Crippled by Ashton dogma, Benzo Buddies members unable to watch movies

Infinity war
« on: July 05, 2018, 07:38:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Not sure if this is the relevant place to post this but a few nights ago I tried watching the new Avengers film. I hate missing out on the new releases due to withdrawal and not being able to go to the cinema. Anyways big mistake, wayyyyyyy overstimulating.

Anyways the end was horrific.

Something about that imagery stuck with me. I’ve been in a crippling depression, depersonalised state for ages now and sometimes it really feels like my body is just disintegrating from the inside. I think in my currently altered state it is hard to escape the negative feelings, so strangely I’m finding parralels in my current situation with the end of a superhero movie. Strange

BENZO TEETH

Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« on: December 02, 2017, 05:50:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I noticed one of my bottom tooth moved. It’s not loose, it doesn’t hurt. It just shifted. Has anyone else had this?

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #1 on: December 02, 2017, 10:26:47 pm »

[Buddie]

So I guess not 🙄

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #2 on: December 03, 2017, 12:25:17 am »

Due to me clenching my teeth at night, I have teeth that move around. (Although they did this when I was still on klonopin). They don’t move a lot, so I don’t notice from one day to the next, but after a month or so I notice that certain teeth and spacing are different.

Do you have a tendency to clench your teeth at night while you are tapering? This could do it.

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #3 on: December 03, 2017, 02:18:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks, I don’t think I clenching but who knows?

Re: Has anyone’s teeth moved?
« Reply #4 on: December 03, 2017, 02:24:16 pm »

[Buddie]

It is probably night grinding or clenching, though that can also happen in the day. My bottom teeth have moved a bunch, but my top teeth only a little bit cause I have a nightguard to keep them in place. I would go to a dentist and get a nightguard to keep them from moving more. You may also want to see an orthodontist. I think I might see an orthodontist when I’m done with withdrawal and see what they can do.

Excerpts from benzo cult hero Stevie Nicks’ shocking new bio

  • Grammy winning singer-songwriter, Stevie Nicks snorted so much cocaine and became so addicted to the drug that she had to be shadowed to keep from falling off stage when performing and needed to have someone tuck her into bed at night
  • The Queen of Rock and Roll in the 1970s and 1980s not only had a huge hole in her nose from the cocaine, but she was warned of the imminent possibility of a brain hemorrhage if she kept up her high level of consumption
  • But it was the shocking rumors that she had reverted to using the devil’s dandruff in her vagina and rectum for the ultimate high that was the eventual motivation for her to go into rehab in 1986 at the Betty Ford addiction treatment center in Minnesota
  • The Fleetwood Mac singer admitted: “You could put a big gold ring through my septum. It affected my eyes, my sinuses. It was a lot of fun for a long time because we didn’t know it was bad. But eventually it gets hold of you, and all you can think about is where your next line is coming from”
  • “All of us were drug addicts. But there was a point where I was the worst drug addict. I was a girl, I was fragile, and I was doing a lot of coke and I was in danger of brain damage,” she told author Stephen Davis for his upcoming book, Gold Dust Woman: The Biography of Stevie Nicks

Husband who tried to off himself with 48 Xanax pills after video went viral saved by rehab

  • Ronald and Carla Hiers were seen writhing around in a Memphis street after injecting heroin
  • The pair had been together for 20 years when they were filmed last October
  • After being saved by paramedics, Carla was arrested on outstanding charges
  • Ronald went home and tried to kill himself with 48 Xanax pills and more heroin
  • His estranged daughter then persuaded him to enter a rehab center
  • They are no longer together and live in separate states
  • Both have completed separate treatment plans and are now clean and sober

A husband who was filmed overdosing with his wife after shooting up heroin in one of the most symbolic videos of America’s drugs epidemic last year has shared new details of their crippling addiction and how they overcame it.

On October 3, 2016, Ronald and Carla Hiers were filmed crawling along the sidewalk and passed out at a bus stop in Memphis after injecting heroin in the bathroom of a Walgreen’s nearby.

Footage of them writhing around in broad daylight as they reeled from the drug’s effects attracted millions of views on Facebook.

The couple have since completed separate rehab programs and are no longer living together or even in the same state.

His addiction began at 13 when he and his friends started sniffing paint. They graduated on to marijuana and then began using harder drugs when he was around 18.

Not long after the video went viral last year, Ronald was admitted to Turning Points in Tennessee.

Carla was released from jail several weeks later and went to a separate facility in Massachusetts.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5081685/Couple-viral-heroin-overdose-video-separated.html#ixzz4yQbdWk4V

Alcoholic tapers with Vodka at online Ashton shrine

Question about alcohol
« on: November 02, 2017, 02:53:39 am »

[Buddie]

Thinking about trying this but I’m worried about how it affects gaba receptors. But If I do try it, I’m using 175 mls of liquid. Do I put 2 mls of Vodka and 173 mls of water?

Thanks.

Scared of the effect bc I’m an alcoholic.

Cult leader bars members from meeting, or even talking about it

An In-Person Support Group
« on: October 31, 2017, 04:49:37 pm »

[Buddie]

I have heard of these for us, I am remembering now as I type this out. How do we get more going, what is the protocol?

Any thoughts…? Thanks ahead of time.

(I’d like to start one in my area, maybe for victims of pharmaceutical violence in general. I’m only in the thinking and planning stages though.)

