 stuff and so forth.    To me , also the old rock is boring and uncreative compared to modern electronica.   Uncle Flicky da water walker

Flick go to pandora.com and type in crystal method and it will make a radio station of just that style, haha.

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Listening to Collie Budz right now. excellent stuff. i have been buying and downloading albums off I tunes. they got about everything. I can burn my own cd’s cheap for in the car.   wow, I have been reading up on the Mystic Garden Party and it looks beyond awesome. I am going to go for all five days.  this will beat hell out of Woodstock, no doubt about it,   much more advanced.    the hippie movement has actually come into its own with the newer,. younger generation combined with us oldsters in the movement.   for one thing, we are now dancing a lot more and a lot better.

I cannot believe the wonderful quality of the male dancers at the dance events i go to.  I grew up as a male in the dance and it was always a woman’s world there.  except for a whole bunch of gay dudes, but still it was ruled by women in general.   Men in our culture tend to be stuck in their heads and not much in their bodies in any kind of sensual way.  So you see these incredible stiff and unrhythmic dancers{ the white dudes lol} in the bars, mostly just trying to pick up women  and get laid.   pretty obnoxious really lol.

Now in the current hippie dance movement that really got going with the modern clubbing in Europe and the warehouse rave scene all over the world and merging more and more with spiritual and hippie values,  the men are pretty much on an equal footing with the women.  of course, black dudes always were at least pretty good, and mostly very good dancers.  now the young hippie guys at my dances are fantastic dancers .  I mean, just as good as the women.  very impressive and heart warming to me .  Of course, there has been a huge influx of ethnic dance classes all over the place including African and Brazilian, but still mostly women take those trainings[besides me and a few other men}.  so that does not explain it.  it is simply that guys have loosened up and they go to all these dances all the time. so they just get better and better. and , of course, so many are doing hatha yoga too these days, so men tend to be much more fluid and flexible than before.

to me this is part of the whole evolutionary movement of humankind.  I like it.

So this mystic garden party festival will be great.  my first african dance and drum master teacher, Chris berry will be headlining the live music.   he has a whole band now and is world famous.  there are theme camps this year{ like at Burning Man} and Chris is hosting an African dance and drum camp. that means that there will be drum circles and drum classes day and nite. I am going to bring a couple of my djembe drums with me to sit in the circles. i will also be jumping into the middle of the circle to do african dance solos.    it is fun to hear all the women in the circle giving you cat calls lol.    Only  a Leo like me would say that.   lol.

So this festival I am very excited about, even more exciting than the African dance camp.   Uncle Flicky da water walker

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Off to harbin hot springs for the dance tonite and nude hot bathing and steam and sauna.     back to harbin tomorrow for  hiking , swimming , more nude bathing   and an awesome dinner.   going to go look at my friends big outdoor medical grow around sunset then.     side of a mountain. nice.

many dances to choose from on friday nite.   then one day at home and off to the Sierra’s for african dance camp.  very busy with fun stuff in my  birthday month of July.     Whoopee      really look forward to “Mystic garden party

I think I have at least two beautiful woman riders with me for that one, maybe three    .  Uncle Flicky da water walker

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Off to harbin hot springs for the dance tonite and nude hot bathing and steam and sauna.     back to harbin tomorrow for  hiking , swimming , more nude bathing   and an awesome dinner.   going to go look at my friends big outdoor medical grow around sunset then.     side of a mountain. nice.

many dances to choose from on friday nite.   then one day at home and off to the Sierra’s for african dance camp.  very busy with fun stuff in my  birthday month of July.     Whoopee      really look forward to “Mystic garden party”

I think I have at least two beautiful woman riders with me for that one, maybe three    .  Uncle Flicky da water walker

