Checking in after 4.5 years « on: April 01, 2019, 08:04:08 am »
Just wanted to stop by to check in as it’s been a few years. I bounced in to BB in 2014 whe I was about to get off my clonopin. I was a mess. Well I got off them and became more of a mess. Then put on Prozac and gabapentin.
Here’s my timeline now:
4.5 years off benzos
2.2 years off Prozac
2 years off gabapentin
It’s been grueling. I live all alone with no support except online. I had to keep working to stay off the streets which has been extremely difficult. I declared bankruptcy after I spent 12,000.00 on an amino acid therapy and countless other things I thought would help.
My symptoms are still extreme and all mental, psychological, emotional, spiritual and cognitive. I’m scared and alone.
I thought I would reach out to you all. I have had no windows or any breaks though I’m better than I was 4 years ago. In total it’s been about 10 years of hell on and off meds. So I’ve lost hope. 2010 was wake up call when I rapid tapered off Xanax and nearly died while unconscious. Fortunately my Neigbors found me and I woke up in a hospital with extreme hallucinations for 3 weeks. Once released I had to go back to work but couldn’t so they put me on clonazepam. On and on until I got worse and worse with more meds (ad’s)
Then found BB
Long story long road
Like many others
Anyway here I am med free and could use some hope if your not to busy
I’m 62 and it doesn’t seem or feel like I’ll ever heal. Maybe something else is wrong but had 2 MRIs and tests which bankrupt me. So now I’m just trying to keep a roof over my head.
All I want is to be well to feel love and joy and know what well being feels like again.