Magnisium Oxcide « on: June 12, 2019, 06:34:38 pm »
I just got out of a terrible set back from off gassing from furniture.
A specialist told me to wash my clothing in Enviroklenz laundry enhancer to remove the Chems.
I am not worse than before from breathing in Mag Oxide and Zinc Oxide.
It says mag stays in the system for 27 hrs. So I read its a GABA acting metal? Now this means im in the thick of it again?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #33 on: November 02, 2018, 07:55:39 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on November 02, 2018, 05:50:26 pm
I don’t want this to be controversial but I’m having a hard time seeing people that are so sick years out. I’m having a hard time believing it’s still withdrawal (except for cold turkey people).
Maybe we shouldn’t be telling them it will get better. Maybe they do need to be on an anti depressant.
Please don’t attack the post. I’m just questioning the quality of life if the suffering goes on for so long.
This is exactly how I feel. People keep saying I’ll get better because I’ve only been on them 2 weeks and some change and got like this. And it’s November and this all happened end of July. It’s so tiring. I’m willing to take anything. I’m too young for this. It’s so depressing. I question my sanity everyday. I obsess over it. I’m like a caged animal in my damn head.
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #34 on: November 02, 2018, 08:05:55 pm »
This thread me realize I need to take a break temporarily from BB. Can’t obsess over this.
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #35 on: November 02, 2018, 08:09:40 pm »
Geez did anybody read the disclaimer ?
Can someone tell me how to delete this friggin post?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #36 on: November 02, 2018, 08:09:57 pm »
Can one get floxed from eye or ear drops?
Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #37 on: November 02, 2018, 09:12:47 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on November 02, 2018, 08:09:57 pm
Can one get floxed from eye or ear drops?
Yes, I have seen it a few times on here.
Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « on: August 22, 2018, 02:50:12 pm »
Heading 18 months next week, but the burning nerves and chemical energy are absolutely horrible.
I am losing my mind and would like to smash everything in my room, because of the pain and anxiety.
I hope someone can give me some positive words today. I am fucking done after so long.
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Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #1 on: August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm »
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #2 on: August 22, 2018, 04:56:00 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Really not only them, but family and friends think we are crazy and put a label on our head.
“We are you lying on the couch the whole day”, “why are you not working” etc.
I remember the words from my doctor who said this medication will help you with your sleep issues (1,5 year back). Yeah right it has destroyed everything. As far as I know from you, you are also struggling really bad isn’t?
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #3 on: August 22, 2018, 05:10:20 pm »
Struggling really bad. I’ve lost friends cuz they don’t understand. Coworkers won’t even stop to talk anymore. The statement that really pisses me off from people that don’t understand is “SNAP OUT OF IT” it can’t be that bad. Went to see a new doctor and when I explained what I was going through I got the same puzzled look and he wanted to refer me to a phych pill pusher. I told him the damage is done and I need to be left alone to heal. He strongly disagreed and offered a script for Paxil and Xanax. I got up and left. There’s my pissed off vent for the day. Let’s just keep pushing and eventually we will be writing our success stories. Hang on buddy!!!!
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support « Reply #4 on: August 22, 2018, 05:15:41 pm »
I’m in there with you guys. I’m having a bad run on and off. Hope, I felt what you described wanting to scream or break things, it happened yesterday and I went what the hell was that I’m a pretty fun lovin guy. It may be the length of time given up to healing and not seeing a straight line improvement. No choice, move forward, stay clean.
When this tweet reaches 500 likes I will initiate first arrest of Mental Health employee
When it reaches 5000 likes I will arrest a psychiatrist
Well it’s better than cutting my ear off while perched on a Russian psychiatric facilities wall like Pyotr Pavlenski #PsychHunter
— End Psychiatry (@EndPsychiatry) December 10, 2017
Afterlife fear « on: March 29, 2017, 01:14:49 pm »
Before I was put on a benzo I had Pure o OCD. My theme was I thought I was dead and in the afterlife. Today while in benzo withdrawal I can’t seem to break through the thoughts that I’m fine. Like I’m totally losing it.
I have Mental illness so it’s kinda hard to help me when I have so much going on.
Re: Afterlife fear « Reply #1 on: March 29, 2017, 02:49:54 pm »
I think it may be your mental illness combining with the DP/DR that happens in withdrawal! For me it was just creepy things like the feel of plastic grocery bags was all wrong, I was sure they were much thinner and cheaply made 
and I despised touching them for a long time. Religion and your concept of what an after-life is are probably overwhelming right now.
So, research Depersonalization and Derealization, I hope that will comfort you…
peace,
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I'm 45 and have lost ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. « on: March 14, 2017, 10:16:14 am »
I’ve been fighting clonazepam withdrawal for four years now. I’ve made it through it twice only to b launched back into it by mistakes. Once from taking a prescribed drug called perphenizine which totally reset me back to zero. And once from taking Aleve. I’m 45 and have lost everything I own. My savings, my 401 k, my stock portfolio and my house ..which burned down while in clonopin withdrawal. My credits destroyed too. I’ve lost over 200,000 total.
