Woman wasting away to nothing in grip of insane Benzo Buddies taper regimen

Family is now concerned
« on: October 03, 2018, 02:41:01 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve been battling Benzo discontinuation syndrome for almost 3 years now. No one but my husband has really ever taken me seriously… must be your original symptoms coming back.. Yada Yada.. well this year my body just started wasting more. I’ve lost weight all along but this year 25 pounds and now I look sick. Now I’m being worried about and being told to see specialists by my parents. I don’t want to see them worry but I don’t have the energy to go through all the testing for all the symptoms I have. I also don’t want to be put under for an upper and lower GI. Their badgering now makes me think it’s something else.. it’s getting in my head and now I think I have cancer.

Re: Family is now concerned
« Reply #1 on: October 04, 2018, 10:09:57 am »

[Buddie]

First let me say, I’m glad your husband understands, at least you have someone on your team. Let me akso say, I know it’s hard to get the testing, physically and mentally hard to do…but if you do it, both you and your family can get done relief. Either they treat a bigger problem or they find nothing. Either way it’s a win win situation.

May I ask, off subject, has the lamictal helped you?

Re: Family is now concerned
« Reply #2 on: October 04, 2018, 10:29:47 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 04, 2018, 10:09:57 am
First let me say, I’m glad your husband understands, at least you have someone on your team. Let me akso say, I know it’s hard to get the testing, physically and mentally hard to do…but if you do it, both you and your family can get done relief. Either they treat a bigger problem or they find nothing. Either way it’s a win win situation.

May I ask, off subject, has the lamictal helped you?

Hello, thanks for responding I did wind up making a appt. to get started with tests starting with blood work. I started the Lamictal the same time I started Klonopin in 2015. I’ve never increased my dose and don’t plan to but yes it did help me greatly at the time. I was having extreme rage and could not be a good parent. I was so hesitant but I had to and lucky for me I have absolutely no issues with it so far… now coming off might be a different story. What I do know is that I can miss a day of taking it and I don’t notice. I hear when I do decide to come off the anger will return but it’s the very last one I plan to remove.

Mentally ill cult members go on SEVEN PAGE RANT to deny they’re mentally ill

Re: False Charge: BB Is Full of People with BPD
« Reply #63 on: January 18, 2018, 02:58:38 am »

[Buddie]

Your Nurse/Professor friend could be suffering from CRI (Cranial Rectal Insertion). I don’t think it is borderline! I think it is full blown CRI!
« Last Edit: January 18, 2018, 03:09:50 am by [Buddie] »

Re: False Charge: BB Is Full of People with BPD
« Reply #64 on: January 18, 2018, 03:48:47 am »

[Buddie]

OMG!!!  Now that is hysterically funny!!
Laughing like a lunatic!  Very creative disorder!
Thanks for the laugh, […]  :laugh:

Re: False Charge: BB Is Full of People with BPD
« Reply #65 on: January 22, 2018, 06:14:41 pm »

[Buddie]

And her point is?

This ticks me off. I’ve been diagnosed with this for over 30 years–yeah, I’m old–and recently received another dx of the same symptoms (although lessening in severity; a few mechanisms for this decrease have been proposed). This doc called it complex PTSD. I’m Aspergerish and was bullied and ostracised as a kid. She was adamant that that was traumatic.

ADD is another possible differential diagnosis. She ought to look up advances in the diagnosis and treatment of BPD, for there is a lot going on she seems, from OP, entirely unaware of.

BPD has nine criteria, five of which must be met to establish the diagnosis. Most of these are pretty different from one another, so guess what, psych nurse: the population of BPD patients is a diverse bunch. Those of us who are aware of our symptoms as they arise often take great pains to avoid a stereotypically ‘borderline’ response when triggered or otherwise displeased. We know that to react in the moment brings, as often as not, unwelcome consequences.

Yeah, some ppl with this condition are rageful, childish and manipulative as hell, seeking to incite drama where there need be any. Many do have anxiety disorders, for any number of reasons, and so have been prescribed that one thing we all have in common: benzos. (And since benzos are so good at dysregulating thoughts and actions, I will concede that someone with BPD who is also under the influence of benzos and/or alcohol is indeed capable of creating controversy and dissent. may seek to manipulate. May effectively do so until her target chooses to act to stop it.

But I doubt that many people with BPD who do NOT use benzos come on here to p%$# people off.

Just sayin

Heartless family sends woman flying into arms of another family… a cult family

Pisses me off that this is not seen as a legimate illness (rant)
« on: December 14, 2017, 01:54:09 pm »

[Buddie]

My mom and other family members love to laugh about panic disorder and anxiety. Why? Because they don’t understand it. My distant cousin who’s gone through some trauma of her own is on 4 different medications for anxiety and depression. The way they just talked about her and another family member who has social anxiety really angered me. They dismiss everything about this illness and just made fun of how she shakes constantly and how the other one can’t look up to say hi to a stranger. I heard them in the back laughing how everyone has a panic disorder. The ignorance just blows my mind.

I don’t find this funny at all. I’m shaking cause I’m so upset right now. What would they do if they experienced 5 minutes of panic? 5 minutes of the mental torment. I bet they’d swallow every pill in sight as well in the hopes of feeling normal again. I know I’m healing and what I’m going through is w/d but there are people out there with legitimate illnesses. For some people this isn’t w/d and is a part of their everyday lives..

Do we need to get cancer for someone to actually care? Do people with mental illnesses need to be hooked up to 4 ivs in a hospital bed for someone to understand? This is not cool. There needs to be more awareness, more compassion in our society. This just sickens me.

I might’ve lost my temper at them and am complelety ok with that. Someone needed to.

Benzo Buddies members can’t stop crying after torture of years-long tapers

Cannot Stop Crying......
« on: December 09, 2017, 08:58:05 pm »

[Buddie]

From the relentless nonstop torture utter despair and sorrow this has all caused me
The sorrow is so deep
Please make it stop

Re: Cannot Stop Crying......
« Reply #1 on: December 09, 2017, 10:09:37 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve so been there. Sending hugs.

Re: Cannot Stop Crying......
« Reply #2 on: December 09, 2017, 10:15:07 pm »

[Buddie]

Me too….. incredibly hard at times. ….and to make things worse my boyfriend basically gets upset with me and tells me to “get myeflf under control”. 🙁 Sending you comforting hugs.