“I will probably cause a storm of protest but I have got to say that although I have gained so much support and love through this group, I have also been scared witless. So many do’s and dont’s. I’ve been afraid to eat the foods I love. Afraid to take a supplement. Afraid to have a glass of wine with a meal. Afraid to take a pill when I felt I needed to. I felt inadequate because I couldn’t cope with all the w/d symptoms and yet others were soldiering on after years of suffering. I was terrified at the symptoms people had and I identified with them. Every symptom I got I blamed on valium. I reached a point where I realised valium was ruling my life as it had when I was in the depths of addiction. I decided to say ‘no more’. Yes… I’ve taken an antidepressant. I’ve slept for the first time in months and feel a whole lot better. I’ve had a glass of my favourite wine with a meal. Wonderful... I’m living again. I had no adverse reaction. I’ve had ice cream, cake, chocolate. No reaction. I have some quality in life. I’m not sitting waiting for the day I might wake up and think I feel better today. I might be too old to enjoy it. It might never happen. We are all so very different. Please find your own path. Trial and error. You may not have to give up all the things that help to make life a bit more worthwhile. I’m hoping this helps someone.”
One cult member's response:
“While I understand you saying you were afraid of many things you have been cautioned about here, some stories are very scary. We as admins have to walk a tight rope of not wanting to hurt or discourage anyone, but for the greater good of the community here we must also take a stand against wd antagonists. But I’m sorry I just have to say something here… while everyone is different, it is extremely ridiculous to think that you are going to heal if you keep throwing gasoline on your recovery. Eating chocolate or drinking caffeine is one thing, but to tell people it is alright to drink and take random valium or anti-depressants is another! This is so completely irresponsible! While you may not feel any ill effects, that does not mean you are not maligning your recovery time. Alcohol is a liquid benzo! It does not make it more innocent because you drink a glass with your dinner. At only 4 months off you are doing a disservice to your recovery, and this is not just my opinion. We can only go by what we have learned and the Ashton Manual was written based on more than 12 years of clinical experience from Dr. Ashton dealing with people in withdrawal and recovery. If you do not want to wait until you are healed to drink that is your business but please to not advocate that this is something everyone should just go ahead and do. Taking extra doses of valium or random anti-depressants are like playing with fire as well.”
Tap Water « on: June 10, 2017, 07:03:32 pm »
Does anyone know if drinking tap water could be more harmful after benzo withdrawal? I don’t know if this is just my anxiety or if I should look into getting a water filter? I’m especially worried because I’m having issues with hydration right now where I feel constantly dehydrated so I’m drinking a lot. I’m not sure if it’s okay to be flooding my body with tap water day after day. Thanks!
What is worse than summer and benzo WD? « on: June 12, 2017, 07:10:44 pm »
Can I get an “Amen”?!
Am I crazy or do hot, humid days just make EVERYTHING harder during benzo WD?
Eating makes my anxiety flare.. « on: January 13, 2017, 04:11:17 pm »
So yeah, just recognized this “symptom”. I feel good when I don’t eat, I feel content, like I’m really alive and powerful and not just a ghost. But after I eat, the anxiety, cog fog, confusion, dissociations, depression.. They all flare. I don’t really understand this, is this a symptom or is this just me? I’ve read that some people experience anxiety after they eat, but I’ve never been like that. I’ve always had good appetite (except in the morning) and could’ve eaten just about anything.
I haven’t been able to link it to any specific food, just eating normal and healthy (no junk- or fast foods). I’ve never had any regular eating times, now I’ve tried to maintain them somehow but not with success. It’s pretty weird and would like to know if someone has experience of this, like some particular food that does it to them..
Is there anyone else who could relate? It doesn’t bother me tho, except for the fact that I don’t know what has happened and why.
Re: Eating makes my anxiety flare.. « Reply #1 on: January 14, 2017, 05:47:34 pm »
I have the same.
I’m so tired of this benzo crap
Orange juice revving me up « on: January 11, 2017, 06:58:47 pm »
Just like the title says I’ve been drinking a small glass of OJ in the AM for the past few days. Today I notice increased w/d symptoms like cog fog, dizziness, and a bit anxiety. I always drank a small amount daily but stopped several months ago because I suspected it was revving up my symptoms.
Anyone else experience this too? I know we can get food sensitivities maybe this is one for me. I hope it goes away. Does anyone know an explanation for this? Is it the VitaminC?