Benzo Buddies orders terrified addict to ignore doctor, reject psychiatric medication

Hello, My Story
« on: August 17, 2018, 01:25:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi. I’m in a bad situation because I decided to smoke weed with friends about three months ago and only one hit threw me into a mood frenzy. I was an insomniac for a week after, non stop crying, paranoid, and panic attacks. So I managed to get 1mg Xanax from a friend which I used for about 14 days at night for sleep to reset my sleep. The last four days, I cut it to .5mg and then .25mg. I then stopped because I felt fine. However, I have been having up and down mood swings, palpitations that make me fear a heart attack, restlessness, shaking, paranoia, and what feels like chronic fatigue. I fear for my life like the weed may have cause tachycardia or mitral valve prolapse. Is this just from my underlying anxiety or the CT from the xanax? I got a shaky episode the other night and had to use one to stop the tremors and feel it was a bad idea. I see a psychiatrist Monday and I am terrified because I can’t tell the doctor about the weed or the xanax because the medicine was not prescribed to me and I could get in trouble. What do I do? I fear my life may never be the same again. I am weak and tremoring as I write this. What if I’m developing mental illness? The only option is for the psych to prescribe me benzos or ssris. I don’t want either.

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #1 on: August 17, 2018, 01:37:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello […],

Welcome to Benzo Buddies! I’m sorry you had such a severe effect from marijuana. Some strains can in fact increase anxiety, it appears you might have experienced this. Additionally, there might have been other substances in the marijuana that cause your reaction.

You took xanax for about two weeks. The recommended length of time for taking benzos is a maximum of two to three weeks, so you are right in that time frame. You are most likely feeling the effects from stopping xanax. There is likely to be withdrawal effects of some kind after two weeks of use. I do believe that these symptoms should ease up though, it may take a little while though.

If it were me, I would explain to the doctor what started your issues. If you don’t explain the cause, it is likely that the doctor will diagnose you with an anxiety disorder. If you didn’t have issues like this before using marijuana, then the effects you felt were due to the weed.

Your central nervous system took a hit with the marijuana and xanax. It may take a little while for things to settle, but they will. Try to distract from what you feel so that the fear doesn’t cause more issues.

I’ll give you a link to the Ashton Manual. It is an excellent resource about benzos and how to withdraw. It was written by Dr. Heather Ashton, an expert in the field. The manual does discuss tapering in detail but IMO, I would not suggest this for you. If it were me, I’d stay away from benzos and allow my body to recover.

I’ll also give you a link to the Post Withdrawal Recovery Board where you can post and receive feedback from members.

Your life will be the same, once your system recovers. I know this can be frightening, I felt the same way when I was directed to stop ativan for a medical test. I’m glad you’ve joined, you’ll find a lot of good information and support here. It’s going to be OK.

The Ashton Manual

Post-withdrawal Recovery Support

[…]  :)

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #2 on: August 17, 2018, 02:13:00 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks. If my psych has to give me something, what would be the best route as I am terrified of those withdrawals as well?

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #3 on: August 17, 2018, 06:29:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 17, 2018, 02:13:00 pm
Thanks. If my psych has to give me something, what would be the best route as I am terrified of those withdrawals as well?

You don’t have to take any medication if offered. It is your body and you can make the decision as to what to put in it. I didn’t even know what a benzo was when I was prescribed it. I had no idea about it’s potential for dependency or withdrawal. I learned a big lesson; be proactive about what I take and question everything.

It’s been my experience that ‘some’ doctors want to medicate everything when there are other alternatives.

[…] :smitten:

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #4 on: August 17, 2018, 07:04:06 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah. I also forgot to mention that three days before the weed incident, I CT’d beer completely and for the past year I was drinking three to four to five a day. Could that have something to do with what I am going through maybe?

Crippled by Ashton dogma, Benzo Buddies members unable to watch movies

Infinity war
« on: July 05, 2018, 07:38:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Not sure if this is the relevant place to post this but a few nights ago I tried watching the new Avengers film. I hate missing out on the new releases due to withdrawal and not being able to go to the cinema. Anyways big mistake, wayyyyyyy overstimulating.

Anyways the end was horrific.

Something about that imagery stuck with me. I’ve been in a crippling depression, depersonalised state for ages now and sometimes it really feels like my body is just disintegrating from the inside. I think in my currently altered state it is hard to escape the negative feelings, so strangely I’m finding parralels in my current situation with the end of a superhero movie. Strange

BENZO TEETH

Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« on: December 02, 2017, 05:50:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I noticed one of my bottom tooth moved. It’s not loose, it doesn’t hurt. It just shifted. Has anyone else had this?

