Dealing with loss of income/job:
Here’s a message for everyone who has lost their job due to benzo withdrawal syndrome.
I ran into a guy I used to work with at a previous company from a few years ago. Here’s how the conversation went:
He said “Are you still working at (company)?”
I said “no, I’m still unemployed“.
He said “Really? What do you do all day?”
This was a question I wasn’t prepared for and at first I panicked and thought to myself “oh my God, what DO I do all day”? Then…it dawned on me…I’m fighting a secret battle to save my mind and my very soul. I spend all my energy researching this horrible curse, interacting with others who are going through the same thing and experimenting with the right diet and supplements to restore some form of normalcy to my life. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I am probably working harder than I ever have in my entire life 24/7 just to keep myself from going insane. And a wave of calmness came over me and all of a sudden I felt proud of myself for fighting the toughest battle I’ve ever faced.
This is our “job” now! Fighting Benzo Withdrawal Syndrome. And that is something all of us should be proud of. I don’t know many people that could endure so much physical and emotional pain, embarrassment, humiliation, guilt and anger all at once and still get up every day.
So I answered his question by simply saying “I’m working on something big”. And that answer was the truth, in fact, it was an understatement.
I just want everyone to give themselves a pat on the back for fighting this battle every second of the day and winning. This is our new job as far as I’m concerned. And it’s the hardest one we will ever have.
Hope this post helps everyone to feel good about themselves tonight and show yourself some compassion and love. You have all earned it.
Peace and love to all!
25 YEARS ON XANAX
« on: September 04, 2017, 04:05:35 pm »
I have been on Xanax for about 25 years. Dosages as high as 4.5 mg a day years ago to down to .5 mg a day (and up and down over the years). Currently on.5 mg a day and tapering (i hope). The V.A. is trying to get people off of the Benzos I think because of a (perhaps) causal link to dementia. The Dr has added hydroxyzine on a trial basis starting at 20mg a day….we will see. My primary symptom was dizziness along with (at times) heart palpitations. Before Xanax I was self medicating with beer, up to 12 cans a day. The symtoms would be constant for months and then go away for months…I haven’t figured out what might have triggered the symptoms in that long ago time. They gave me a CAT scan with (happily) negative results ( in about 1987 or so). And then gave me some Halzion to help with sleep. I found that by taking the Halzion in the daytime my symptoms went away almost immediately! Anyhow because Hazion was not for anxiety per se, they went to Xanax. This in spite of the fact I didn’t have to take the halzion on a constant basis, but only as the symptoms showed up. (Dr.s always know best, of course, they are “M.D.s”……Medical deities………) […] says “hello to all”
Is the System evil or ignorant?
« on: September 01, 2017, 10:44:05 pm »
Is anyone else ANGRY at the doctor who turned you into a drug addict? I submit that most doctors ignorantly believe if patients take their meds as prescribed, there won’t be any issues. Here’s the problem: Your brain doesn’t give a flying f%@$ about US law or what your doctor thinks. All it knows is that it’s regularly been influenced by a powerful psychoactive and it wants more. We’re every bit as much an addict as anyone else, and our addiction can actually kill if you just stop taking it. It also creates the longest and most horrific withdrawal known to man. (I’ve confirmed this with heroin addicts, alcoholics, meth addicts, anyone who has been through a withdrawal). Heroin addicts feel sorry for me! No one is taking responsibility for ruining lives by the million in the name of the almighty dollar.
Pharmaceutical companies send hot girls to doctors offices to persuade them to hand out their drugs. Wtf?! Our society is so brainwashed by the DSM-V, thinking about which acronym fits them because life sucks sometimes for everyone but there has to be something wrong with you. ADHD, OCD, PTSD, GAD, MDD…choose a f@$!ing acronym so you can become a lifetime customer.
We’ve all gone through he’ll because our doctor’s either didn’t know or didn’t care what they were doing. Our society gives so much reverence to doctors…we trust them implicitly because they went to med school. My doctor literally opened Web MD when prescribing my klonopin. They’re not f@$&ING special, they’re human beings just like anyone. They are succeptible to greed and the powers that be are so god damned cocky they don’t even attempt to hide the fact that the people we trust with our health are being bribed by drug companies. Doctors who prescribe things they don’t understand have betrayed the public trust and should be dealt with accordingly. They’re drug dealers…in every sense of the word. We have a war on drugs that imprisons people for smoking a plant while the system were supposed to trust is getting us hooked on the drugs they can profit from.
Anyone who has suffered as I have suffered must surely feel the same injustice. I got out of the military after serving honorably for 6 years…I told my doctor I didn’t feel quite right. Then I was a drug addict. Klonopin took everything in my life. I barely survived it….and that piece of shit probably did the same thing to someone today.
No one should ever go through what I’ve been through. Helping people who are suffering with hope and advise is great, but shouldn’t we be doing something to stop the system that put us here? The average person has no idea what a benzo is…if they tell their doctor they’ve been anxious lately, chances are they’re gonna join our ranks. How do we save those people?
