Magnisium Oxcide « on: June 12, 2019, 06:34:38 pm »
I just got out of a terrible set back from off gassing from furniture.
A specialist told me to wash my clothing in Enviroklenz laundry enhancer to remove the Chems.
I am not worse than before from breathing in Mag Oxide and Zinc Oxide.
It says mag stays in the system for 27 hrs. So I read its a GABA acting metal? Now this means im in the thick of it again?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #33 on: November 02, 2018, 07:55:39 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on November 02, 2018, 05:50:26 pm
I don’t want this to be controversial but I’m having a hard time seeing people that are so sick years out. I’m having a hard time believing it’s still withdrawal (except for cold turkey people).
Maybe we shouldn’t be telling them it will get better. Maybe they do need to be on an anti depressant.
Please don’t attack the post. I’m just questioning the quality of life if the suffering goes on for so long.
This is exactly how I feel. People keep saying I’ll get better because I’ve only been on them 2 weeks and some change and got like this. And it’s November and this all happened end of July. It’s so tiring. I’m willing to take anything. I’m too young for this. It’s so depressing. I question my sanity everyday. I obsess over it. I’m like a caged animal in my damn head.
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #34 on: November 02, 2018, 08:05:55 pm »
This thread me realize I need to take a break temporarily from BB. Can’t obsess over this.
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #35 on: November 02, 2018, 08:09:40 pm »
Geez did anybody read the disclaimer ?
Can someone tell me how to delete this friggin post?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #36 on: November 02, 2018, 08:09:57 pm »
Can one get floxed from eye or ear drops?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #37 on: November 02, 2018, 09:12:47 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on November 02, 2018, 08:09:57 pm
Can one get floxed from eye or ear drops?
Yes, I have seen it a few times on here.
Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « on: August 22, 2018, 02:50:12 pm »
Heading 18 months next week, but the burning nerves and chemical energy are absolutely horrible.
I am losing my mind and would like to smash everything in my room, because of the pain and anxiety.
I hope someone can give me some positive words today. I am fucking done after so long.
« Last Edit: August 22, 2018, 02:57:31 pm by [Buddie] »
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #1 on: August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm »
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #2 on: August 22, 2018, 04:56:00 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Really not only them, but family and friends think we are crazy and put a label on our head.
“We are you lying on the couch the whole day”, “why are you not working” etc.
I remember the words from my doctor who said this medication will help you with your sleep issues (1,5 year back). Yeah right it has destroyed everything. As far as I know from you, you are also struggling really bad isn’t?
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #3 on: August 22, 2018, 05:10:20 pm »
Struggling really bad. I’ve lost friends cuz they don’t understand. Coworkers won’t even stop to talk anymore. The statement that really pisses me off from people that don’t understand is “SNAP OUT OF IT” it can’t be that bad. Went to see a new doctor and when I explained what I was going through I got the same puzzled look and he wanted to refer me to a phych pill pusher. I told him the damage is done and I need to be left alone to heal. He strongly disagreed and offered a script for Paxil and Xanax. I got up and left. There’s my pissed off vent for the day. Let’s just keep pushing and eventually we will be writing our success stories. Hang on buddy!!!!
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #4 on: August 22, 2018, 05:15:41 pm »
I’m in there with you guys. I’m having a bad run on and off. Hope, I felt what you described wanting to scream or break things, it happened yesterday and I went what the hell was that I’m a pretty fun lovin guy. It may be the length of time given up to healing and not seeing a straight line improvement. No choice, move forward, stay clean.
When this tweet reaches 500 likes I will initiate first arrest of Mental Health employee
When it reaches 5000 likes I will arrest a psychiatrist
Well it’s better than cutting my ear off while perched on a Russian psychiatric facilities wall like Pyotr Pavlenski #PsychHunter
— End Psychiatry (@EndPsychiatry) December 10, 2017
Afterlife fear « on: March 29, 2017, 01:14:49 pm »
Before I was put on a benzo I had Pure o OCD. My theme was I thought I was dead and in the afterlife. Today while in benzo withdrawal I can’t seem to break through the thoughts that I’m fine. Like I’m totally losing it.
I have Mental illness so it’s kinda hard to help me when I have so much going on.
Re: Afterlife fear « Reply #1 on: March 29, 2017, 02:49:54 pm »
I think it may be your mental illness combining with the DP/DR that happens in withdrawal! For me it was just creepy things like the feel of plastic grocery bags was all wrong, I was sure they were much thinner and cheaply made 
and I despised touching them for a long time. Religion and your concept of what an after-life is are probably overwhelming right now.
So, research Depersonalization and Derealization, I hope that will comfort you…
peace,
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I'm 45 and have lost ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. « on: March 14, 2017, 10:16:14 am »
I’ve been fighting clonazepam withdrawal for four years now. I’ve made it through it twice only to b launched back into it by mistakes. Once from taking a prescribed drug called perphenizine which totally reset me back to zero. And once from taking Aleve. I’m 45 and have lost everything I own. My savings, my 401 k, my stock portfolio and my house ..which burned down while in clonopin withdrawal. My credits destroyed too. I’ve lost over 200,000 total.
I’m 45 yrs old and feel there’s no use in trying to start over. I’m too old. My life is over and I simply do not want to exist anymore.
