Toy Story 4 trailer causes panic, waves of fear at Benzo Buddies

Do Movies Make You Uncomfortable?
« on: June 23, 2019, 09:44:04 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m having a hard time even watching movies still at 15 months off. I want to go to Toy Story 4 but even the trailer and concept of the movie makes me uncomfortable. Furthermore, I have been watching Toy Story movies with my daughter and find they all make me uncomfortable. But other kids movies make me feel this way too. I don’t even want to think about dramas or horror movies.

Anyone else have this?

Industrial magnesium oxide cure backfires, sends hophead into acute

Magnesium Setback
« on: June 21, 2019, 12:50:22 pm »

[Buddie]

Buddies I was using industrial magnesium oxide and It has tossed to into acute where all I can do is pace and cry.

I am trying to push through. I was wondering if anyone has EVEN in benzo WD tried to sleep and when they fall asleep they wake up in the middle of the night with HUGE amounts of electricity and adrenaline going through their heart and maybe your feet and back start on fire or start burning real bad.

I don’t want to feel alone in this. I feel this is far worse feeling than a CT.

Kook dumps husband to marry Benzo Buddies cult

Leaving Partner in WD
« on: June 17, 2019, 04:45:28 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve decided to leave my husband, i can’t take the verbal and emotional abuse any more, we’ve been to counseling but the counselor said he was narcissistic and won’t change. The stonewalling, gaslighting and passive aggression from him is hindering my recovery I’m sure.

I’m on my third day of driving 900 kms with my dog to be with my son, having to stay in motels and getting a barrage of cruel emails from him. Tomorrow i will be there, hopefully i won’t get too much of a setback from this. Leaving the house was very difficult but i know I’ve made the right decision.

Anybody else out there done this in wd? Any support appreciated from anyone.

Years wasted tapering the Benzo Buddies way only to realize you’ll never feel normal again without psych drugs

Skeptical About Healing
« on: June 12, 2019, 04:50:52 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m really tired of feeling skeptical that I’ll ever get better. I’m 14.5 months off now, and over 12 months off all alcohol.

I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts, anger at my family for no reason, depression, anhedonia, fear, and the list goes on. I have burning in my calves still and facial pressure.

I’m just worried I’m never going to feel normal again without trying other psych drugs. I’ve done everything I can. I drink lots of water. I have been exercising daily (I am still very active). I get between 10,000 to 17,000 steps a day and do at least a half hour of cardio. I notice no immediate benefit from working out. I don’t really notice it later in the day either. I eat better, for the most part. No other drugs. No alcohol. I have recently tried caffeine again and notice it doesn’t hurt or help me at all.

I get constant reassurance from a few people who have gotten better that I will get better but it doesn’t help and I need to be hearing it all day. But I can’t do that all day. I’m just over this. Want to feel normal and enjoy things again.

Addict tries cryotherapy for benzo withdrawal symptoms after CBD oil fails

cryotherapy
« on: June 12, 2019, 08:14:55 am »

[Buddie]

hi guys, currently starting up the second half of my taper again now that college is done with, i can focus more on getting through this instead of worrying about deadlines.

so i was introduced to a cryospa near my home by a friend, and initially wanted to go to check on their CBD oil they had for sale. i’ve been using CBD to help with the rebound anxiety and insomnia, though it doesn’t fix everything, it helps. i ended up trying a 3 minute cryotherapy session for free, the woman there was sweet and her daughter was actually understanding of my brain injury and also my withdrawals. i did a lot of research and looked at some good studies done on anxiety/depression and cryo, withdrawals and cryo, etc. it was a small, family owned place and thus i ended up coming back and trying it again last week, then purchasing a month pass for treatments for around 200 bucks. usually medical cryotherapy costs, bare minimum, 60 bucks per session so i think it was a good deal.

this whole week i’ve been back into my taper head on, getting horrid migraines every day, cold sweats, severe depression and ideation, that infamous klonopin chest pressure, panic attacks, awful nausea/vomiting and so on. i’ve almost felt like i had the flu and was about to pass out at points. :'( i go in for one 3 minute session as much as i can, i’ve gone about six sessions now and i can honestly say i feel like it’s easing a lot of my symptoms’ intensity. i’m kind of a wuss, and even i was able to do the sessions, it’s not really that bad compared to sitting with my withdrawals every day. i think taking a cold shower is more uncomfortable somehow. it also gets easier every time.

when i go in, i do the full body treatment up to my neck, and it helps neutralize my feverish/cold sweat episodes for the rest of the day, makes me feel less tired, sometimes even less nauseated. with my brain injury, i’m on bedrest anyways, so i need the good circulation i get from cold shock. it helps the achy feeling in my body, and REALLY helps my back pain. i feel like i can finally sleep after i go, because my muscles just relax and my swelling and pain goes down throughout everywhere. it’s a little early to tell but i think it’s even helping clear my brain fog and dp/dr a bit, i feel ‘clearer’ for an hour or so. i get an endorphin rush afterwards, as well as norepinephrine, which i’m sure helps in other aspects, and in general it just makes me feel relaxed and not so wound up and sick.

i haven’t seen a lot of people talk about this kind of therapy for withdrawals but i’ve been told it can help with them and personally, i look forward to going in every chance i get when i feel absolutely horrible. i always feel somewhat better if not a lot better after. if you can find a local place, it can be pretty affordable compared to other medical therapies and i would recommend it (which i don’t say much, i’m a huge skeptic on this stuff). i will post another thread if i see any major new improvements after my 15th session (which is when the promising study done on anxiety and depression ends).

thanks and my thoughts are will all you guys 🙂

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Hands start to vibrate after kook washes them

Cool energy flowing through body. Has anyone experienced this?
« on: June 05, 2019, 11:09:29 pm »

[Buddie]

I usually get the warm burning acidic buzzing electric sensation in my skin and nerves but what the heck is this cool energy flowing through my limbs and body? I washed my hands and for 15 minutes after my hands were vibrating cool energy– not cold like when you don’t have circulation or the chills but it was like someone poured radioactive ethereal ice into my veins. Not painful but has me concerned because I’ve never seen this on here before. Anyone had/have this?