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #1 on: December 02, 2017, 10:26:47 pm »

[Buddie]

So I guess not 🙄

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #2 on: December 03, 2017, 12:25:17 am »

Due to me clenching my teeth at night, I have teeth that move around. (Although they did this when I was still on klonopin). They don’t move a lot, so I don’t notice from one day to the next, but after a month or so I notice that certain teeth and spacing are different.

Do you have a tendency to clench your teeth at night while you are tapering? This could do it.

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #3 on: December 03, 2017, 02:18:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks, I don’t think I clenching but who knows?

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #4 on: December 03, 2017, 02:24:16 pm »

[Buddie]

It is probably night grinding or clenching, though that can also happen in the day. My bottom teeth have moved a bunch, but my top teeth only a little bit cause I have a nightguard to keep them in place. I would go to a dentist and get a nightguard to keep them from moving more. You may also want to see an orthodontist. I think I might see an orthodontist when I’m done with withdrawal and see what they can do.

Excerpts from benzo cult hero Stevie Nicks’ shocking new bio

  • Grammy winning singer-songwriter, Stevie Nicks snorted so much cocaine and became so addicted to the drug that she had to be shadowed to keep from falling off stage when performing and needed to have someone tuck her into bed at night
  • The Queen of Rock and Roll in the 1970s and 1980s not only had a huge hole in her nose from the cocaine, but she was warned of the imminent possibility of a brain hemorrhage if she kept up her high level of consumption
  • But it was the shocking rumors that she had reverted to using the devil’s dandruff in her vagina and rectum for the ultimate high that was the eventual motivation for her to go into rehab in 1986 at the Betty Ford addiction treatment center in Minnesota
  • The Fleetwood Mac singer admitted: “You could put a big gold ring through my septum. It affected my eyes, my sinuses. It was a lot of fun for a long time because we didn’t know it was bad. But eventually it gets hold of you, and all you can think about is where your next line is coming from”
  • “All of us were drug addicts. But there was a point where I was the worst drug addict. I was a girl, I was fragile, and I was doing a lot of coke and I was in danger of brain damage,” she told author Stephen Davis for his upcoming book, Gold Dust Woman: The Biography of Stevie Nicks

Husband who tried to off himself with 48 Xanax pills after video went viral saved by rehab

  • Ronald and Carla Hiers were seen writhing around in a Memphis street after injecting heroin
  • The pair had been together for 20 years when they were filmed last October
  • After being saved by paramedics, Carla was arrested on outstanding charges
  • Ronald went home and tried to kill himself with 48 Xanax pills and more heroin
  • His estranged daughter then persuaded him to enter a rehab center
  • They are no longer together and live in separate states
  • Both have completed separate treatment plans and are now clean and sober

A husband who was filmed overdosing with his wife after shooting up heroin in one of the most symbolic videos of America’s drugs epidemic last year has shared new details of their crippling addiction and how they overcame it.

On October 3, 2016, Ronald and Carla Hiers were filmed crawling along the sidewalk and passed out at a bus stop in Memphis after injecting heroin in the bathroom of a Walgreen’s nearby.

Footage of them writhing around in broad daylight as they reeled from the drug’s effects attracted millions of views on Facebook.

The couple have since completed separate rehab programs and are no longer living together or even in the same state.

His addiction began at 13 when he and his friends started sniffing paint. They graduated on to marijuana and then began using harder drugs when he was around 18.

Not long after the video went viral last year, Ronald was admitted to Turning Points in Tennessee.

Carla was released from jail several weeks later and went to a separate facility in Massachusetts.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5081685/Couple-viral-heroin-overdose-video-separated.html#ixzz4yQbdWk4V

Alcoholic tapers with Vodka at online Ashton shrine

Question about alcohol
« on: November 02, 2017, 02:53:39 am »

[Buddie]

Thinking about trying this but I’m worried about how it affects gaba receptors. But If I do try it, I’m using 175 mls of liquid. Do I put 2 mls of Vodka and 173 mls of water?

Thanks.

Scared of the effect bc I’m an alcoholic.

Cult leader bars members from meeting, or even talking about it

An In-Person Support Group
« on: October 31, 2017, 04:49:37 pm »

[Buddie]

I have heard of these for us, I am remembering now as I type this out. How do we get more going, what is the protocol?

Any thoughts…? Thanks ahead of time.

(I’d like to start one in my area, maybe for victims of pharmaceutical violence in general. I’m only in the thinking and planning stages though.)

Re: An In-Person Support Group
« Reply #1 on: October 31, 2017, 04:59:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Well I just saw that we aren’t supposed to even mention or talk about this in general. I can’t delete my own post though, I have found.

I don’t see the harm in discussing this and being non-specific about location, kind of a depressing rule if you ask me.