Re: An In-Person Support Group
« Reply #1 on: October 31, 2017, 04:59:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Well I just saw that we aren’t supposed to even mention or talk about this in general. I can’t delete my own post though, I have found.

I don’t see the harm in discussing this and being non-specific about location, kind of a depressing rule if you ask me.

Mother who sold marijuana and Xanax to students at her daughter’s high school a Benzo Buddies member?

  • Kimberly Quach was arrested in late September on counts of selling marijuana and pills to teens, using a minor to sell drugs and running a drug den
  • Other charges against Quach, a mom-of-two, include child abuse and theft
  • She is accused of selling marijuana, Xanax and opioid treatment drug Suboxone at Cathedral Catholic High School, where her daughter is a senior 
  • Quach is executive at a non-profit foundation that raises money for at-risk youths
  • She was arrested two years ago for writing bad checks and stealing from a friend 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5001084/Mom-sold-drugs-students-daughter-s-high-school.html#ixzz4w3xBj39p

Husband wants back on pills after Ashton taper leaves him unable to get off floor

At the risk of incurring the wrath of everyone here...
« on: October 09, 2017, 01:58:31 pm »

[Buddie]

my husband has been benzo free for 4 months and 1 week, and he is considering reinstating!!  :'(  It’s just too much. He feels like he will have an actual breakdown. He is being driven by the intrusive thoughts about his symptoms never getting better. He is lying on the floor all day, hardly able to walk to the bathroom, watching a few benign things on tv (but still on mute), but mostly panicked about his breathing symptoms. He still can’t feel himself breathing -loss of sensation in nostrils/numb nose/feels like nose is blocked/feels like nose is collapsing- and his nose is getting drier still and black chunks are coming off the walls. Really bad air hunger from (seemingly) the incredibly tight muscles in his chest. Throat constriction. This is hell folks.

I know the mantra on this site is to soldier through, but seriously, I had to invoke the Baker Act 5 years ago, and he was put on these benzos after that. He might not make it through this.

I’m sure I’m going to get a slew of “you can’t do it” posts, and “don’t reinstate” posts, but seriously, if you have experience with late reinstatement, or reinstatement that relieved your physical symptoms, I want to hear them. Even if you tell me it relieved it at the time, but you wish you hadn’t because it kindled the next withdrawal, at least tell me that you got some relief initially.

Alternately, if you had similar nose issues, when did they get better for you?

Elderly forced into years-long tapers

Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« on: September 26, 2017, 12:52:06 pm »

[Buddie]

I was wondering if there are any here who are over 60 years of age and tapering. I feel it is a lot harder now that I am older. I am going to press on with this at a very slow taper rate. I don’t care how long it takes, as long as I have minimal to no symptoms. I need to be able to function and want quality of life. Just thought I would inquire. Thanks.

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #1 on: September 26, 2017, 02:11:39 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi,

I was 62 when I began my taper, which, of necessity was a fast taper. Though it took me a long time to heal, I don’t regret it at this point, and am much better for being off benzos. It really was worth it. I’m 5.5 years off now.

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #2 on: September 26, 2017, 02:26:09 pm »

[Buddie]

I completed my taper just after my 60th birthday. Now I am recovered and I feel good and I feel young again. I’m so glad I tapered off this crap. It’s worth doing at any age.
Love,
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Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #3 on: September 26, 2017, 04:56:22 pm »

[Buddie]

I will be 58 tomorrow so not quite 60 but close enough. I did a slow taper but I am still having issues. I don’t know that it can be avoided completely. Good luck with your taper. I am sure it will all be worth it in the end.

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #4 on: September 26, 2017, 07:30:57 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m 64 but don’t know if there is a big difference between tapering at 20-30 years old or 50-60 years old. I just know that whatever time I have left, I want to be totally drug free including antidepressants that don’t work anyway.

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #5 on: September 26, 2017, 07:37:04 pm »

[Buddie]

I am 61 and took my last xanax May 31st 2016. I tapered for four months and in hindsight I think my healing would have been smoother if I had gone a bit slower on the taper. I am so grateful at this point though to be free of xanax- the battle was worth it. I am living a pretty normal life now and most symptoms have lessened to a tolerable level. I wanted to give you hope that there is life on the other side even when you are 60 or older.

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #6 on: September 26, 2017, 08:22:56 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m 68 and have been doing a very slow taper for years. For the most part I have been functional. My fears made and still do make the symptoms much worse! I’m down to 1.75mgs of Valium now. I was only on xanax .25 mgs for sleep for 18 months. I have been tapering on Valium for 4 years. I had some very long holds due to life altering events. I have never updosed. I have learned so much about myself during the last 4 years. I’m grateful for that. I look forward to the future and I know the best is yet to come! I do think age has an impact on tapering. My doctor agrees. Best of luck to you! 

Re: Being Over 60 and Tapering?
« Reply #7 on: September 26, 2017, 09:43:36 pm »

[Buddie]

Thank you all for the encouragement and hope! It’s never too late and I know that I will feel much better when it is completed. Going low and slow is key. 4 years is what I think I may be looking at. That is fine as long as I can function. I have a mother who will be 90 in a few months and have to make sure she is doing well. She lives 3 hours away and I have to be able to travel and keep going. Sometimes we have no control over life’s circumstances and it does get harder as we get older. I also have some friends who are sick and I try to see them and help with their care. I am a retired RN so I still have the nurse in me. My husband is very supportive even though he can’t understand. I have sometimes say no to doing too much activity wise. I commend you all for your determination and positive attitudes! Thank you so much!
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