I’m 45 yrs old and feel there’s no use in trying to start over. I’m too old. My life is over and I simply do not want to exist anymore.
Anaesthetic Dilemma- Help Please!! « on: June 19, 2016, 04:14:12 am »
Hi Everyone,
It’s been a while since I posted. Lots been happening including a hospitalisation on 6 March 2016 when I was admitted very ill & vomiting blood. Then followed blood transfusions in ER due to low blood count. Next thing was to find out the root cause of presenting symptoms. I was given a general anaesthetic for a endoscopy using a Benzo anaesthetic. Drs found HPylori bacteria had caused ulcers & biopsies were all clear of any other concerns. Have taken 2 lots of strong antibiotics to kill bacteria.
The anaesthetic caused my w/d sxs to escalate to such a degree that I had to hold my taper & only started again about 5 weeks ago (at a lower cut than I was doing before).
Presently on 14mg Valium per day & due to start another cut of 0.5mg tomorrow.
My concern is that the Gastroenterologist wants to do another endoscopy on 25 July to check all going OK. I know that this is possibly a good idea, but the thought of having another anaesthetic is terrifying, as I’m still recovering from the onslaught on my body of the last one!
I’ve printed up my very easily understood excel Tapering Schedule, have a folder full of personal information & relevant Ashton & other material so I can back up what I’m telling them. BUT to my dismay none of them even want to listen let alone look at what I’ve researched.
Bottom line: I really don’t want any more of this ‘stuff’ in my body at present & want to wait for further investigations when I’ve finished tapering.
Has anyone else had to face this dilemma whilst in horrendous withdrawal & tapering?
Any thoughts or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
Love & blessings to all,
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Re: Anaesthetic Dilemma- Help Please!! « Reply #1 on: June 19, 2016, 01:25:12 pm »
My suggestion would be not to try them making understand, just make it clear that you cannot and will not accept any benzodiazepine except what you regulary take for your taper.
Get it in writing if you have to ! Sometimes people have it reported in their medical files that they are ‘allergic’, but I don’t know if that would fly. Maybe the phrase ‘paradoxical reaction’ would work ?
I take it they used a benzodiazepine in addition to whatever else they used for aneasthesia ? There must be alternatives !
I haven’t been in that situation, but I know docs just won’t get it.
altitude and taper « on: May 25, 2016, 12:56:04 pm »
i have a strange question and wondering if anyone has advice… i am scheduled to be at the very end of my taper of temazepam at the end of july. i am at 11.5 mg from 30 mg right now and am surviving. however when i get to the end, i am scheduled to be in colorado at altitude of 8000 feet for vacation! i am wondering if i could/should try to use oxygen when i sleep to help. i don’t want to skip the vacation but i know that is going to be tough. altitude/end of taper/use of oxygen….any ideas anybody?
Does anyone else have a fear of going insane? « on: February 01, 2016, 09:41:37 pm »
Does anyone else have a fear of losing their mind? I’m so scared throughout this whole thing that I’m going to go insane. I’m so terrified of it. That and a huge fear of psychosis. Lately I’ve just had a need to write my fears down, to see if anyone else going through this can relate. I swear sometimes all that I’m enduring is so bizarre and horrifying and just unimaginable. I can’t describe it more but sometimes I just get this feeling along with just a huge fear of it that I’m actually or going to actually lose my mind. I had this much worse at about 3 months off but it’s come and gone all throughout my withdrawal. It’s been especially bad during this past couple of weeks after the emergence of tremors which I hadn’t had since cold turkey and once exactly one month out. Does anyone else get this too? I’m so tired of feeling terrified of things I had never even thought of ever in my life before this horrific nightmare. I literally feel poisoned, and as though my brain is melted in spots, damaged beyond repair. I’m sorry for so many posts lately. And I’m sorry if this one makes me sound crazy. I’m just doing the best that I can to get through it. If you can share feeling similarly to anything I’ve written above it will be so very greatly appreciated. I just really need to feel like I’m not alone in this today. Thank you so much.
« Last Edit: February 01, 2016, 10:04:39 pm by [Buddie] »
Re: Does anyone else have a fear of going insane? « Reply #1 on: February 01, 2016, 10:28:28 pm »
And sometimes I do go just a little bit insane, I’m glad there’s only my dog here to see me sometimes. One thing though, that helps…The Buddhist thing: everything changes, nothing stays the same for long…That goes for the bad, as well as the good. So I know that even if I do feel kind of out of my mind today, I also know that the next hour, the next afternoon, the next night, the next day, the next week…it will change. It’s what I count on while I try to stay in the moment and not fight anything, but just try to relax into it, this helps me get through. Just my thoughts.