Xylitol is a sugar alcohol used as a sweetener. It's harmless.
- Kook #1: “I had xylitol on Friday . I think maybe it made me feel like this. Like I’m back in acute.“
- Kook #2: “That’s the stuff in whitening chewing gum?”
- Kook #1: “It’s a sugar alternative. I think in some gum too.“
- Kook #3: “Xylitol is poisonous for dogs!”
- Kook #4: “If it’s just xylitol you will get over this. You’ve gone without benzos for almost a year! Think about that and try not to obsess about how you are currently feeling.”
- Kook #1: “Dunno what else it could be. Had to be the xylitol. It was only new thing I did, and this started right after drinking it.“
- Kook #5: “Come on Jonny hang on! The motherfuckers who poisonned [sic] us are NOT gonna win!”
- Kook #6: “I’m glad you are feeling better. I did want to remind you that I’ve warned you on xylitol two times in the past when you had horrific symptoms and had taken a supplement or ate something with that it in. I suggest you make a list of your known trigger foods and use it. There is plenty of symptoms we can’t control during this journey. I am damned sure to purposefully and mindfully abstain from substances that are known triggers. Hoping you continue to feel better as the day goes on.”
- Kook #1: “That’s one of my big issues, I’ll try a food or something, and have a reaction. then 2 months later I freaking forget! so then I try it again. It’s a viscous [sic] cycle. I am gonna write it down this time.“
Re: Benzo Class Action Lawsuit via Facebook Group
« Reply #115 on: July 26, 2017, 06:20:40 pm »
I suppose that this went nowhere?
« on: June 08, 2017, 11:01:22 am »
It seems to me that we been told benzos were not harmful and now we are damaged why cant the pharmacutal be held accountable. The medical field refuses to adknowlage there is a problem in the US because it makes billions chasing systoms .why cant we sue money would me happy. I am surprised the lawyers aren’t pursuing this. This is another day I cant work.
« Last Edit: June 08, 2017, 11:08:21 am by [Buddie] »
Re: legal action
« Reply #1 on: June 08, 2017, 01:42:12 pm »
Want to help people put the drug companys that sell this crap in jail.
« on: June 07, 2017, 03:46:46 am »
Ok, so they had a benefit concert for the injured in Manchester, England after the terror attack. They raised $22 million. Where the hell is our benefit concert for those of us who got injured by benzo’s and Z-drugs and lost our jobs and are on disability and with no health insurance and trying to make ends meet? Something is so wrong in this world. The terrorists are Big Pharma and we are the victims.
Re: Benefit concert
« Reply #1 on: June 07, 2017, 05:48:48 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on June 07, 2017, 03:46:46 am
The terrorists are Big Pharma and we are the victims.
Well said. Unfortunately the rest of the world doesn’t see it that way.
losing all hope
« on: June 06, 2017, 08:23:44 am »
I am losing hope to recover. Even if I am only fighting for such a short time compared to all of you.
I can handle it all, but not the insomnia.
I thought things were getting a bit better, I slept 17 hours last week. But the past 3 days I slept NOTHING. I feel relaxed, still stay awake, heart pounding, night sweats etc.
I am going to lose my job over this, my social life is already nothing for months.
Sure, I can still try remeron, but I feel I am masking the problem only by taking medication. And what if I take it for a while and have to cut back on that eventually, then I get rebound insomnia from that too? And I just really get depressed if I gain weight. I already gained a lot past years. My weight is healthy now, but I don’t want any more.
I need to get to work (interacting with a lot of people and making decisions). I took some time off, but it didn’t help with the insomnia at all.
I lost all hope for a good (normal) life.
Sorry, to complain, but I am crying my eyes out here….
« on: May 18, 2017, 01:10:03 pm »
I used a little bug spray yesterday night and I swear it reved up my symptoms so badly. Nerve pain was out of control!!!
Could it have been the chemicals in the spray? It had DEET in it too.
Re: Bug Spray
« Reply #1 on: May 18, 2017, 08:30:36 pm »
It could be. Some people have claimed sensitivity to solvents during withdrawal (e.g. fresh paint or cleaning solvents).
Dried, wrinkled hands???
« on: May 16, 2017, 01:17:03 am »
A new symptom has popped up for me now 7.5 months out from CT of Prozac – dry, hands that are wrinkled and numb to touch. I feel barely any sensitivity in them. Is this even normal? I’m really starting to question WD…I am having sxs that not many have or have had for a long time. Really concerned here…
Re: Dried, wrinkled hands???
« Reply #1 on: May 16, 2017, 01:21:52 am »
I have that, too, more in my right than my left hand. I find that leaning on my elbows when I use the computer. or even just using the computer makes it worse. Also try not to sleep on your hands or arms. I know I do that, but that’s how I sleep. As long as I’m awake I try to keep off of them, though.