— Benjamin Mazer (@BenMazer) September 10, 2019
Driver License renewal « on: September 07, 2019, 02:24:49 pm »
I’m curious for those that are at end of taper or very recently finished.
Could you renew your drivers license in your present condition?
Synthroid. 88 mcg
6/10/19. 1.90 sxs Holding
“William Steven and William Smith, you both are 100% correct. I was a member at BB for about a year. While I met some great people there, the majority were almost all anti-doctor, anti-psychiatry and extreme. It was so beyond sad when people were at the end of their rope and suicidal. If people got a chance nectar mod came along to stop the suicide posts, members were jumping in to say DUDE. STAY AWAY FROM PSYCHIATRY AND FOR FUCK’S sake do NOT ENTER A HOSPITAL TO SAVE YOU FUCKING LIFE. 🤬
“Every damn thing in the world causes a ‘wave.’ From a sugar free candy to the wrong minerals in water. It’s so pathetically saddening. MADDENING. I began to buy into pushing through while I was having awful insomnia, depression to the point of suicidal ideation, all while going through family difficulties which were beyond heartbreaking and enough to level anybody, mentally healthy and the already distraught. For some reason I got caught up in the cult mentality and was, no matter what, going to finish my taper. That’s until I found myself literally thinking that death might be the way out of my misery over more losses in my life. I finally left that place and realized that I needed help. I reinstated my Benzo, although at 1/4 of my highest dose and started an antidepressant. I might not need these drugs forever, but by God I not only needed meds, but I needed to GTFO of that sewer of cultists and people who clearly presented as those in desperate need of meds themselves. Thank Christ I came to my senses, and perhaps if I’d never read anything on that site I’d have not ever thought of suicide. God help vulnerable people who join BB and buy into the crazy thinking there.”
This is ridiculous! « on: September 01, 2019, 09:32:59 am »
“Here I am typing this on my phone as I lie on my bathroom floor, where I have found myself on numerous occasions over the past 12 months, pondering how the hell I can survive any longer.
I feel like I’ve reached the end this time, that I have no more left to give. My withdrawal has been no more or less brutal than anyone elses but my issues externally to this keep lining up and seem insurmountable at best. Perhaps it’s the benzo lies talking, perhaps not….who really knows what they’re thinking is rational or not in this situation?!
But right now everything feels too hard. Maybe this is a cry for help…knowing nothing and no-one can fix this though, essentially renders it useless. Errrrrrrmagod
I hope everyone whom finds themselves in a similar position right now finds the strength and courage to keep moving forward.
Love Peace and Taco Grease
Will I Ever Want to Go Home Again? « on: September 03, 2019, 11:33:50 pm »
I know I’ve spoken with a few people on this forum about this. This has been going on with me for about a year now. I don’t like going home at all. I get no joy from being in my own house. I feel mad at my family. I have no hobbies I want to pursue when I’m here. I can’t nap lately. It’s like the moment I’m gone for a while and then have to come back, I dread it. And when I’m here, I just feel mad and miserable. It doesn’t really matter if I’m home alone or not. I don’t know how many others deal with this. Being at home used to be the place I was most comfortable.
Not able to recognize yourself in the mirror « on: September 01, 2019, 10:09:22 pm »
Every time I look in the mirror I see something different. I can’t visualize what l look like either. I’m constantly looking to try to figure it out and it makes me freak out. Why is this. It makes no sense.
Re: Not able to recognize yourself in the mirror « Reply #1 on: September 01, 2019, 10:29:36 pm »
Bro I had this it will pass I promise. And to give you relief of what I had and haven’t came back since…
Swollen nips…yes I’m male lol
Waking up after nap with heart thumping still tired as shit
Hair scalp rashes
Passing gas damn near every 10 mins
Ringing in ears
White hairs( turned back to my dirty black natural color)
Wavy lines in vision/sensitive to light
Don’t be surprise what will pop up..it will pass. I’m 22 months off
Re: HELP!! Do I need to taper? « Reply #11 on: August 28, 2019, 07:04:41 pm »
Not trying to scare you but I was only on Klonopin for 10 days and my doctor wouldn’t allow me to do an Ashton taper because I was only on for such a short time.
I was hooked by day 7, unknowingly, when I took half a dose one night and woke up with heart palps. Damn pills nearly killed me when I quit after a rapid taper that was basically a CT.
It’s been over 15 months and I’m nowhere near healed.
I’ve come to realize, however, that I am in the extreme minority. You’ll probably be fine though.
2/08: Adverse reaction to 9 days of Saw Palmetto extract for hair loss (PFS)
Klonopin: .25mg PRN 2/08-7/08
Drug free for 9+ years, life was great
4/19: Severe ear infection, temporarily deaf, tinnitus – rx Augmentin
4/26-5/1: Steroid taper pack
4/26-5/5: Rx Klonopin .5mg nightly by ENT for insomnia/tinnitus (heart palps on Day 7 with .25mg, dependent in a week?!)
5/6: Cut to .25 mg (cut 1mg tabs into quarters) – BAD symptoms. Run to GP for help
5/10: Cut to .125mg (per GP advice) – even worse symptoms, bad advice from doc
5/13: Jumped. WAY TOO SOON. HELL. Should’ve reinstated, basically CT. Didn’t have sufficient supply, GP wouldn’t prescribe more. Wrongly assumed short use would be short WD