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No problem , Jimbo.  save up some money and come on out to the fun zone for awhile.   there is plenty more fun to be had this summer and into past october with the good weather in  the fall here   more festivals and harbin is always there. you are not too old to learn surfing either  , never too old to have fun. Uncle   Flicky    One has no excuse not to come to california.
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Had a great time up at harbin in Lake co.  it is a very beautiful , semi mountainous county.   the dj at the dance thurs nite was fantastic.  he played electronica in many forms from the eitghties and nineties and contemporary,  house music,   trance,  drum and bass,  plus the more “modern” stuff.   he has created an album combining kirtan chanting{ the guy has a great voice too} with electronica dance music.  pretty cool I bought the cd and have been listening in my car.Anyhow I had my usual steams and saunas and mineral  water hot soaks and swimming laps in the large spring water pool{ no chlorine at all than God}  .  finished with a great dinner in their fabulous restaurant.  they always have 2 chicken dishes , two fish dishes and two or three vegan dishes and always soups and salads and raw deserts. I had one of the best curries I ever had with a side salad and tofu. I had a raw mango mousse for desert and it was amazing too along with some organic gunpowder green tea from China from the Numi tea company which is local in Oakland.  great teas, some of the best.

There are a lot of organic outdoor marijuana growers up there in Lake Co. and I got to tour the one of one of my friends  .   full sun on the side of a gorgeous mountain and completely legal.   LOL   large, beautiful plants with wonderful smells.   anyhow, the law enforcement helicopters fly over every day, not to arrest anyone{ unless they are cartels with over the legal limit numbers of plants} but to check up and make sure they are o.k. and that there is no robberies or violence going on.    now that is a good use of law enforcement.

Getting ready to dance in Oakland in the morning, grab a lunch and drive off to the Sierras to African drum and dance camp.  I will be dancing again there on sunday nite and for the next three days after.  these Africans are not only master dancers and drum musicians but they also like to paaarty. there will be campfire parties every nite with singing and dancing .   these guys love it when I come to camp , because I bring my “goodies” lol.  and I share.A week from sunday is guru purnima day, which is the celebration of the guru or great teacher in Hinduism. I will go to a big celebration for that, which will include meditation and a lot of chanting .  then the next week off to Mystic garden party for a five day festival and camp out in south Oregon.  lots of dancing, swimming and so forth.   Uncle Flick da water walker

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« Reply #7216 on: July 11, 2011, 01:29:54 PM »
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did not make my African dance camp due to work schedule right now.   think I might try a regular surf or rent a paddle board and practice trying to catch waves. there is a lot of overcast here now , but good waves from a south swell.  I think I will have a protein green smoothie and get out there walking on the water.  I will get in some african dancing tomorrow nite however in san fran.  that is fun too . Uncle Flicky da water walker
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« Reply #7217 on: July 11, 2011, 03:28:28 PM »
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Hi Flick,
Thought i would stop by and say Hi. I am seeing some amazing transformation physically. The vegetarian diet some new supplements i am taking for the gym it is unbelievable . I have gone from a flabby 187 to 157 of toned muscle in a matter of three and half months. I knocked another mg off the poison too. I started a thread in the lounge on massage I am thinking of going to school and looking in to the healing touch courses. I love giving massages and have been told i am good at it. I want to start a career where I can give back and help others. I am not going to let B/W beat me it can just go to hell lol. Anyway looks like you have a busy Birthday weekend trip planned I hope you have a great time.
Take Care Anton
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Crossed from 1.5 mgs of Kolonpin to 30mgs of Valium stabelized 12/09/09. First cut to 28 mgs
01/05/10.Second drop 01/15 to 27 mgs 01/24 26mgs 03/15 24mgs 03/21 22 mgs 04/04 20mgs 04/16 19mgs 4/29 18mgs 05/09 17mgs 05/19 16mgs 06/09 14.5mgs 06/17 14mgs /07/07 13mgs 07/22 12.5mgs 08/04 12mgs 08/18 11.5mgs 08/28 11mgs 09/12 10.5 mgs.Lost my partner of ten years and like a fool updosed to 12mgs late 01/11 trying to get back on track big mistake 11.5 04/13 11mgs 05/01 10 mgs 06/12 9 mgs 07/07 Three years On Benzos starting with Ativan then Klonopin .Can’t wait to be free god help me

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« Reply #7218 on: July 12, 2011, 12:30:12 PM »
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Thanks for posting on my blog, anton. you are doing great with your taper and life these days. you have overcome a lot of obstacles,  and that is what life is all about, eh?Well here is something I got a laugh and hoot out of today.
sometimes, I look in at bb.
So he is harboring a guy who attacks me regularly {and also others from here} all over the internet, from facebook, to youtube  LOL.    Uncle Flicky da water walker
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